i found him...love him....

2010-02-20T01:51:00.005+08:00

20 feb 2010.

yeah i know i beri long never blog liao. i saw the comments on both your blogs and oso tagboards as well as mine. you babes are really irritating. i cant smell or think that my blog is dead or rotten k. i m jus plain lazy to update my stuffs. anyway my life is alwis the same so i dont really feel like updating. budden i found something interesting and i wish to share. hurhur.

first i want to show hunk

Luke Worrall (credited to google image search)

damn handsome right. i think he is a hunk not becos of looks cos maybe he can accept the fat kelly osbourne.

i choose this picture becos i love the pug she is holding onto (picture credit to google image search)

well, she is now a beauty.dammit.

picture credit to MSN.com

chio right?????!!! omg la. omg la!!!!! ><

picture credited to google image search

so envy. =.=

well, the moral of the story is eat healthy and oso work out. kelly osbourne's secret is to eat half an apple before sleep. dammit.

tsk tsk tsk.

No. 1 reason for not blogging. i had grown tremendously horizontally.

No. 2 i m super busy with school work and my part time florist job. I m stress for my studies but happy at my part time job. enjoyable. ask me about valentine day? i got work. haha.

No. 3 my lifestyle had remain stagnant. haha. my bf still the same k. haha.

i shall update some pictures. hang out with babes these few days. went for CNY on chu er only. becos i totally got no feel for CNY really. i jus feel like sleeping. =.=

hang out with my besties!!!!!!!!!!!!!

me and dear

mEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE......

that's all folks. this is the most recent picture of me liao. haha. and hell yeah i wrote this blog entry to rebuke via's entry. via my hair is not "finally (haha)" grow long k. idiot. alright i m still working towards the dream of my hair growing to my butt there. haha. and still slowly sluggishly trying to cut down on my diet. TTTTTTTTRRRRRRRRRRRRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYIIIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.

2009-10-06T09:59:00.002+08:00

6 october.

there is defintely alot of october events coming up. its alot of peeps bdae! an advance happy bdae to everyone whose bdae is on october.

its not a rotting blog. its just being abandon for the moment due to my hectic schedule. i am busy meeting up my bf, studying, working part time as florist assistant, meeting up my family and my dear besties. sorie for those i do not have time to spent with.

omg. its really long. a brief and fast update of my life.

first and forthmost, i am still living on the earth. hahas. seen some of my friends studying at SIM too. glad to know they are doing fine too.

secondly am celebrating my 20th bdae soon. i m parting my teens kinda sad. but the sadest part is that my hair is still not the length i wanted.

thirdly, i m lacking of motivation to slim down ever since secondary four. any suggestion?

fourthly, i am looking forward to completing my university and led my whole new life (marriage)

well i shall stop the numbering. its the process essay that leads me to keep numbering my stuffs. i have a mid term exam on thursday.

a shoutout to lizhen: HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY. meet up meet up meet up.
oh yeah lynn's 21st bdae is coming soon!!! hey babes lets meet up to buy her the 21st bdae present. :)

side note: omg omg omg. i m getting older and fatter each day.

2009-08-13T01:44:00.002+08:00

12 august.

Time never pardon anyone. Time loves to fly. It passes as my anxiety grew stronger. never mind about that few phrases before, i am just blabbering about my school opening. I just had a nagging feeling that i may not enjoy the sentosa orientation and my orientation goes all the way to 7pm. I am like oh-my-god that kinda. i was wondering what's the activity. at first hearing my florist friend say its like playing spider web in school, i am kinda relieve. at least everything is proceeding AT SCHOOL. right now, i receive their orientation briefing, its like at SENTOSA. for god sake, i still need to pay a hefty $25 bucks for the orientation t-shirt. fuck it. private school can really suck the hell outta you right.

no mood for that. i just want to bloody start my normal student routine again. can't wait for hell to start rolling. lol. wad a pesismistic way to start my new university life. i think the intercultural communication does me good. it make me understand why asians are more tend to hate "changes" in life. change is good! quoted by many, but the adaptability takes time. isn't it for everyone. i suppose the older you are, the more "unchangable" you are which meant "inflexibility".

i noe i am essay-ing again. pardon me. you may see months i may not even update my blog. i grew lazier in the holidays. well another worries for the orientation is. i dont want to be in the water. because my brows have no tail. practically if i go into the water and come up. they may not recognise me. chances is 99.9%. lol.

haha. back to my normal life right now. meet up with laine on tuesday night. well she gave me the L'oreal eyebrow pencil. LIGHT BROWN. i m surprise i can draw it on. whereas they can't. i have superb brows. lol. it can absorb any colours. woo lala.

then i m gng to meet them tmr again. damn via want to meet at 10am. hello babe, it bloody early in my dictionary. early=1pm and before. i love sleeping in late. you know i know why. hahas.

okie okie bk to topic. i just want to brag about G.I. JOE The Rise of the Cobra. well i catch the movie today. FYI via, hauntu now work at cineleisure checking movie tix before entering the theatre. i m like wtf. she is like DUHX. alright i m exaggerating. she is still chio. wadeva. anyway the main point is. the movie is like fucking good. i like the action packed the movie is potraying. hey laine, the korean guy has packs on his stomach. dont prejudice against him k. cos he is the only one wearing white. lol.

well the movie is good, but the plot sucks. so predictable. is there any movie that can be great as such that the plot is so unpredictable. the director squabble our minds while the action packed still looks great. lol. well i think that is like CMI. well, i saw some movie preview which are damn funny. BRUNO. laine, you go see. super funny. like fucking stupig can.

then before the movie, dear treat me to suki sushi buffet. i hate their new menu. there is no miso soup. i love miso soup. nvm abt that they have NATTOU... yum yum. its fermented beans. lol. exotic taste. haha. i can still picture dear's expression in my mind when he ate half of it. "he practically monkey see, monkey do" wahahahahaha!

then i saw rollers as in curlers for my hair. and dammit. i dont know how to use it. cos i tried and it seems like it pulling all my hair away. well $15 ok. dammit!!!!!!!!!! and and we went to arcade. i got some pics to post la. or else my blabbering makes you all bored. bleahx :p.m okie no pic cos i duno wad CB problem is happening to my com or blogger. wadeva. shitty. i want to go sleep liao.

well well i started to use MISS DIOR CHERIE. my dad bought wrongly. omg. i prefer MISS DIOR CHERIE-BLOOMING BOUQUET. er er... both smells equally appealing. muahahaha. smell me smell me. lol.

2009-08-07T01:21:00.002+08:00

7 august.

Finally, i am like online? ler. i am so lazy to go online these days.

so as to not to disappoint my readers (referring to my babe and dear) let me post these 2 pictures. which i really really think is magnificent. TO ME ONLY NIA. i not trying to be a show-off. but showing these 2 pics is consider a show-off. who cares. tralalala~

muahahahaha. stop throwing your curses and swears at me. ler.

hmmmm. i m like enjoying my last bit of holidays. mayb gng out of singapore on 22nd and 23rd.
gng to batam. $$ $$ i need to go do my shopping there. omg i have so many shopping items swirling in my head. i m gng crazy. gaga about $ which can get all my wants.

my beauty regime is rather expensive to keep up. esp my sebum gel. damn its finishing soon. dammit!!!!!!!! 103.50 per bottle. how great. hahas. and my toner is halfway thou. my eye cream is not working. my dark circles are becoming darker each time. dammit. i need sleep. zzz.
i need to get:
1. a new brow pencil soon (L'oreal saves my day with their new brow pencil. so chic so nice!) $18.90.
2. My B.Liv "life-saving" sebum gel 50ml $103.50
3. Getting Natio toner and eye cream pricing at $18 and $24 respectively.
4. My shopping SPREES... $ unlimited because i want to rob a bank. ler. dammit. lazy to list down. cos my list goes on forever and FOREVER.

oh yeah, before i forget. LAINE LAINE. the watson membership card is better to be apply online lei!!! and yeah our shopping trip had to be postponed to next tuesday. sorry!!! :(

shopping shopping. denmin denmin. WWWWOOOOOOO and make up make up and beauty products. and IPHONE. hopefully. dammit. the things are swirling in my brain again. hard to take away nagging stuffs in my brain. i want to visit a dentist too. ARGH!!!!!!!!!

2009-07-29T01:52:00.002+08:00

29 July.

I am browsing through the lenses. already decided which pairs to get. 3 pairs in total. lalala. then i came across new products introduced by xiaxue. as in facial products. hmmm. my pimples like keep popping these few weeks. should i stay faithful to B.Liv and Natio? hmmm. cos B. Liv does help the pimples on my nose grow lesser. budden kinda got the scar? ><. pimple scar or i don't know how to describe. budden my forehead is happily popping pimples. ARGH. then i scare to put powder foundation. cos it makes me feel that my pores are clogged by the foundation. ARGH. ARGH.

anyway, my brows are like half-gone. cool right. lol. practice my drawing brows skills tmr. and i want to master my curling hair tactics. damn. lots of beauty skills in one day. tralalala. hope i dont turn out wierd. and to paste my fake lashes. HURHUR. i think i will take a self-pic tmr to depict my half brow-less to turn out to be full brows and er... my straight hair turns wavy, and the.... my LONG VOLUMISE fake lashes. keke.

woman has the right to be VAIN!!!! or else i cant be a woman. megan fox megan fox. i am under her spell of vainity. LOL. she is so chio that she make me buy a $2 "8-days" which i seldom do okie. ler. i like that cover of her. her tattoo is rather chima-logy. i did not know she is so poetic. she seems like a sex symbol budden to me, she is more than how she looks la. tralalala.

oh yeah, to my dear. hi dear, i know your re-service is tough budden it will soon be over. although you are only driving budden i understand that you need to wake up early in the morning and start preparing to send all the ppl to their training then you do sai kang. hahas. budden soon will be over. 7 august then you are FREE!!! so endure k. muacks. please study for your quizes in future, JIA YOU. i know you can do it!!! no problem de. i got confidence in you.

wooo, thinking about our future. hmmm. marriage seems like no far away from me. keke. :x
i am getting a "2" in front of my age liao. well. i will not reveal my age anymore. argh. i want to stay at "18" eight-teen! forever. just like who? bella... ler. wad da hell. stephanie meyer had brain wash me with vampire dictionary. ler.

well i m currently feeding myself with Linda Howard stories, if you are so free and bo liao. can drop by library to borrow this "romantic cum mystery" storybooks. they are rather romantic in "action". haha. the author is good at describing the bed scene vividly. LOL.

well. tired. i gotta go to bed. i think my face will not forgive me if i keep torturing them for lack of sleep. ARGH. i want flawless face. cum figure... ler wishful thinking. byebye. goodnight.

i am just nagging to myself all over again. am excited over my brow drawing. tralalala.

2009-07-09T02:00:00.002+08:00

8 july.

Finally, i get to watch Transformer:The Revenge of the Fallen. It's isn't exactly revenge right? because The Prime still hero the whole movie. well, i think Micheal Bay is good at creating humorous scene in this action-packed movie. Those of you who thought the movie is plain boring in the mid of movie. Shame on you. because, you can't catch the humorous conversation that the whole time Micheal Bay is trying to get across. its freaking funny. I am like enjoying the movie to its last bit. even at the end when it started to roll out the credits.

i must say i love the "sam" character or rather "Shia LeBeouf". he is practically charming. well. hahas. he is really handsome and charming to me. er-hem.

well i must say i love MEGAN FOX. i m so totally must agree that she is the prettiest and the sexiest lady to me. woo lala~ i guessed all man will drool when they saw her. i like her. she has the looks and figure.

as for the robots i must say each and every of them are magnificent in their own ways. all of them are adorable and funny. hahas. i m totally like giving 5 stars to transformer 2. way more funnier than transformer.

well, i do really enjoyed watching movie with dear. except that we had a little dispute in the midst of watching the movie. damn. kinda spoil the absolute good mood i had. budden we make it up after awhile. i knew its my irritating nagging. but i just meant well.nvm about that.

oh yeah i m looking forward to my poly gathering on next coming tuesday. dim sum buffet yummy. making me hungry. tralalala. hahas.

well can i have lots of $$ to do my hair, classic pedi, classic mani, new make up, new facial products, new clothes, new wedges, new gadgetS( i want Iphone, DSlite).....argh. i have lots of wants la. hahas. i want my next contact lenses colour to be GREEN. woo. talking about that i need to get solution. woooo~ from watson. i only love to use SOLO CARE solution. tralalala~ hmmm if only i got $$$ hahas.

2009-07-06T23:47:00.005+08:00

6 july.

its been a long time since i updated my blog. haha. i m pure lazy i guessed. well work at florist is fun. tralalala. its extremely a NEW stuff for me. i am trying to pick up the skills SLOWLY. haha. kinda slow in this kinda stuff. well i m just going to say that i am so happy cos everyday is fun. fun hanging out with my babes. haha. and oso fun being with dear. and we had just celebrated our 4th anniversary some photos to update. :)

my presents to him.creative??

he gave me this domo-kun, he caught himself *proud* and a domo-kun BAG and a NIKE BAG!!

one of our pictures we took together at MS. :)

well i got lots of pics with my babes, just upload one for fun. ler. lazy la. tralalala.

latest pic :)

oh yeah before i even forget, i went to genting with my mum, uncle, aunt and her husband and her mother-in-law.

sidenote: my cute little baby cousin BRIAN!

2009-06-25T22:35:00.002+08:00

25 june.

yesterday is mum's bday. so happy bday mum!!! hope you will be happy everyday. i went overseas last 3 days. hee. went to genting nia. so nth much. no more excitement in riding those rides anymore. kinda sians by that. and sians that dear cannot join me. well. haha.

hmmm. well its still a good experience at genting except that i keep having weird dreams. lol. i can't remember budden its kinda weird. ler.

anyway, i m glad i m bk at spore cos i missed my babes and dear. lol. i wish to go overseas with dear or my babes some day. when i hab the S-11 factor. right now, i m thinking of saving more vitamin M.... :(((

i m now thinking of my new image i want to change into... -.-||

2009-06-05T11:47:00.002+08:00

5 june.

I had pimped my ice cream phone HURRAY. next stop is to pimped my IPOD NANO. Tralalala. i am so excited, now thinking of what colour to do the pimping. Tralalala.

I just want to shout out this, cos i use a night to do that and its fucking fun and satisfying when you see the end result. WWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~~~~~

2009-05-29T12:19:00.003+08:00

29 may.

i m going to work part time on saturday! hopefully everything turns out fine and i am able to pick up the skills easily.

at times, i wished i m like the character "bella" not as in looks and figure, that can never match up. hahas. what i meant is the life she is so persistent in living. the love she stubbornly holds it tightly in her hands. the way she never give up her friendship with "Jacob" and also her family ties with "Renee and Charlie". i like her. in her own world with "Edward".

hee. if i m that supernatural, i dont mind marrying to my dear and we shall live in the cottage happily shielded from the worries in this world. and with a baby girl. haha. am i talking about marriage here. yeah. but usually fiction book make me detached from reality. i know i wont be tying the knot that soon.

furthermore, me and dear not supernatural. haha. but one thing for sure, i know i am gng down the path of future with him. so dear, i m looking forward to our 4th anniversary. cheerios!

2009-05-18T02:22:00.003+08:00

18 may.

i had too much resentments in me. i wished to go to a faraway place from Singapore and ponder on my next step into the future, and the things that are swirling in my mind. i can't even know what are the things that swirled in my mind. they are a lump of things which i can't figure out, i don't know why but its bothering me too often.

i hate the emptiness feeling in me. its like i can no longer appreciate life in a way or another. i don't know what am i sprouting here. i m not trying to end my life, that is shallow. but, i am trying to enhance my life in a way or another. am i so weak? or am i just plain useless on some things. i don't know how to control my emotions lately. i don't like the idea of my over-flowing emotions that does no one any good.

i know the fact that physically i am not alone. i have great friends, boyfriend and family. but at the back of the mind, i can't help but to notice that i am pathetically alone mentally. i don't know what i am saying here, it's hard to explain. it's like my thoughts are always well-hidden and i can't express them out as they can't be explained. they are lump together, i can't visualize it or even understand it myself. complicated, yes. goddamn complicated.

where is me? where is my interest? where is my passion? where is my everything? where has it gone to? Have it flown with the wind as i grew older? where is the REAL ME? i am finding hard. pathetically hard, i want to be ALONE for months, for years. i know i am being selfish, but i can't be bothered. my head hurts again.

2009-05-05T20:49:00.002+08:00

5 may.

sad. my dear is sick. seriously sick. been taking care of him but his throat inflammation still no improvement. sick cannot go work sial. then abit worried on his job side. he is on mc on last thurs then this mon, tue and tmr oso need to get mc. poor him.

i think i must be more stringent on his food intake or else he will be landed in such situations again, poor dear. haish.

on a lighter note, i cut my bangs. bang bang bang, bang bang bang, beautiful bang bang bangs. ok i m being lame :p cos my dear cant acc me so i come here to vent my boredom and craziness. ler. sad i disturb him, he oso no strength to rebel me. ler.

so sorry my dear besties. for the moment, i need to take care of my dear. so wont be meeting you all.

i hope dear get well soon REAL SOON. argh!!!! :((((

2009-04-30T14:58:00.004+08:00

30 april

a recap of yesterday: to add on to my NOT-SO-PERFECT day. somehow somewhat it must be spoil by so many things. i went to meet dear at je then we travelled to jurong point to pack our dinner. i was kinda feeling alright after meeting my babes. but they bomb me with a secondary school mate memory test. i still cant figure out who is swee chin btw. hahas.

well then here it goes, i went to 7-11 wanted to get a decent cup of BIG GULP. for dunno wad shitty reasons that 7-11 CARBONATED drinks do not have GAS...... well i dont give a heck actually cos all i wanted was a cup of drink. FULL STOP. then there is this beng and lian couple or wad so ever...

the guy speak to my dear and he goes," hey, no carbon lei" *well i bought mashed potatoe and BIG GULP, how the hell my dear knows which is he refering. and cant he speak in FULL SENTENCE?? for god sake!*
dear due to his BLUR-ness went, " uuhhh????" *my dear dont really like to care about others*
then the guy went abit more HARSH saying," NO GAS LA"* i super bu shuang cos i hate ppl screaming somemore at mine BF???!!!WTF*
so i went, " WHAT NO GAS!" in a beri loud voice.
the guy make a face like " OH-MY-GOD, YOU DONT KNOW WHAT IS NO GAS?"
then silence, my dear pass me money then when i was about to pay... mumurs behind LOUD enough and AUDIBLE enough for ME to HEAR!
the guy went," no gas oso don't understand. later drink liao then noe nor."
the girl went," ppl's business you oso KPO. let they drink themselves la."
the guy went," ya nor. no gas oso dont understand, let them drink it and they will noe it!"
i was thinking HELLO i hell NOE WAD IS NO GAS. for FUCK SAKE. i dont need them to tell me. i happy. its only a 2.10 BIG GULP must so KNS or not?
i paid the cashier and i speak uber duper LOUD,"THANK YOU!"
it shut them up. well they are speaking chinese to themselves the whole time, and speaking english to both me and dear. they thot i DONT UNDERSTAND CHINESE. omg. i can seriously slap them or punch them if i m not holding anything. i m fucking pissed by the morning things. and they can seriously think to themselves that they are so KIND when passing RUDE comments.

furthermore, earlier on as they are pressing the drinks from that counter, they are like hecking us as we QUEUE behind them to get the drinks.
the lian goes," wa liao i want 100 plus la...."*some fucking animal mating sound*
the beng goes," anything la dont so choosy la...."
yada yada blah blah blah. dont wish to continue. NO BRAINER TALK. they thot they are some HOT stuffs. posing them. eeeekkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!

pls la. go eat shit and reflect. you like GASY drinks and fart everywhere your fucking business HELLO i m not you and your DONT LIKE TO EAT gf. who goes, " i dont know how many days never eat liao". to the lian, " go africa la, dont nid to eat one. best give the wild animals feed on you. BETTER STILL go get aids and you can forget about living. BENG, you want go and care your SO-CALLED lian. dammit. i dont need both YOUR CONCERN. THANKS."

seriously, let me ask you. if you speak in a proper manner, will it kill you? if you want to express your concern. let me show you how BENG. and further more he is diner club's promoter or salesperson. i dont think your sales works this WAY!!!!!

speak like this, " hey sir, just to let you know that the 7-11 carbonated drinks is not gasy due to their maintenance problem. you sure you want to buy that?"
my dear will go," oh okay, i will tell my gf. thanks for telling me" *smiling away*
then i will go," dammit 7-11 eat shit la. thank you lei!" *smiling at him and giving the 7-11 staff a BIG HARD GLARE.*

get it turk head. use your language wisely and you get the same bk. dont go bad-mouthing at ppl in mandrain just becos you thot i dont understand it. pig head. eat shit la.

for those ppl, who felt that i should feel grateful and instead of complaining. you are a fucker and fuck off from my blog. F you and hope you die early yeah. stupig turk heads.

2009-04-29T13:50:00.003+08:00

29 april.

morning is disastrous. freaking k. its pouring cats and dogs. then i m like. hurhur luckily, mum is not so stupig to put out clothes on such freaking weather. i m so into zzz-ing. then my tummy aches. freaking hell. i drag myself to kitchen. to my horror, pouring rain. drench floor filled with water. ALL THE CLOTHES ARE DRENCH BECAUSE MUM HUNG IT OUT. muther-fucker. so i m like keeping those clothes.

imagine. 9th storey. clothes filled with water. heavy. after keeping the clothes. i m drench from head to toe. yeah!!!! the whole kitchen floor is filled with rain water HURRAY. fuck shit. i clean like nobody business. and my tummy aches. get the fucking point i m trying to get. i must get all the clothes out to re-wash. meanwhile dial mum's office to give her a good scolding. continue with gng to toilet first. my shit cant wait. so mop the fucking floor after i finished shitting. mop and mop and mop and wipe all the wet stuff. i hate the rain.

then jus went to re-hang the clothes to sun. great the pole holders are filled with rain water. hurray. so when i stuff the bamboo into it, it spilled rain water. i m so happy cos it spilled on other's ppl clothes. they deserve it. hahahahahahas. *i don't need any comments here, i happy, i shuang, fucked off*

then i went to see youtube videos on tyra banks. cos i wanted to get her bangs. then i come across "how to do my own hair extension" which lead to somemore videos of "scene hair". its kinda cool. then i keep thinking of NOW, whether i should layered my freaking hair. or get my bangs done. dammit.

WHAT THE HELL IS SCENE HAIR?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XagQgPZvHKM&feature=related

2009-04-27T14:31:00.001+08:00

27 april

the tattoo shop information is at my cbox. scroll down to see the webbie. its kinda expensive as namecard size already about $60-90 le wor. hahahas. take a look at the webbie then we shall see whether we want to go down and pay a visit.

anyway just a reminder to chloe, lizhen and lynn. if you happens to pass by my blog. we are having steamboat outing on the 30th april at bugis. meeting venue:bugis mrt stn, time @ 7pm. :)) cya there together with justina, weiqi, meiyi and kaixin. :)))

i m still rotting at home. hahaha. lalala. random random.

2009-04-23T02:51:00.003+08:00

23 april

somehow, somewhat. i miss those days. the days when i still have my innocence securely attached to me; the days when i hate being young and naive. The Days... when i use to be locked at home. looking at the world from that door. and i imagine how it is fun to stay out all day all night. The days when i always say i want to be 15 years old, i don't know why but i think i will like myself being 15. The days when i m forced to sleep at 10pm at night. no television. The days when i claim that "aiya, i have no freedom de nor". The days when i go for "underground dating" as being in a r/s is a exciting adventure. The days when i do everything without thinking about CONSEQUENCES. The days when you go hiding around in the house when your family teach you a lesson with a cane. hahas. sadist. but joy is in my heart. reminiscing my childhood. nope. reminiscing my innocence. dont know just feel with that kinda i wish i m still young. as you get older you wish you are younger. that is ironically true. and pathetically ironic.

However, when reality hit you hard in the face, you cant escape neither could you avoid but to face it.

laine maybe migrating to taiwan. help me get rainie yang signature and photo. hahas. jus joking. we all have to grow up one day, don't we. or rather we are already grown up. now i finally understand the meaning of, "it's tiring to be a grown up, you will know it when the time comes"

i know it. cos i know the meaning of having being bothered by monetary terms, educational status, results, achievements. where is the innocence we all once had. none left as we turning 20. its tiring. well suddenly, i hope the solar storm is a real thing. maybe. hahas.

insipiens are great at destroying themselves. they love self-destruction. they always thought that they had created a better world but they never knew that the world they created lead them to them to their death.

likewise for insipiens, life is never a bed of roses but a bed of thorns where it were hidden and hurting us as we walk deeper into it. the patterns followed and as time goes by, scars are formed. maybe. the word "maybe" gives me too many probability, i prefer "yes" or "no".

what am i seeking for? or what am i trying to reminise in the past? is it ever going to be coming back to me, or is everything just a nice sweet dream? A new chapter unfolds itself and end abruptly before i realised it. I am still looking forward with that excitement of "what if"....

random random.

life is still kinda smooth sailing for me. no expection; no disappointment. i m just hoping to get everything done in an orderly manner and proceed into life as usual like anyone else.

2009-04-19T01:54:00.002+08:00

19 april

HELL at deustche bank. great working experience. get all the tiredness and all the f-up attitudes from executives like never before... wooo cooool. dammit. anyway luckily my babes were with me or else. i think si liao.

Replies to tags:
chloe- you want to work at esplanade? hahaha serve cocktail that kinda. hey you got alot of lobang hor. rmb to come for 30 april steamboat hor. :))))
lizhen-thanks babe. sorry about the shangrila thingys. can't help you out! rmb to come for 30 april steamboat. :))))

i had already sign up for SIM. i had alr make up my mind. if i really freaking cant get into sim by this june. i think i will opt for overseas. mayb entry to uni nxt year. cos this year maybe way too late for entry.... hmmm.

my babes are gng bk to school on monday. hurhur. then i will nua at home. cos no more concession. plus i hab no money left liao. poorrrrr.... pooorrr.. argh. money money where are you. sians.

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2009-04-13T04:29:00.004+08:00

13 april

i m lost. utterly lost. lost in the direction leading me onto the future. am lost lost lost.

i chose SIM. i want to go in. i want replies. i dont care how freaking tough it is. i swear to work my ass off. if i still cant get into a local uni that is reputable that can had me employable next time. bye singapore. BYE. eurgh.

i know i m only good at talking or saying, but some things in life i want to achieve it. personal aim personal goal. i dont need anyone to know what i m mumbling about. it's my life.

LOST. freaking LOST.

NOW, i love watching telly. doing nth. being aimless. sleeping in the day. being an owl at night. my dark circles had deepen. i dont give a heck. i m freaking stressed out by the fact that i cant get into a uni. no one to blame but MYSELF, for nt being hardworking. that's right.

i m still fighting on. i want my degree goddammit. and i cant freaking sleep. why must my family keep asking me to go Australia when i dont even know whether i can make it to overseas uni. am i so detestable. or is it i m so weak in my academic that i might not be employable in future. fcuk it k. i know what are my priorities in my life.

i m not like some ppl you can read by looking at my bloody ugly face. wadeva. anyway jus venting some residue anger spilling inside me. so no offence to anyone or wadeva.

random pictures. i want to upload. my ugly recent face.

a random statement: i love sleeping over at my dear's hse. :)) it make me forget the earth spin for awhile. keke. no stress but rest. i want that.

i feeling it building in me. when my mum ask me for replies from uni. i m like. hey mum, i m goddamn stupid in poly k, dont bother me will ya? and dad i hell noe my cuz does well in aust uni, but goddammit i m not acc student. i might not get employ immediately after my studies.

2009-04-10T02:48:00.004+08:00

10 april

i know i haben blogged for quite a long time.

replies to tags:

to NEO: yeah its expensive. i dont think i m getting it. too common and EX lol.
to laine: unfortunately we are HUMAN BEINGS... solar storm..... LOL.

anyway a short passage about recent happenings: i remove my bloody expensive hair extension. no regrets here becos my real hair are falling. that's pathetically sad. and it makes my scalp itch, red and kinda swollen. wadeva. it gives me dandruff.

and i oso quarrel quite alot with dear. cos of our differences in opinions. we are fine now. lalala. i think maintaining a r/s requires alot of attention, love, care, concern, understanding. sum all in one word. EFFORT. and.... LOVE... hahaha. i love you dear. i m looking forward to our 46th months. :)))

i feel like piercing. piercing my navel, piercing my tongue. i dont need any comments here. i oso feel like doing my tattoo. sounds crazy? perhaps. i shall consider about it. involves lots of $$.

now bk to reality, it seems like local uni applications dont seems any hopeful to me. i dont know how to go about applying overseas uni. any suggestions here? most probably will consider UK and Australia. US maybe? eurgh the thought of it, puts me off. friends, my dear... family er.. not really. cos my dad is oso overseas?.... hmmm. a tough decision to make. damn. i hate it when it involves lots of thinking.

went to cenosis for a free treatment i won in an sms quiz. then same old punch line for me. slim down while you are young. its easier. who dont know easier. like its easier to be said than done. however, i m quite determined la.

THE FEAR by Lily Allen

I want to be rich and I want lots of money
I don’t care about clever I don’t care about funny
I want loads of clothes and fuckloads of diamonds
I heard people die while they are trying to find them

I’ll take my clothes off and it will be shameless
‘Cuz everyone knows that’s how you get famous
I’ll look at the sun and I’ll look in the mirror
I’m on the right track yeah I’m on to a winner

I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore
I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore
When we think it will all become clear
‘Cuz I’m being taken over by The Fear

Life’s about film stars and less about mothers
It’s all about fast cars and passing each other
But it doesn’t matter cause I’m packing plastic
and that’s what makes my life so fucking fantastic

And I am a weapon of massive consumption
and its not my fault it’s how I’m program to function
I’ll look at the sun and I’ll look in the mirror
I’m on the right track yeah I’m on to a winner

I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore
I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore
When we think it will all become clear
‘Cuz I’m being taken over by The Fear

Forget about guns and forget ammunition
Cause I’m killing them all on my own little mission
Now I’m not a saint but I’m not a sinner
Now everything is cool as long as I’m getting thinner

I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore
I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore
When we think it will all become clear
‘Cause I’m being taken over by fear

i love this song. i think i agree with what she sang. i m like that too.

"i am not a saint but i m not a sinner,
now everything is cool as long as i m getting thinner. :)"

2009-03-30T01:30:00.003+08:00

30 march

hmmm. what do i want to blog about?

my dad went to rome and like beri long never called home. emailed him and he send me a rather short reply email. family.

have fun meeting my besties everyday. at the later part of the day meet up with dear and have dinner. normal holidaying mood now.

i think i need $$. haha. need a temp job soon. hmmm. sians. i just want to rest. long rest. i got quite alot of things about future to ponder. marriage?studies?

hahaha when my real hair grow to my backside. i promised my bf we go engagement. hahahas. LOL.

human is still human. why do insipiens have so much to ponder about. why cant we have more simplified mind. eurgh. alright not those barbaric mind thou. civil ones.

anyhow i m in love with twilight stories (Stephanie Meyer) jus in case you all thot i m toking about the movie. sorry the movie is just too far off to be compared with those stories that the author had written.

very very random post. must be thinking why i so long no blog. becos i like to keep my life private. and i dont really wish to post any pictures of myself. i m not looking great. looked fatter as each day pass by. i have not done anything to myself. so i dun really wish to look at myself that long. i may go crazy. hahas.

that's about it.... will update when i get the blogging mood again. tra---lalala.

2009-03-26T12:47:00.001+08:00

"I LOVE MY DEAR"
"I LOVE MY BESTIES"
i miss my polytechnic friends too ~~

2009-03-19T09:26:00.005+08:00

19 march.

i am seriously beri lazy to get onto blogging. budden today i wish too... hahaha... jus for the fun of it i am posting two bags pictures on it. i want to get them...WOOOO LALALLALA....

Lacoste summer II small tote (sea blue)

Ralph Lauren Blue Label (Blue)

seeking opinions. i already got 2 votes on lacoste. i m deciding between them. hahahas. wooo... new bag for my cupboard. tra- lala...

i also got my new ice-cream phone from the IT fair

i got too much wants to mention. right now i m still thinking about hair extension, eyelash extension and contact lenses. dammit. ($.$) i need to refill my shu uemura powder and oso eyebrow liner. damn........

2009-02-01T22:15:00.002+08:00

1st feb

its been a long time since i blog.

all the woo-haha all went off... yea.

i have officially introduce my bf to my family. hmm only my brother and mum. dad? not yet.maternal family... sooooonnn. woooo~~ so happy. then we have stay-over frenzy. we keep staying over each other house. fun fun fun.

i miss my gals.

my hair. ARGH!~ not long not long. please grow at your ultimate speed. eurgh!!!!~~~

2009-01-18T19:48:00.002+08:00

18 january

i think my mozilla firefox goes crazy at times.

i don't wish to dwell on unhappy things. but i know i will not forget that slut. wadeva. i know i m also at fault. sorry laine. i think the guilt weighs down on me. sorry. i m so sorry for everything that happens. no one is at fault but myself. really hated all the things that gone wrong. sorry!

well on a lighter note, i had dye my hair. i think its kinda too bright? hahas. budden already dye so nvm abt it. i did my FIRST pedicure. and i did a classic french manicure. coool. long time since i do these girly stuff.

hmmm. on friday night. everything went well. i don't know what else to say. i never like to bring unhappy stuff here becos its too private. nevertheless. i need to thanks my loved ones for their understanding. please don't be angry or upset or anything. i just wish to say sorry once again.

that's all.haish. everything ended. not the way i wanted it thou. hmmm.

i think i gt some posts at office. more of me addicted to edward cullen, bella and jacob. that kind of teenage love is better. forever. forgiving. never a flaw. human is always imperfect. a monster is far better isn't it. because they are not perfect to start with. how i wish, all can be amended.....

2009-01-10T15:09:00.002+08:00

10 january

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST ELAINE.

i wanted to sms her at 12midnight sharp. yes the oldest tradition on the book. POOF! everything does not go by the book. i fell asleep at about 11.58pm. GREAT~ isn't it?!

well my dear even called me and i answered the call again. great! i don't know what i had say once again. bloody hell. aniway. that is not the point. the point is i set my alarm at 630am. because i thought that i need to go to work. so i msg my babe at that time. GREAT?!!!

lol. sleeping throughout the night after that. then came those drilling and knocking sound from above. i seriously think its that kinda "thing" supernatural? hair-raising. every night before i sleep i oso hear. every morning i also hear. fuck right?

so i just sae ~!!@@#$%%^@#%^%^&&&^**(* (all the censor words) and surprisingly it stopped. HELLO SUPERNATURAL. i know you might be powerful that is my house. i m more powerful in my house okie. dun meddle with me thou. i mayb a human. a human with BAD BAD TEMPER. i think my dad is more powerful than me. cos he actually use a bamboo to tackle that noisy sound. so well. aniways. pls dun try to meddle with HENG family. thanks alot. get lost get away you dun belong here.

aniways. i should get going. i need to go down to ms soon. hee hee. byes. i do blog. just that my office does not allow access to such sites. you know why! hahaa. loves to all. take care. THANKS CHLOE FOR THE CONTACT LENSES. thanks!

2009-01-10T14:54:00.002+08:00

5 January

“Nothing is a constant. Everything is just a variable”
Well, I must honestly say having nothing to do at all has it pros and cons.

The pros are:
You can eng eng ching ching
You can save the best of your brain cells
You can shake you leg whenever you like
You can look around like nobody’s business
You can surf the fcuking net like krazy
You can think of whatever stuffs that comes into your mind
You start to learn to love google and yahoo
You start to love blog-hopping
You start to just love INTERNET

The cons are:
You are dead bored
Everyone thinks you are a bloody slacker
You are seriously am trying to feel useful by pretending to use MS words typing the latest blog entry
You can seriously hating the TIME because its passing slowly laughing at YOU
You will think that the grass on the other is greener
You will start to be crappy

PMSing

Along with anger and frustration

All these boils down to MONDAY’s blues.

So Monday’s blues does happen for a reason or at least more than A reason. Wadevaso.

Alright. My new year. Totally the day for me to catch some zzz-s okie. You may think that working is not hard. Its hard becos you fight fatigue and you need to wake up when you alarm start beeping. It kinda reminds me of the days when I snuggle in my blanket refusing to attend any lectures. Let my zzz-ing rolls in. waddahell. 1 more month. Argh. I leave by the motto of: the day I survived, it’s the day that make me stronger. I love kanye west. He gives me the power to live my life. Waddahell… hahaha.

Okie new year resolutions. More $. More $$. More $$$. Alright alright. I m being really $.$ face here. I know. Who don’t?

1. fats to be rid off
2. hair to grow faster like pubic hair does. But in a silky and straight manner.
3. $$$ to roll into my account like nobody’s business
4. suddenly all the branded shops want to sponsor me branded bag
5. all my family and friends to live healthily and happily
6. my love one to get what he wishes for

I want shopping k. I already roll out the list of shopping after I get my pay on 16th January. FYI I m not shopping for clothes till I get my va-va-voom body back. I know it will take quite awhile. So don’t even think of texting me to ask me out for shopping for clothes. I don’t shop for shoes. Nothing in the market fit my broad and short feet. If you happened to find one. Please inform me. I have a hell lots of difficulty getting one.

1. fake lashes ( I have been yaking on it for a bloody hell long time can…)
2. contact lenses (if I m damn bloody bo liao)
3. I need some facial products to fix my blackheads and pimples
4. I need a super oily rehydrating lotion to fixed my bloody skin
5. my eyebrow threading
6. my henna hair colouring… I want to make highlights. Budden I better not.. lol I cant imagine myself with highlights.

Hell yea. I m right now typing this entry on MS word. Cos I m freaking hell boring and FREE. Woo FREE… dun ask me about work I jus noe I need to endure another freaking 3 weeks. Ooooohhhh man… then I m left with 2 weeks then BOOOO! I m considered free woman. Free in the heart, soul and mind. Wadeva you named it. wadeva shyt. I dun give it a damn as long as I m out of the company.
Recently I realized I sucked at wearing jeans. Then I counted my jeans. I have more than 7 pairs of them. Fuck. See how stupid I m to splurge on such stuffs. It pissed me off that now I m so fat that I cant fit in any of my clothes.
Am still reluctant to stop typing cos it make me feel that I m like typing a report or so… argh I m just to lazy to go researching for my final report. Wad is the bloody time now? 16.25pm. great. Still got like bloody 2 hours plus to be exact….. bloody hell y must it be ME…
Oh on a lighter note, I have took part in the PUMA boat design. Which is to design a boat. Isn’t it cool? I use tribal as my theme. I could have drawn better tribal. Given the 9am-11am time frame I cant really do a good job. So I send it out right before 12pm. I hope they accept my entry. At least I participated. I dun expect to win of cos. I do it out of boredom out of fun. See how bo liao I hab turn to. You cant blame me blame XXXX. Argh.
Let me recall I remember myself getting into this curry chicken frenzy. I just could not stop eating curry chicken for consecutive 3 days okie. Then once I m at suntec foodcourt. Then I ordered claypot curry chicken, who knows I got burnt. Waddahell the auntie la. Give me one more bowl. I m like kind hearted giving it bk to her. She keep going yadayada. Then I went to pick up the tray. But alas, I burnt myself. Dammit. Right in front of her. I feel like slapping her at that moment of time. Bloody CCB.

6 January

“When you start thinking that everything isn’t going well, you are wrong as things are getting better at the end…”

You must be thinking why am I like writing that quote above right?

Let me summaries my bloody CB morning. On the bus, I have no seats to sit…. AWWW that is normal right. Not when I have a tummy ache…. So painful…. Want to shyt out that kinda feeling okie! I hate mornings. Reason being: my shyt like mornings than afternoon. Alright that isn’t really the BAD thing I encounter. After awhile I manage to console myself that I m reaching office soon. Toilet will be there for me. Reality hit me hard. It jammed at the PS bustop. WADDAHELL. I m like stuck there for like 5 minutes. Hey mind you! 5 minutes is eternity for ME who in need of toilet. It’s alright okie. I tahan!.... cos if “things don’t kill me, it will make me stronger.” Fuck!

Finally I get to sit down… then off went the bus. Then it stopped at hong lim park. Yea. I m thinking to myself just 5 more minutes to toilet.then when I was about to cross over to XXXX south. The malay auntie who is crossing over to my side pointed out to my right. Hell YEAH… give me a bloody scare (luckily my shyt still in the arsehole OK). The taxi is just turning in la. WTF. The taxi can wait nor. I m already halfway through the road liao. Bloody CB taxi. Go eat shyt la. Go go go! Fuck. What a suay morning. Finally reach my “heavenly” (because of the toilet) office…..

Then I quickly set up my lappie then I went to take a dump. PHEW!!!!!!!~. So shuang.. so shuang till I must blogged it down. Because I have been constipated for about like a week plus. You all won’t understand my feeling. Ever since that bloody diarrhoea, I have been like no decent dumping. Occasionally got come out budden not all of it that kinda feeling. Hey I know you people must be “wa liao you damn disgusting lei” try eating the charcoal given by the doc. Damn make me constipated for weeks. Damn shitty. BUT now, so shuang…. :)))))))))))))))))))))))))) I need bloody fruits because veggie is not very strong in my body eh. FUCK~!@#$%^&*().

Alright I guess today’s dinner shall be yong tau fu. And and my DKNY Be Delicious is making me so happy. Hee hee. Smelling myself got a kinda of shuang gan……lalalala…. Floating… LOL

7 January

Ooooh I just LOVE google. Its fun googling… becos I am so goddamn bored which resulting me in googling. Hey I google lots of things. I google its.XXXXXX blog. Its goddamn funny the way I google it. I saw porn la, muslim society, meaning of XXXXXX… which I don’t give a fuck care about it.

Aniways that is not the point. I just want to have a great laugh when I google something I wish to google it out. Well well can say I m now bloody obsessed with google. HEY you cant blame me. Blame XXXX. Bloody hell X-rated words la. Want to know come ask me. Non- related to anyone in particular. Haha. Budden its fun. Wooooooooo~~~~~

Fun fun fun! well, I m feeling hungry after that bowl of mee soto…. Haish. Lunch can’t really fill my stomach well. I m feeling god-damn hungry. Argh. I think I m finishing my chocolate mint sweets soon in the office. I m like popping one as and when I like it. its Wednesday. But Thursday ain’t great because that SOMEONE is coming back to work. I m not prejudice against him. I m just. Argh whatever.

8 January

“I m just tired. You know drained out of strength both mentally and physically. However, I persist to hold on my belief: what does not kill me will make me stronger!”

Hey hey I am a bo liao person in XXXX. Only intern in Singapore so bo liao. Eng eng ching ching. Shake leg. Bloody shit. I hate this kinda life give me some bloody work to do man. What with coming here and be a pile of shyt not doing anything. NOTHING. EMPTY.BORING. zzz.
My friends are all to busy to even log onto “spark” (an internal MSN from ocbc)… waddahell! I need to even email them. Poor them but DAMN POOR ME… lol. Self-pitying ain’t going to help I know that. I m jus indulge in my boredom that is why came this pathetic blog entry from me right. Or else I will be too busy clicking or typing away for some other reasons. Definitely not writing over here. Dammit.

I think life has reached a level where everything go straight. No direction. Nothing. Jus straight. The end is on 6th February too far to gauge what will happen from here. Too far. Pessimistic? Nothing but Facts here. oh yea recalling what my ex-colleague (becos she is transfer to another team. Name her as A)asking me so do I have any work on hand now? I am like. NOTHING. A laughed and went off. Great.

Let me named the work I had done for today. I helped KTC to scanned a 3 pages documents into a PDF. *claps* please. Because that is one pathetic work I have done for the week. GREAT?!. Thanks. Argh. Self-indulgence again. Ignore me then. Alright I scanned another 9 pages of documents… is that an achievement for the day. I guessed so.. speechless.

9 January

I think the presence KC make me go tingling itching. Its mind-blowing. I dunno why. Perhaps its my brain… budden his presence make me uncomfortable. I have been complaining I dun hab any job on hand isn’t it.
I just got one assignment from him. He ask me to watch a video. Below is the simple task I m assigned to. I approached him. But… I still don’t understand.

[http://www.ft.com/cms/bfba2c48-5588-11dc-b971-0000779fd2ac.html?_i_referralObject=988390035&fromSearch=n

Hi Felicia,

Got one simple project for you. Watch the video above first and then pull out data to run similar numbers on it. As in use the dot com bust time period and current period. We want to show how markets can suffer from a bear rally and its easy for clients to get caught in a bear trap if they are not careful.
Basically we want to show how small market rallies can occur in a longer downward cycle in the stock markets.
Your piece should be able to show similar charts to highlight the many mini rallies during the dot com period and maybe another period like the 1970s savings and loans crisis.
Let me know if you need me to explain. Cheers!]

This whole thing just make me feel useless all over again. I think I m dumb. Because I only know how to surf net when there is nothing to do. And I can’t do such a simple task. I cant even understand it even after he went through with me. Alright. Nth much to sae.
I feel itchy whenever I feel stress and anxiety. Pretty strange. That is what happen. I submitted my work to my supervisor. No reply. Great or simply he feels that my work sucks. I dunno. I think my work sucks. I think I sucks. I think I simply am dumb.

My intern frens were asked to stay to help. I am the sole one who is a special NO. they don’t need me as they have a new intern. Budden I guess the main reason is that I cant help them. Neither can I help them value add. I m only good at surfing net and playing game. What else am I good at if not all these?
Get a rough idea of my job scope? (the email is just part of my ad-hoc duties :)

“What does not kills me will make me stronger!” I already did my best for the work to be submitted to him. I just hope he wont arrow my stuffs as crap or wadeva shyt. How do I gauge the market rallies? Any ideas? Using the last prices of the indexes? Or ? is there a graph that have a line then oso “a grey area to indicate the up % of a trend” is there? I dunno. I m plain stupid. I can witness that. I surely does. Repeating the motto to myself does make me feel better.

After I send the email to my supervisor, I start to feel tense. Then my face turning warmer then I feel itchness everywhere. My head, my face and my body are itching non-stop till they went for the last quarter meeting. I am not involved HURRAY. Then I heard my supervisor “haish-ing” I feel tenser. I started to shift around in my seat. I told my intern fren. No use, it does not reduce my stress. I feel more scared. I feel my heartbeat beating louder and faster. Am I crazy or simply paranoid? It’s killing me. I mean I don’t like that I don’t have a task to do. But I don’t like that I am given a task I can’t do. Dilemma is the best word for me to use now.

Useless. Brainless. Stupid. Moron. Retard. Worthless. Are the only words that I can relate now. Well I m not trying to act pathetic or give ppl the impression that my job is bloody hard but it is hard at times. I m not saying my supervisor is an evil person, my colleagues are great. I m jus simply not suitable for the job you see.

I know everyone knows I m surfing net. Looking at whatever that should not be done in a office. I KNOW. I know each and everyone of them loves to peek at my laptop screen. I KNOW. I just know that they think that I m so slack. While the rest of the interns have something to do. I also want work to do. I really do. I have to even reduce my brightness to zero. Why I have to resort to such means. To stop ppl keep peeking at what I am doing. If they know I m not doing WORK why still must peek. There is no prices given out for peeking. I know I eng. Not I want de. I jus simply waiting. I m waiting for 6th feb. I know I sound like making hell lot of excuses. Why I don’t want to ask for job. Look at me? I cant even do that fucking simple task above. So what they assign me job. To keep bothering them with questions? It is for me to find out the things that I don’t know. That is the stress. Aiya never mind. See me as a slacker. I prefer it this way.

On a lighter note, today my side de guys all wearing PINK?! My boss is wear red a shade close to PINK. Well what a pinkish day. Haha. They are funny at times. And R is yawning early in the morning. M chided him for doing that. True enough, yawning is contagious OK. I m yawning. Yawning. Eyes are drooping. Woooo cool..

Well at least before the end of the day, he finally replied to me. he acknowledged it. Finally. So Monday before 3pm I need to get back to him. With the help he provided me, I think I can do it ba…. I hope so! JIA YOU!!!! Yuppies!

2008-12-28T20:47:00.003+08:00

28 december

One more post for year 2008.

you never know how much i wish to get out of the hell hole i m stuck at for 4 months. 1 more month to endure. it may sounds so "are-you-sure-so-tough"? well, i wish you luck if you happen to get into one.

well a update of me working: i think i am either plain stupid or because i am not university so i am stupid. well. either way make me stupid. because i can't take "minutes". detailed explanation for minutes: minutes is when all the people are having meeting, you take down the important details they have mentioned or said. well i can't. don't ask me why? i don't know why i can't take down important information. because i think i m dumb. thanks. anyway i will try my best eh. damn. i hate it when he give me the "i-think-you-ain't-competent" look. waddahell.

okay. i got diarrhoea and vomitting. therefore i "missed" the chance to take minutes with my new friend, J. whatever. i gonna take minutes tomorrow. wish me lots of luck. see take minutes also stress. fuck.

well. at least i feel more "useful" when R say my research report is well done. (: also thanks to R,i am able to complete the research brief report for BB. i think BB must be thinking i m damn free. yeah, i m super free. cos K thinks i m incompetent so never give me work ma. what you want me to do. BEG for work?!!

oh drats. ignore me. nowadays. i do lots of self-talk. oh yea talking about x'mas day. i think i m transparent that day. or i ate something that make me transparent. HELLO what's wrong with you ppl... whatever. don't talk to me won't kill me. i m "dao". i don't talk.whatever.

alright. enough of complaints.

on the lighter note, there is an idiot jay who keeps smsing me. he is like 36M... claims to sms his ex-colleague wendy.then happens to send wrong ppl. send to me. then my dear is so jealousszzz... wooo i like his cute reaction (my dear's of course) hee hee.

well. i have recovered from that mild food poisoning if you must know. and i hate medication!

via has returned from the cave at taiwan. yea she don't want to be nun and wanna be good girl... i doubt doubt.. lalala... i miss laine and her. meeting them tomorrow!woooo~~~~

hmmmm... and also...meeting up with poly clique budden quite alot of them can't make it sial. sians.zzz. we will still have fun la. meet up soon again!!!!!!!!!

hmmmm... nth much on my life. just the same. jus more outing. oh yea. i want to be a DO-er not a SAY-er... i will try my best to accomplish some wishes i have on my mind since young. like long hair... etc... sians... my hair really grow slow. fuck. ><

well aniway before i end off. i hereby wishes everyone HAPPY NEW YEAR first. new year resolution ~~~ AWWWWWWWWWWWW

2008-12-08T23:04:00.002+08:00

8 december

dear's bdae is over... hmmmm still gt wad is over... hmmm oh yea. my 41st month anniversary is over too.

HEY DEAR PLS SEND ME PHOTOS where we have dinner for your bdae.. want to upload.

alright quick update on my life. my dear bestie claim that my blog got FILES?!! waddahelll!!!

today i jus saw the two gila gers... quick updates on each other life. have lots of fun chatting with them. actually not meeting them cos i m a good girl tied down by hse chores. hahahahas...

my poor dear never meet you today right. miss me right. hahas. you will see my face tomorrow. oso forget to tell you wednesday i need to rush home. WHY? cos my LO want to have online chat session. i m like. WTF... i really hate it eh. NP take $$ still not enough freedom to go out oso must restrict eh... lol.

hahaha. jus jk.... well nth much happen. jus celebrated my dear's, my baby cuz's 1 month bdae and lastly bertram's 3rd birthday. omg.!!! i m getting older.the maid help me pluck white hair la LOTS OF THEM KKIES... shyt. i m older. old!!! i have more swimming floats around my waist and bottom down. OMG!.... oh shyt.... nvm.. i m happy lei. =pPpPp

my ah gong ask me to go slim down. dammit. =.=||.crazy right!. i oso think i need la. budden beri lazy de lei. dun ask me diet. i eat your head off... ARGH. anyone. strong enough to pull me to put me on an exercise regime. defintely not my dear. i will bite him into pieces.hahahahas. welll welll...lazy woman is lazy woman... lalala...

i m only thinking of having more money so i can gib them to london weight management to handle me. KEKEKE... well i m indeed thinking too much. aniways... i need to say here i DID NOT REBONDED MY HAIR!!! damn... i comb hair only ma... =.=||...

need to wash dishes go oror soon... tmr its WORK TIME ><....

2008-11-24T23:13:00.001+08:00

24 november

my hair is growing slowly...

well life is hectic last week. WHY?

work is busy. wooo i like it
i need to shop for my cousins (BTs= Brian Tan & Bertram Tan) presents
i need to shop for my colleague's wedding present
i need to shop for my new year collection clothings.

in a nutshell, i went shopping during weekends. that makes me left with sunday and TODAY to pia my INTERIM REPORT. i damn slack la. budden i m not the ONLY ONE. get what i mean. everyone HATES INTERIM AND FINAL reports kies. cos its really troublesome to do so many reports eh...

well so today in office, i secretly pia my interim report for the whole day. well not forgetting i gotta to do my daily routine work thou. the meeting and stuffs. phew. a day is over. my shoulder is lighter. i can't even get a decent sleep man.

my dad bought a burberry bag and I DONT LIKE IT. i really hope can exchange omg!!!!!!!
i haben meet my dear from friday-monday... he is gng crazy right. haha
i need to trim my bloody messy brows
i maybe or maybe not get my starfish pendant necklace @ SGD$68
i maybe or maybe not get an agnes B purple bag @ SGD$365. FYI a French brand

so? i need to save money too :(( i need to save for my manicure... my hair (henna colouring)... my mobile. sobs sobs. damn. i must work.! after my internship i mean.

oh yea. and and my dear presents. i will get for you as xmas. right now. plenty of things are going through my mind.

via sae i gt white hairs. my mum say so too. conclusion: be prepared to have white hair if you want to work in a highly stress place. :)

P.S dear dear b'dae is drawing near.... wooo YUPPIES...

2008-11-16T23:58:00.002+08:00

17 november

omg. i m growing lazier and lazier. WHY? cos i have yet to do my interim report la. sians. zzz.

hahahas. today i log onto the msn messenger. so many ppl tok to me while i m offline. surprisingly, my dad ask me what type of handbags i like. designer brand wan k. so, i told him. i prefer chanel or juicy couture. dun MISTAKEN me for liking PINK hor. i kill you. juicy couture got a turqouise hearts pattern-ed bag... so nice... omy! kill me. i like it alot... and chanel... i love their simple leather hangbags!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i want their wallet too.... shitty. my coach wallet is doing fine. i want a designer pouch. crappy!!!!!! omy. i m so into such stuffs. kill me.

oh yea. i need to get bk my debts soon... should i sms first or should i wait... sians... hmmm. i hate chasing ppl for $$$..... rmb history does repeat. next time, i should be so soft-hearted lend ppl money then dunno how to open my mouth to get bk money. HUMPHIES!

meeting my babes on tuesday... are we meeting on saturday for presents???? hmmmm..... i m still thinking of what to get for my dear dear. keke. my dear bought an OMNIA mobile... should i get myself an Iphone.... or should i wait for SE G70?hmmm... lalala....

so many wants yet so little money. i hope my dad bring bk a designer bag for me. chanel chanel or juicy couture i dun mind... wooo lalalalla..... that's all for the updates..

and i m so looking forward to doing manicure and pedicure during jan with mum at HOLLYWOOD NAILS.... not forgetting getting my hair done. hmmm... sians... my hair pls grow faster. i want to do BIG CURLS...

as for work: i dun wish to comment so much. i shall keep it P&C. you all may ask me if you wan. cos i think its better to keep it under covers... kekeke. right now. i m so busy. busy with what? research... and some admin stuffs... lalala....

P.S looking forward to 27th of November. my dear dear's bdae...

2008-11-09T02:00:00.003+08:00

9 november

went to visit brian today. i heard from my aunt that bertram is bullying brian. go and pull his socks out.=.=. notti bertram!! so funny eh.. then went to meet dear.

cos go visit his granny. so ironic. i seldom visit my own granny la. budden his granny cook for us la. his mami oso came. haha. eat tgt. i wash dishes... as usual.. if nt so paiseh. old ppl cook and wash herself...

I have not sleep. waiting for stuffs like songs to upload... my dear send me one by one. keke. upon my request... on msn.. haha. i noe he not happy. budden he beri syg me la. so oso obey...kekeke. love you.

work: fine. so far so good. researching on lots of stuffs. budden i m so lazzzyyy to do it. damn i have yet to touch my interim report la. :(((((. shitty. aniway... november is here. i m SO LOOKING FORWARD TO DECEMBER. GOT 2 PUBLIC HOLIDAYS LEI!!!! yea!!!!!!!!!!!

aniways quick update:

1/11: went to vivocity with dear. b4 that we went to maxwell to eat. i m damn super pissed with the sell fish meat soup de ppl. wtf... order fish slices then cannot add milk into the soup. talk crap.like this then order fried fish bee hoon cannot order another bowl of rice la. fuck you.

2/11: a new life is born into my maternal family. my aunt had gib birth to brian tan. haha both of them have the same birthday which is 2/11. so good right. next time mother and son same same birthday. so fun....
i shall upload my baby cuz photo... keke.

his eyes super small right???

oror...zzz...

2008-10-30T22:42:00.003+08:00

30 october

A quick update of my life..... a long weekend... my dad had already flew back to ROME to work...

Hey babes, i know you all use lenses. check out this online webbie. its opened by my poly clique kaixin!
http://ice-lens.blogspot.com/

well todae i met up with my babes. then we hab dinner and chit-chat take photos.... lol...well... nxt week we maybe meeting up with narain... keke so funny eh...

we shall meet up at least once a week... catch up... LOL...

crazy gers...

olivia had her new haircut. she is beri beri noisy keep bugging me abt her new hairstyle. stupig woman....

well work is fine.. alot of things to do recently..... that's good news thou. make time passes faster.... wooohooooo...

however, i still want my attachment to pass faster!!!!!!!!!

2008-10-25T23:42:00.003+08:00

24 october

First, i need to say i really dunno when my dad is flying off. today or tomorrow?! i have NO IDEA... so stop asking mi. stop doubting me. its nt that i dun MISS you or i dun BOTHER to sms you or dun CARE about you.

i want to come FIND you. HUG you. KISS you. SEE you. you noe it. muacks. i am sorry if i did sumtin that HURT you or wadeva... you noe i dun MEAN it at all!!!!! T.T

first i must sae THANK YOU to dear for his stitch i REALLY LOVE IT wor... :))))

then on wednesday, i meet up with babes. i misssss them so much!!!!!!!!! olivia say want to watch LOVE movie. hey date me out nxt week wor.... :)))))

this is what i do when i m bored. my ring...~~~

welll... sians. i must say dad is gng bk to rome soon. i kinda sians... cos i need to do more housechores. LOL. well that's not the point. its like when i go home. i m the last one to turn in. haish.....

then oso its gng to be NOVEMBER soon... woo wooo wooo.... i loving it. cos my dear dear de bdae coming. i need to do my periodic report... soooonnn. i m so tired that i slept till 3pm todae.... i enjoy public holiday!!!

seriously i think laine shuld wear more dress... she look pretty in dress :))))))))))

2008-10-19T09:31:00.014+08:00

I am going to post 1 whole week posts. HAHAHAs. take your patience and time to look through. CHEERS.............

10 october

a short post.... todae chloe came down to lunch with me and shu geok. then we went to golden shoe to try the japanese food. well i think its value for money and yummy. hahah. chloe came down to "celebrate" my bdae cos she thot its todae. LOL. update ya excel spreadsheet ya. its 11th!!!!! lol.

nevertheless i appreciate it. she came with prezzie too. hahas. i love it la. D.I.Y... only i gt okies. LOL...........

Isn't it nice????!!!!!!!! i love it... thanks chloe!!!!!

11 october

MY BIRTHDAY. thanks to those who smses me on the day, after the day. its okies to remember the wrong date. NOW you noe its 11 october babes. keke.

The day before i spent time with dear out whole nite. then return home i start to iron clothes then afterdat went to taka bought a pair of black pumps then went to banana leaf to eat.... woo i loves.... curry fish head. yummy.. lalala. then went to puggol. my family are having mahjong session then i fell asleep zzz. reach home 5am... lalala.

my bdae prezzies from dear!mango black tote bag and my bloster....

12 october

Naturally, i m late for my date with my poly clique... well i saw justina and kaixin on the bus... hahaha. so funny... then we went to central, i went ahead and meet up with meiyi and lizhen when both of them went to wrap prezzies...

then went to sit in to waraku. catch up with meiyi... when both of them came... then we start to order food... eat, talk, take pics, then at last they gib us prezzie and cakes. so nice of them.. keke... i love the gifts they gib us la... hahahahha.... its beri nice....

I saw you on bus hor!!! hahahs

our lovely BAKERZIN cakes. :)

our CAKES woooo~~~

my prezzies!!!!!

our cards. the description fits me....hmmm.

group pictures taken :))

my 3 poly babes!

after the gaga over prezzies we went to bugis, shop shop walk walk. then we chat over at MOS... then went off at abt 7pm plus. hahaha.....

15 october

an "advanced" celebration with my babes. OLIVIA's bdae is coming so we went for a mini celebration at LOT1... we went to eat kaari... okies la not bad... then after tt we went to slack... then met some bu yao lian de mly guys. write numbers to offer to olivia. i m lyk WTF...

you ask number still alrite. offer numbers. NO THANKS. haha of course my babe reject it. crazy. so U*** so more.... hahahahaa.....

MY BABES!!!!!!!!!!

sepia look... classic!

i seriously hab not idea wads the tongue for... you can see laine's misery face. kekeke.

candid!

16 october

met up with lizhen, she is giving me a belated celebration bdae at MOF. i met up with dear first, cos lizhen will be late then i went ahead to shop with dear. then afterdat dear join me. cos i bu ren xin let him dine alone at MS. so i ask him to join us. at first, he hestitate budden ltr he relented. keke...

we have photo time tooo.... aniways, we enjoy the food... its yummy. except the sauce is too salty... budden the dessert is YUMMY woo woo... well we walk walk till 930pm then send lizhen to her bustop... in the end dear took bus with me...(((((((: then send me bk. keke.... thanks lizhen for the treat......

we went to MOF My Izakaya :)))

my lovely bdae card from NEO!

dear's food!

mine!

NEO's!

DESSERT TIME!

hahas. :))) long time since we hab a decent picture

thanks NEO the photographer :)))

17 october

terrible. no salary. cos SHE forget to SUMBIT THE PAYSLIP FOR US TO THE HR. cannot then sae la. f*** keep quiet for wad. now i must wait till nov to get pay. i wanted to go shopping de nor. now i m left all alone in the freaking dept. i quite pissed la. HY she handover late nvm... drag my time meeting dear.. budden she is okie la... sians nor now....

then one of the colleague. named ke**, he ask me to "recharge" before coming bk to office on monday. BOSS SAY ONE... woo woo great the BOSS saw me dozing off in office. WAD THE FUCK LIKE I GIVE A DAMN><><... FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!!!!I HATE **** I WANT TO GET OFF THIS HELLHOLE FAST AND QUICK. MUTHERFUCKER CNY CAN COME FAST OR NT.... stress is one word to describe this whole thing. even though I AM SO UNHAPPY! i will do my best in intern to achieve my A. i noe i not as good as the previous intern. cos i stupid. its okie. i try my fucking best. fuck. i noe there will be alot of thorns ahead. i m bleed and gain wadeva i can. want me die nt so fast. i will fuck them and the teacher when i finished my attachment. secretly on my blog kekekeke. sorrie if i m too vulgar or wad... tis is my venue to vent out everything.!!!!!!!!oh yeas.......... alwis thot i a freaking finance student. HELL la. i hate finance, i hate ECONOMICS, i hate NUMBERS.... i love service. get it get it. i want to work at CAAS T3. even though it fucking far. ma de... after this whole gaga thing. my mood is spoil becos of that "please recharge before you come back" smiled while saying. hypocritcal i will sae. nvm. literature studen take up challenge. no matter how ppl look down on me. i will try. weekly meeting my new dept head, new boss ," i dun remember faces unless they do a GREAT job or a LOUSY job"... i dunno should i be glad that he dunno me or sad that he dunno me. fuck him la. you think nxt time your children come out dun nid to suffer. nevermind. i will absorb all verbal abuse. its not the first time aniways. THANKS EH.

i cant tahan it. so when i finally met dear. i cried. i nid to release out the stress la or else i will die. haish. sians. i feel so lousy from this job. no value add or wadeva. new concepts yea. budden I DUN LOVE ANY ASPECT OF THE JOB. DON'T COME TELLING ME GOOD WAD 5 DAYS WORK WEEKENDS DUN NID TO WORK LEI. OFFICE WORK OKIE WAD. you go do nor. i and shu geok will be MORE THAN HAPPY to SWAP WITH YOU ALL. pls info me when you want to do that...

bk to topic: then actually todae want to go MS to get my topshop de jacket and some clothes for myself. as well as diva de golden bangle. thanks eh no fucking pay... ohhh i lend $5o to my intern fren HY cos she really damn broke nor. then dear and me went to eat at suntec de food court. then went to secret receipe. then went to esplanade to sit sit talk talk. then went to take bus... haish my dear oso hab an unhappy day at work. i noe he can do it. i oso will try my best. lets jia you dear....

then on the bus. we quarrel cos these CHEE BYES girls think they book the seats in front then dear took it they not happy. keep making a hell lot of noises. problem is besides them gt fucking 2seats for them. ask them eat shit la. come to singapore think you beri good ar. go take cab or go bk to your hometown la. fucking chee byes. eat shit la. i m unhappy with dear cos he causes them to make hell lot of noises and they attempt to kick dear which i dunno until dear tell me. or else i will slap the mother and the rest of them. seriously the day aint good liao still so cheebye behaviour. they live at bukit panjang too. damn seriously suay!!!!!!!!!

18 october

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BABE OLIVIA TAN FEN HUI
well i wish you all the best in this semster and the latter semster.love you forever as my bestie.

laine: i know its tough times for you too.. endure... understand that arguements are really beri sians... budden mayb it kinda will make both of you to understand each other better? i hope you and him and make it through all and be happy happy. :))) wish you all the best. dun so attitude i dunno wad to reply you in msgs. cos only 1 word. i noe you action cos gt starhub student plan unlimited smses. LOL.... love you...hugs.

todae, my grandpa advanced celebrate his bdae. my grandma not here cos she no good with the family on grandpa side. i can understand la. budden haish my grandpa alr 70 yrs old liao. then touchwood la. dunno when will go oso. i love my grandpa la. look after me since i baby liao till i grow up to pri6. afterdat he still take care of us whenever we at grandma hse budden until 2 years ago he kena stroke on xmas i still remember. haish. fuck the stroke la. took away all my grandpa's freedom. however, i still loves him la. i noe he suffer alot too. i hope he will get well soon. my grandpa is alwis my love love....

haha. sang him bdae song... i dunno i gt relative that..... seems so familiar... i shall upload her pics... well elaine you think she izit cck sians b4 huh.. like beri familiar. i oso did nt noe it until now... wa...spy spy. i must be more wary of my surrounding. keke...

my dearest grandfather!

my mother's side de family. loves loves

my grandfather's de family.

my cousins... dun you find the one sitting in front on the right beri familiar?

more relatives' pictures

no. 1 family

no.2 family

no.3 family

no.4 family

my baby cuz (bertram) another one coming on his way... on novemeber!!! he will be named BRIAN... kekes :)))))

sians need to get bk to work soonnnn..... omg... on the lighter note: 27 october is a public holiday for deepavali, while i m waiting for novemeber as my baby cuz is coming to earth singapore :))))

2008-10-10T01:18:00.002+08:00

9 october

THANK BOTH SHU GEOK AND RACHAEL!!!
AND OSO MY BABE. HAHA :))))

I LOVE IT...SO MUCHIE!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)))))))))

2008-10-09T00:11:00.006+08:00

8 october

todae i spend time sluggishly at my office.

BUT...

i am so happy to see my babes and the things they have done for me. I REALLY REALLY APPRECIATE AND TOUCHED :)

updates of some pictures first!!!!

its a pre-celebration. :)

i just love them so much! :)

Puzzle done by my babe. I modify it abit. i hope its not so bad.

sooooo adorable.!

NOT FORGETTING

the feast they prepared for me, i enjoy the food. budden TOO MANY LIAO T.T

we are friends forever. <333

i appreciate their time and effort to prepare this whole thing for me. THANKS BABE. hugs.

I must say i am touched by the things they done for me. they took out their time to prepare this surprise for me.I like everything about it. love you both always :)

2008-10-08T02:41:00.005+08:00

7 october

an additional update. lol.randomness

My new 2009 wishlist:

A new black tote bag ( a present from dear SOON)
A new wristlet (either a COACH new madison mirrored metallic capacity wristlet USD158 or RAOUL quilted envelope clutch SGD99)
A new handphone (Model: SE G705/W595)
New Fragrances; I ONLY LOVE 100ML and EAU DE PARFUM ( INCANTO, ESCADA MOON SPARKLE, DKNY GREEN/RED APPLE,ELIZABETH ARDEN MEDITERRANEAN)
More FORMAL apparels; cardiganssss (PLUS size)

Pictures for your pleasure viewing with reference to the above:

G705 (silky gold)
Spec: 3.2 m.p. camera, mp3,navigator, FM radio, 98g, 14.3mm thickness, Wi-Fi.

A newer generation of W580i except it does not have jungle green nor velvet red. W595 (Active Blue)
Spec: 3.2 m.p camera, mp3, FM radio, 104g, 14mm thickness.

Coach new wristlet

New madison mirrored metallic capacity (Light Gold/Brass); i cant get RAOUL picture, i saw it on the magazine thou. --".

Fragrances!!!

Incanto HEAVEN by salvatore Ferragamo

Elizabeth Arden Mediterranean

Escada MOON SPARKLE

DKNY APPLE series

2008-10-08T02:23:00.003+08:00

8 october

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NEO LIZHEN! MY BELOVED POLY FREN.

A SHORT MESSAGE TO YOUR 19TH BDAE: hey!thanks for all the encouragement and the times we spend during our poly years. not forgetting our outings together. i enjoy your companion. you are a pleasant girl to be with! all the best to your semster! best wishes to you. i love you!!! :)

7 october

random updates:

i m still in the company. ain't dying. trying to survive. 4 months left.

thanks for your letter: to both miss tan and miss goh.

FYI. i think you can see this blog even if you went to find mickey. minnie is hiding in HK disney. i will survive through my work. i shall pay you both a visit after my intern end. i oso sms you both during the CNY as its the exam study period whereby both of you nid to mug for exams. no worries for motivational smses will be sent out to both of you concurrently. as for me, i will enjoy the CNY worrying on the stress on the job. take good break when you need some as exam, projects as well as mounting homework may weight both of you down.

no worries. you can alwis find P and WJ if you need extra concern. lol.. thanks for the crazy letter. i shall reply your letter via blog. as its more IT savvy!lalala.

bk to topic:
i am still not asleep. thanks to bus187. thanks eh for breaking down halfway. i m like fast asleep then i woke up due to the commotion of the M ppl who keep making hell lot of noises cos they are enjoying. i trying to catch some zzzs then i realise the bus is not moving. something is amiss. so i woke up. waiting waiting. then another bus187 came along. i hop on. reach home 1am. thanks. dammit.

then i seriously dunno whether i shuld learn to love my job or learn to survive in my job. neither please me. when ppl ask me. OH YOUR 19th BDAE IS COMING, ARE YOU HAPPY? honestly, NO. budden becos i have my babes, my dear, my family, moi fabulous poly frens. they make my job sway away from my sight for a moment. i m looking forward to 8oct evening. muahaha.

well well. i love my dear. i m glad he is alrite and recover pretty fast from his illness. i wish him all the best in his job. i want him to excel and able to upgrade alongside with the job experience.
however, he spoil my PSP, guys are still guys. they r not careful with stuffs. --".

well i must say at this moment of life. i realise school life is aint bad. treasure it. i miss the freedom i used to have.

2008-10-01T12:52:00.002+08:00

1st october

ooohhhh. so hari raya. thanks to hari raya i having my PUBLIC HOLIDAYS. now i see the importance of it. i don't use to. you noe you noe. you will once you have that kinda full-time job and oso 6mth attachment. TRUST ME. public holiday and weekends are so god-damn important. esp you are those 5 days work de.

presentation is coming soon. not ready at all.

A NOTICE FOR EVERYONE: FOR THOSE I GIVE RIHANNA'S HOTNESS ALBUM DE SONGS. PLS DELETE COS THAT ALBUM IS FAKE. WTF. HATE FAKE ALBUM. PLS PLS DELETE. OR ELSE ENJOY SOME OTHER ASSHOLE BLASTING AND FAKING LIKE THEY ARE SOME FCUKING STARS.

opps :x abit too vulgar. lol lol. k la i gng to enjoy my holidays. meeting up with lizhen soon again. OOOOOOHHHHH i miss my friends.

and and. congratulations to my dear cos he gt his 1st job!!! i wish him lots of luck and best wishes when he starts work on thursday. muahahahah. he 8.45am must reach work. can understand my feeling of waking up early.budden he off work at 5pm. dammit. T.T. i end work at 6.30pm nor. sians zzz. fcuk.

wadeva. aniway happy hari-raya-ing to all MALAYS and oso to chinese whom enjoying this public holiday. i gtg to shoooo.... bathe... gng out.!><

2008-09-28T03:27:00.001+08:00

27 september

I know i mention about going to have a BREAK till year 2009. However, i cant do that right. HOW ABT MY LOVELY READERS... esp my dear.

well a quick update.

WORK: i have finished the damn portfolio. however alot of loose ends to be tied up. seriously. i rush to work on friday despite the fucking traffic jam and stuffs. then who noes. he cancel my presentation. Y? cos no projector. A BIG THANK YOU. not angry just BU SHUANG. wadeva. shitto. make me sleep late and feel tired. lalala. they are IRONY ppl. its not like they are not nice. i think i just want to be careful. once bitten, twice shy la. i still have a report to work on. life. HAHAs. not now. well i hope everything goes on smoothly. ppl sae "wa good wad office work, 9-5pm nia gt air con jus do administrative work." dun gib me this kinda comments cos you are not in my shoe. you think so easy come and do nor. i will happily gib up my "comfy" seat and let you sit k. LOL. its highly stress. wadeva shit. i dun gib a BIG FUCK to it. cos i think i m just looking forward to 6th feb. dun ask me y. cos i dun want to ans.LIFE IS AN EMPTY SHELL EXCEPT....

I LOVE MY BABES. they are really sweet. they bought me a balloon to cheer me up la. its a wednesday. I CANT REMEMBER WHICH WEDNESDAY. OH MY GOSH! aniways they are really sweet can. they came to my workplace to pick me up.

well except for the prank part. I REALLY KNOW ITS A PRANK. thanks EH. its been 3x i hab been prank. STOP THE PUNK'D IT thingys okies.! LOL. if not I WILL BE ANGRY. will i??!! i love them toooo muchie, to be angry with them.

I REALLY LOVES THE BALLON except for the caption there. i think it make me feel like i m a patient or sumtin. LOLs.then we went to yew tee, cos they acc me thread my brows.oso bought a cotton-on pumps. ooohhh WOOOO LALA. the cotton-on pumps are seriously comfy. YOU WILL LOVES IT....

I LOVE MY DEAR TOO... altht he is alwis so clumsy. alwis so inattentive. however, i love him cos he is alwis there to cheer me up when i feel so sians. altht i whine and whine. he did not mind me. cos he is so gentle to me. loves him to bits......

meet him on friday cos he finish his re-service liao happy for him. he acc me to JP to buy my hairclip and oso pei me eat dinner. altht he is beri tired. then i oso bought a black dress. :)

TODAY! i went to beach road to have photoshot with my family. THEN ALAS, i found myself looking fucking fat in the pictures. well. my uncle commented i look like ghost or pig. wadeva. aniway i m fat. so i hab nth to sae. dammit. lols.

i m happy la. cos after that we went to golden mile and hab dinner. ate the waffle and gelato. yummy. not forgetting main course: claypot rice. WOOO~ tom yam soup and nuggets. sorry. my family and i are BIG EATERS. born to be fat. lalala.

then went up to the level above the hawker. omg. shopping area. well bought myself a nice pair of slippers for $9. haha. so happy. then oso saw a nice top. mum sae dun waste money. lalala... wadeva. i shall slim down b4 pampering myself with clothes.

lots of photos to share. here are some. i m lots. you can ask me to show you. photos shot with my family....

my mum and I

my bro and I

my parents

a chiner family potrait

2008-09-21T16:45:00.001+08:00

21 september

opps. i need to say i noe i beri long no update le.

first i met up with lynn and lizhen liao. altht its just a short time. we did catch up quite abit. thanks lizhen for helping to buy stuffs! bon voyage. will meet up soon! again. lol

secondly. i need to apologise to my babes. did not really spend much time with you all. sms me k. or call me. cos kinda busy at work.

well i will be away from blog for quite awhile. most probably will return to blog next year 2009. right now. i must sae i m not enjoying my work. mayb due to the lack of interest in finance. i dunno. jus hate it. nxt year 6th feb 2009. is the happiest day of my life.

right now, i must tahan push on. i will endure thru this piece of shit. i noe, i must. i love all those who cares for me.

anitin contact via hp. thanks.

BREAK, will be back in 2009!

2008-09-07T16:59:00.002+08:00

7 september

A week just pass.

busy to describe the 1 week. alot of things to learn from the scratch. alot of things to adapt to. alot of daily routine jobs to adhere. wow. not as easy as i thot. hmmm.

to my dear babes: i know both of you too bored. so you both start to sms me some lame stuffs. --". take care and find new fun.

laine: dun so worry abt your dear jd. he will be just fine. luckily just stay-in nia. dun worrie so much. go finish your attachment and work at kumon to earn more money to spend haha. :)

via: i noe you are greatly entertain by guys. pls la. work your brain can. dun be blinded. in the end you may lose. cos you r too confident. guys are forever sly and deceiving. pls PLS pls. LOOK OUT WITH YOUR BRAIN AND EYES.

as for my dear: i knew you can find a job soon de la. dun so worry k. i will mentally and physically there to support you. muacks.

there are still more coming towards me. i m catching my breath slowly and steadily.

2008-09-01T00:38:00.003+08:00

31 august

the last day of august. the last day of my holiday. the mark of the start of the month of attachment. the mark of the start of laine's attachment.

first, i must say going to this 6-months attachment. i can only admit. i m least excited about it. however, i m prepared to go in with open minded to learn everything they are going to teach me.i m also all ready to accept any challenges. but please. JUST PLEASE no more company politics which land me being back stabbed. anitin. but this. i hate this kinda feelings. wary wary of everyone.

so i hope everything will be smooth sailing.next. i must sae i miss 3 persons. they are laine, via and dear. i do. and last but not least. my poly cliques. i miss them too esp lizhen, chloe and lynn. haha.

i miss via and laine. becos i cant accompany them to go crazy liao. haha..
i miss dear. cos he is still jobless and alone. so he has to do his lunch alone which make me kinda sad.
i miss lizhen cos its been ages since i catch up with her.
i miss chloe and lynn becos they are alwis there for me and entertain me. share the project burden with me. they are nice nice ppl.
i miss my poly clique:wq, justina and kx. cos we alwis have laughters during lectures or tutorials.

so i miss school life in short. keke.

nevertheless. i m ready for the new 6 months life. i know i can make it and i will make it. cos i want to go to uni! i want to excel.

to laine: i knew you are super duper reluctant to go to attachment for the 3 weeks. becos you dun like the freaking shift hours, you hate the uniform, you hate the whole bloody things. budden i noe you can make it thru. 3 weeks, 6 months. you can make it through. cos we are alwis supporting you mentally. altht physically i oso attachment. haha. so we are to chiong through this period!!!! :)))

via: dun be goondo when i m off attachment. like get buwee by unnecessary ppl. you know wad i meant. just earn more money and pamper yourself. take care!

dear: i know you are waiting for PSA job. i hope you get it before you enter re-service. i miss you. i will meet you 1,3,5,6 as promised. haha. greedy kid. i love you. i will keep promises i make to you. muacks.

2008-08-29T03:18:00.005+08:00

28 august

i noe its been so long since i blogged. so a BIG rewind for everyone. i have been meeting up my babes. busy mugging to do all the bracelets and earrings for cy's mummy. i hope she appreciate it. :))

27 august: MY DADDY'S B'DAE. HAPPY B'DAE TO YOU.
my babes and i have been doing trial for cheesecakes. finally we derived with the best cheesecake. woo lala. then we make 2 more cheesecakes. all finished. :)). however, i forget to make extra for my darling. keke. poor dear. T.T. todae, we went ahead to the plan of pinic-ing at sentosa. to our dismay, it rained shortly after we settle comfortably on the beach. we packed up and leave the beach. sad. we stay at the bus terminal for quite a long while. altht it rained. we still enjoying picturing each other. LOLs. i have loads and loads to share.

OTW TO SENTOSA

SILOSO BEACH

the food we prepare

yummy. i dunno wads the snort for??

pardon for the huge lump of meat in the middle.its spoil everything.

@ SENTOSA BUS TERMINAL

they sae i have centre parting for my hair --"

my pretty babes.they look tall.in fact, they are s...h...o...r...t.

AT VIVO

they are fucking the asses of the models.

@fox.

you cant see her in mini skirt!see NOW!

OTW BACK...

can you spot us?

lalala~

after that we went to vivo city to shop, stop, sit, snap pics, do silly things, went to chill out. and we went to take mrt to dhoby ghaut. my babes head to cck while i wait for my family at town. walked all the way to shaw tower as i m early.then to my alas, the polyclinic called. fuck ass man. i hate polyclinics now. aniways, everything is resolved. then my family and i dine at paragon. dian tai feng. i think so. its yummy. then head home. zzz. so sians zzz.

bk to topic. todae i slept alot to catch up all my sleep. during my sleep, many ppl called. i think first call is my mum second call is olivia. opps. i vaguely can rmb la. then i continue to coma. perhaps its the lag of sleep that make me so tired. or m i jus unhealthy. i can't stand the sight of my HUGE arms. oh god dammit. today spent my day with dear. we watch forgetting sarah marshal. its nice.

however, it shows that love is not a constant. its a variable. todae you mayb 5 years with this man, however, if the man cheats on you. you broke off. you may find another. then looking bk. you thot how come you are with him so long when both of you are not compatible. how come love is a math. variable. i prefer leap year theory on love. there isn't a need for explanation. explanation is deceit, lies.

i love the poem. " I want to meet someone but i don't know whom. I want to go somewhere, but i don't know where." am i right?. LOLs.

i hope laine's aunt can recover the diary!!!!

its late 3.26am. budden i m forwarding all the cool pics. LOLs.

2008-08-24T18:18:00.001+08:00

24 august

its so boring zzz. budden rainy day is to stay at home. keke. cos its so cosy to stay at home alone. today i finally did my exercise for 30minutes. hmmm. trying to work on it.

yesterday i m so busy doing via's ipod that i fell asleep. LOL. till this morning i still doing. then gib up cos cant fix it. aniway its gng to be attachment soon. will miss my babes so lets go crazy this week.

zzz. hungry.beri beri random.

2008-08-23T02:31:00.003+08:00

22 august

A little rewind. becos of my long absence on blogger.

first, I FINISH MY EXAMS LIAO... zzz. i think SIS paper is the toughest among all. i hope and hope i get all Bs for this semster. then i gng to start my attachment soon on the 1st of september. i still need to rawkee with bus 700 lei. anione joining? haha.

todae we went to T3. the "we" refering to my besties and me.

we went to T3 to eat popeye chicken. its colesaw is soooooo nice. yummy yummy. well after we finish eating. we start to go crazy. we take lots of pics. then we roam from T3 to T2 to T1. that's great and back to T3. we stop by perfume shops. oh. i m so in love with elizabeth arden meditterian perfume. its so natural. pardon my spelling.

then we are in search of the smoking room. cos i claim i saw ppl gng into the room which is filled with smoke. --". they din believe me cos in the end we never saw one. its inside the departure hall fyi. LALALA. i mistaken its outside. dammmmmmit.

aniways. i really feel exhausted after a long day fun. its so tiring. tmr we are going to the ZOO ZOO ZOOO ZOOOOOO.... yea. !!! hope its does not rain or else i m nt gng.!

i really gotta do sumtin abt my weight. everyone is starting to get irritated at the sight of my fat ass.

oh cy mummy want me to help her D.I.Y those earrings, bracelets for her colleagues. and.... its lik 25 pairs. gotta sacrifice my holidays. budden nvm. its a fav hobby of mine. YEA.

i love them!!! PICTORIAL TIME...

we paint this lady's nails while we are on mrt and @ T3...nice rite!!

can sumone help me call IMH? i need to admit them.

they are rude budden i still loves them.

that's the end. i got lots of pics. but i dun wish to share. keke. jus jk i m too lazy to upload. LALALA. nite.

2008-08-13T00:55:00.002+08:00

12 august

i m mugging for my SQM. omg. i still have not started on SIS and SLM. how dead can i be.!!! oh shit man. i need to really mug soon!.

i hope dear gets his job soon. so he got money. !!!

sians.zzz. i must find the motivation to push myself to study. cos i still gt 2 chapters of notes to copy. LALALA. wad a headache. i hate exams. i quite excited about the IAP but at the same time kinda scare. i dunno izit becos of the previous experience. i hope i pass through it with a B grade will be enough. i dun mind an A thou. haha. and pls pls. i hope i wont spend away all my pay. i m so tempt to buy new stuffs for myself. --".

stupig via. jus print a few pages documents. give me hell lots of paper. damn heavy can. stupig ger. never see the doc b4 asking me to print. --".

laine! you deserve the lavin perfume la. opps i dunno how to spell lavin. cos its purple and you loves purple. haha.

2008-08-10T10:38:00.002+08:00

9 august

the most pissing day.

we went to NDP. thinking that ours is a NDP tickets. end up. its just gng to padang looking at the screen. helping them to make the human singapore flag. i m like. WTF. then the fun pack cannot be taken out if you are not participating with them. i m lyk FINE. big deal. so there go our fucking pissing day. walking around like idiots in the rain. zzz. luckily i never ask my friends along. its so fuck fucking chee bye. sorie for the profanities. but it is necessary in this context. fuck fuck fuck.

then we went to suntec to roam around. ate kfc. dear join the ntuc card stuff. then we went bk. we are too tired. cos we are like so angry. --". with his mum thou :x

then went bk we oror for awhile then dear acc me go bustop. i went home. zzz. what a lousy day.

2008-08-10T10:21:00.003+08:00

8 august

finally i see doc. okie. stress. wadeva. stress dunno wad syndrome dunno wad the hell. no medication. $11.80 visiting stupig doc. budden after that. i feel so light. i dunno y.

hereby: i want to thank my beloved via and laine. VIA sacrifice her personal time pei me see doc. then laine who advises me. i love them both so much... :)))

i went to meet dear after tat. i told him abt the weird dream. budden it does not really seems to bother him. then i ok nor. i quite disgusted by these kinda dreams. its so not me la.--". then after tt went to eat our dinner. the indian auntie cleaner like dun like me. i change the chair cos dirty then its along the same row. she lyk mumble y must change. like her business nor. crazy.

then i ate spicy and sour soup with rice. dear ate black pepper pork rice i think. then we oso ate popiah. its delicious. i mean the popiah. after that. dear bring me to ice monster. so yummy yummy. i love ice monster. we went to PS de bustop wait for bus16 then travel to indoor stadium.

F.I.R concert. i m expecting us sitting at the balcony seats liao. who noes. we are sitted near the stage and a good view. i like F.I.R first album. their other album oso not bad. the female lead singer faye is super pretty and i loves her voice. i get to listen to "wo men de ai" one of my fav song. budden i miss the "lydia" cos we rushing off le. never listen to their encore. its super nice to hear. the couple in the band lyk so sweet.

we did some stupig faces. :)

we try to avoid taking the pic of the couple behind us. cos dear accidentally took them. they say sumtin like take pics of us must pay us. i m lyk. the... they are not handsome or pretty can. --".

then we took bus 16 bk again. dear pei me till my bus came then we went bk. i zzz on the bus. realise dear msg never send out only after i reached home --".

2008-08-07T23:21:00.002+08:00

7 august

i m stressed!

but,

i have finished my project :)
going to see doc tomorrow :)
going to FIR concert tomorrow:))
going to meet my babes again :))
going to meet my dear soon :))
going to NDP on saturday!

so i m quite alright now. except my face is filled with pimples and dark circles under my eyes. sians zzz. ugly ugly UGLY.

well i read caiwei and yeewen's blogs. i loves my babes. i never want to lose any of them. <3333 you both k! always think of me x)

nth much to say. i want to hand up the fucking project. get to see the fucking doc. then phew. everything will be lifted from my shoulder. zzz.

i miss my dear.

2008-08-05T01:31:00.002+08:00

4 august

THE MUMMY 3. TOMB OF THE DRAGON EMPEROR.

a relatively nice movie. however, the plot of the story is too fast. 113minutes to enjoy a movie like this is too short. cos i expect more action-pack from it. aniway it is nice overall. 3 stars. haha.

well that's not the main point i m gng to blog today.

we booked the 9.50pm movie slot for this movie. becos i already planned the time of going back home. my last bus for 187 is 12am. so watching this time is just nice, cos i will be out of the threatre b4 11.30pm. however, things cropped up.

we are at hall 5 at jurong point. we seated at S02 and S03. its my first time sitting behind la. budden not the last row aniway. the last row is occupy by an indian family. then halfway through the stupig trailers of other movies. smoke came out of dear's seat.

dear's first reaction jump away. cos gt fire. --". i m stunned and blurred. so i sat there. after that, i picked up my bag and lappie. then grab the sweater with the packet of cheetos i sneaked in and walked away. dear was too stunned that he never wear his slippers so i kick his slippers to him. i did not manage to get the ice lemon tea we bought cos i m busy holding all the important stuffs.

then i realise. if it was a critical period and the fire make the chair explode. i think dear, olivia and elaine. you all cant see me animore. cos the moment the smoke came out. i m the only 1 left there stunned. no one helped me out. dear jump his way out the indian family dash to the front. the front row ppl oso will die cos they dunno. --".

aniway, many kind-hearted ppl came to help. haha. then moi nike bottle's water save the day. plus the mineral bottle of water the indian family left there. well gt a guy and dear who are the ones who put out the fire. *claps claps*

then i sort of shouted inform the management. i did not go. cos i m like carrying hell lots of stuffs. then a guy volunteer then dear go oso. the manager came. he check the stuffs. then 3 gv service crews chiong in with extinguisher. i think i would have die by the time they came. they are damn slow. then check out, the fire is already put out. its power short circuit.

i m saved! haha. well we are moved to the front to be seated. then continued the movie. then the gv service crew so ke lian must stay there to monitor the seats we occupy in case really got fire la. then the next problem. i alr planned that i should get out of the threatre at 11.30pm budden becos of the fire it delayed the show! so it end about 11.55pm then we rushed down. i cfm go pee even if i need to take cab cos i m so urgent budden i tahan cos the show beri exciting liao.

then after toilet dear and me ran to terminal. phew. bus 187 not yet gone!! woo hoo. took the last bus home. end of story.

today is a hectic and stress day cos of the project. shits. i want to see doc.

2008-08-04T00:03:00.002+08:00

3 august

HAPPY 37 months to CY.

you asked me on friday 1/8. did i treat you as a habit. as part and parcel of life. just a person who i get used to.

my answers to that: yes. you are my habit. and also my LOVE. don't alwis think that i treat you bad. i know you treat me good. pls think of my good side :) i love you 4 ever.

our quarrels maybe bad to worse. our love is definitely from weak to strong!

my dear laine: i heard that your dinner is pathetic. i noe you hungry. so pai seh. i have no time to come bring you for dinner. i should have save some of the food yesterday for you to pack bk rite. haha. :) i hope you are fine!. your bf will be back to you i noe you miss him to bits. i love you la.

via: its a surprise that our families went to causeway point together.... y you bought so many formal clothes huh? for ya work in future or fo tang? aniway i m glad to see you. help me sae sorry to your dad cos i never see him then cant call him. i only saw ya youngest bro and ya mum. on the escalator. --".

ohoh. today. today. is my dreadful day.

confusion on project meetings. clarified only at 11pm. --".
project not done yet. slacking.
iron clothes from 12pm like that to 4pm. there are 3 big stacks. they are trying to kill me is some way
i think i need to visit doc soon

aniway i think mayb too stress or wad la. my body hormones are not acting alright. AAAAAHHHH. i think i will visit doc no matter wad by this week. ARGHHHH!!!

i need some outlet to vent my stress. but what is my stress. ?

2008-08-03T23:48:00.005+08:00

2 august

todae i met up with laine and via. they are both my crazy babes!

First i shall describe our eating routes.

we ate chinese food at some stupig chinese restaurant which SUCKS totally. we are damn full. $31.30 spent.

crazy lunching

then we went to old shaw tower to sip sip starbucks. $23.30 spent. LOL.

we did crazy things there. we studied (the sensible part). then we start to converse on the tissue papers. you dun wan to noe the content. and we start to write stupig things on tissue attempting to gib someone. i think throughout i m the most clear-minded cos i did not join in the craziness they are radiating. i m jus a by-passer sitting there studying k. they influence me. i m sure of it.

here are some pictures, actually i have lots. thanks to via. who refuses to share the funny side of her. LALALA.

they pose for the best photographer

they are self-camering. vain girls. XD

then after tt we slack there for long long..........long still long........long long hours before we move. then we went to eat....roma deli. $15.60 spent. see how much we spent on food.

our walking route.

we alight at raffles city after taking bus 700. then we went to look for eqa. unfortunately she is sick so cannot see her. via waste our time. so we walk 750m to bugis PARCO. cross wrong traffic light. we intend to look for steamboat. however we settle in the chinese restaurant mentioned abv. then we walk to beach road shaw tower. then we walk to suntec. cos my babes have "shitting" mood. then we went to esplanade.

we watch fireworks together.

then after that we walk to pennisular there to take bus190. otw we dropped by 7-11. then we found out we kena fireworks dust. then took bus190 thanks to olivia's decisive decision. we are dead beat. i knew it. cos our mouth lazy to move. as well as our legs.

i went home bathe for 2 hours plus. then tok to dear b4 i zzz.

conclusion: i love my girls.!!! without them there's no me! :))

2008-08-02T02:38:00.002+08:00

1 august

todae its a perplexed day.

we studied today. do some crazy things together. i m so glad to have them by my side. or else i will be more STRESS.

STRESS.... dunno y too. aniway both shu geok and me going to go rawkee after our exam. haha rawkee for wad? our company office, i think shun bian can test the lift too. keke.

quarrel with dear. my fault? his fault? i dunno.

i don't like today. except the fact that i have my babes with me.

2008-08-01T00:33:00.006+08:00

29 july

yea crm test finish. hope i did okie. i did understand the qns. :)

catch HELLBOY with dear. not bad. more r/s than action la. budden alrite comedy is alwis there. we spend abit today. so end up both of us broke. zzz. i bought zara green hoodie tee and a zara jeans skirt.!!! woo. i went for present hunting for chloe too. :x. after CRM test then buy. cos busy. I HOPE SHE LOVES IT!!!

ignored the fat figure

well. dear paid for it. i owe him money. awwwwww.! aniway a great night.

30 july

OMG my acer charger is spolit. thanks NEO for answering my SOS call. or i will be stupid there. i went there alone waited for 1 1/2 hour. explain to the service person for less than 5 mins. i get it change for FOC. cos its under warranty. otherwise have to pay $110. omg. so X can. however, batt cannot change. must gt charge like $200plus. crazy.

after tt went for dinner with family.

31st july

went to sch for IS. luckily our MQE is not screw up. i decided to let go what i hate. cos i think she is jus a naive person. aniway i dun wan to care anymore. haha.

then went to meet up dear. i took a super cool bus157. its like a bus trying to promote nokia music express HP so its has a cool interior design to the bus to make it feel like a pub. i secretly snap some pics out of boredom. my first time boarding a whole new concept bus. its has music.to pass him excel dummy book for him to brush up his excel skills. and oso his resume. which he may need it for his interview. well have brunch together. brunch= breakfast+lunch. haha.

This is the special seats available in the bus.

the in-built speaker for music at the ceiling of the bus. a stupig passenger with black face. :x

then after tt 4pm took bus154 bk to sch. for a stupid half an hour brief for IAP. i dun like my LO. she is strict. i hope she has a positive intention for her actions and speech.

aniway after tt went to attend a dinner with family. its my dad's disciple's son's bdae. wad a wordy sentence. LOL. aniway it turns out that its so malu there cos they like family gathering. i feel so uneasy. zzz.

sorry girls, i have not meet up with you all! cya tomorrow. :) we will study together. for the moment i still have a project on hand.opps. :x

i think my hp bill will bomb this month cos i msg alot LOL. cos i m complaining abt my LO. --".

2008-07-27T15:12:00.002+08:00

27 july

an advanced HAPPY BIRTHDAY to FABIAN HENG and CHLOE LIM!!!!

so busy busy. spend my friday and saturday with dear.

friday: the dark knight. a psychologically scary show. maybe cos of the JOKER.

saturday: busy with SQM proj audit.

SUNDAY: busy copying SIS notes, updating songs. d/l notes. check mails. shit. I have yet to study my CRM. T.T

lalala~

2008-07-25T00:06:00.004+08:00

24 july

MANY THANKS.

My family can lie to me they planning holiday trip after my exam. WHICH IS A TOTAL FUCKING LIE.
thank you for talking behind my back

dear oso make me upset. haish. everyone loves to make me upset. i cried. happy?

i hate liars. please get out of my life. PLEASE. i think in this pragmatic world everyone turns fake right.

Does the problem lies with me? I will reflect on myself. sorry if i did anything wrong. i definitely don't deserve this kind of treatment.

luckily i still have my most precious friend with me. thanks via and laine. you both are the only ones whom i can trust and say pour everything out.

i am having headache. feeling heart ache. fuck i hate this feeling.

2008-07-23T23:06:00.002+08:00

23 july

meet up with via and laine.

via treat us to pastamania! thanks! then we slack around lot1 till 9pm plus went home print stuffs. --".

elaine, pls think about your decisions okie :))

well now i must pia my CRM test. must pia the SQM_CRM project. most importantly exams.

MY wish is to get a MBA. before i have kids!

2008-07-23T01:32:00.002+08:00

23 july

i think teachers like threatening? some like to threaten with participation marks. (10%) while others are sacastic when they see the grades you get from the previous teacher. and some even threaten to do something on those who don't attend lectures. at times, i wonder. ain't we paying them? y make it hard for us. --". teachers. i don't like them at all. the gap between the older and younger generation cannot close up cos there is this "authority" thing FOREVER there.

Then talking about projects.

Projects coming at the last minute. refuse to allow more ppl to work together. kinda unhappy abt it. cos its like we have test coming up la. plus the stupid IS alwis never ending de nor. DO THIS DO THAT, EAT MY BACKSIDE.

stress.
projects.
exams.
test.
assignments.
university.
money.
presents.

sians. i m glad next semster i confirm go to attachment. I pray hard my reporting officer will not like the FUCKING JONATHAN whatever shit at XXX. i hope he go and die fast. CB backstabber. i m gng with shu geok. and TB23 weijian. well i hope he is not an arsehole. for the other ger. pray hard she not a slutty bitch too. i want my 6 months to be a happy one.

2008-07-21T02:28:00.003+08:00

20 july

A list of headaches.

MQE assignment 1
MQE assignment 2
CRM_SQM
IBS networking

so troublesome to have so many workload on hand.

i have research on universities. hmmm. kaplan seems attractive to me. budden i gotta check out the price. cos i think my GPA want to go local uni abit like dreaming lei. so dunno la...zzz.

i m glad laine get her job. !!!!

tmr i shall pei olivia go find her lib books. then i need to do fieldtrip for MQE assignment 2. sians. self reflection and print business cards. ARGH!!!!!!!!! tmr is a busy day.

i have yet to iron my clothes. --".

2008-07-19T00:45:00.003+08:00

19 july

i finally have a nice sleep after the stupig days preparing for the fucking WISP after all the efforts. what we get is SHIT from that fucking bitch.

i slept till 2pm. opps. :x. i alr dated dear to go for a run then a swim in the end cancelled liao. cos i cant wake up. till he called me. haha. i got lots of msgs while i m sleeping. --".

so i went to his hse watch the show. so sad la. then oso play ps3. its fun. woo hoo. guitar hero. and i dunno how to use that damn guitar. ironic. haha. then after tt colin came to join us for dinner. walk the dog. then tok all the way. tok abt homosexual. --". future and stuffs. well i m excited abt getting into a uni. so i ask him. he gave me quite a few. budden now i can only remember. MDIS, KAPLAN, NTU, SMU and RMTI. i dunno la. quite a few. and oso london uni. hmmm... i wonder shuld i travelled overseas? or shuld i take a private uni locally. oh oso got uniSIM and SIM global. well sians zzz. so many budden dunno which one good.

hmmm.besides these, i oso use the chance to urge dear go find job. cos he is still waiting for the damn job. which i think is soooooo fucking slow in replying him. well. i think tt's abt it after tt dear send me and colin down to bustop.

well i dunno y i so emo yesterday. ??? perhaps the WISP project is the whole thing. cos we put in 101% and fuck the teacher.so tt's y so sians. plus the lack of sleep. its really killing me when i have not enough sleep. HAHA. well i m feeling much more better todae.

oh b4 i forget. i hope that laine will get the kumon job.

then oso the person who 'steal' olivia's lib book will return for her or else he/she can go and die or u can lau sai till u die. WAHAHAHA. olivia i think i saw afra today lei at bpp that bustop then she oso took bus 180 with me. haha. then she beri kind hearted sial give an old man 50cents. LOLs.

i hope dear can get a job by next month. after the FIR concert. haha. :) that's when olivia, laine and me will be mugging our exams. JIA YOUS!!!!!!!!!wooo.

2008-07-18T02:00:00.003+08:00

16 july

meet up with laine and via. have a gr8 nite.

can you spot me?

the pretty babes!

Let the photos speak for themselves. i have lots of crazy photos. i m too lazy to upload every single pic. tat will be crazy so that's all.

17 july

its a FUCKING CB day.

i m not happy with the morning class teacher. SHE is really 1 fucking bitch which i have ever seen. TO hell with the XXXX!!! CCB

aniway that's is alright. i got kinda touchy after that. i m like not so okie for everything.

meet up jia min and via for lunch. pass jia min prezzie then off i go to dear hse.

sorry jia min never attend ya bdae party. ktv aint suitable for me to go.

i got nth to say and i dun wish to say anitin anymore.

however, i still play game watch tv at dear's hse.
i think everything sucks on me. my hair, my body, my face.fuck everything. emo-ing. LALALA.

2008-07-13T23:50:00.002+08:00

13 july

well today went to visit my granny. luckily no nonsense comments. did receive some. i ignore. ignorance is bliss. i really agreed. i noe alot of ppl would like to tell me go slim down. well i really have no time for it NOW. seriously. i want to do it when i m on my attachment. i will be more free. thou i will be dead beat. aniways. i want to go IPL for my armpit. seriously. my pubic hairs are beri free that they grow non-stop. whereas my hair does not like to grow fast. TMD..... i wish the growing speed can exchange eh. so i can have LONG HAIR SOON. i m getting impatient.

well toking abt spams. i seriously think they have low life or sumtin. they spam my fren via, they spam me and laine. like some ppl acting like they noe us and comment on our life. if we need you spammers. wad are parents for. can you provide me $$$$ since you love commenting on ppl. haha.

aniways. you all are no match for us. so get off. mayb spamming ya parents would be better. or fuck ya parents or sumtin. i guess that suits your kind of character. pardon me for being so vulgar.no life ppl.

bk to topic. me and dear are fine. thou the quarrels seem to snowball i dunno y. its jus boil my blood. i m so angry till i get home still angry. then appease after a long sweet dream. thou my dream is kinda crappy. however i cant remember wad liao.

monday is coming. omg omg. is so shitty. cos work is coming bk to haunt me again. AHHHHH.

2008-07-11T23:52:00.002+08:00

11 july

todae i went to dear hse.

then i cabbed down to lynn's and lizhen's hse to return them the O's stuffs. luckily i cabbed down cos the books and stuffs are really beri heavy.

then went to jurong west there to eat. i ate alot for lunch. a heavy lunch. then after tt went bk to dear hse then play the call of duty. T.T. i m always being killed in the game. then after tt went to meet olivia.

we go walk walk. then i saw ppl play guitar hero "X-box" version. they so lousy sial. i cfm can win them. somemore its controller de. WAHAHAHA. :x then we stroll. we bought prezzies for JIA HUI AND JIA MIN. then oso went to walk around again. cos i searching for the gifts for chloe, my lil bro and cy's cuz. i dunno wad to buy. --".

so walk walk then end up we are at MAC. we have double choco frappe then oso ate cakes which is "opera diva" and also "oreo cheese" i think the oreo cheese is yummy. mine too. then i m so filling. then i went to shit after eating. then met up with laine.

poor laine. she misses JD alot. plus JD cant charge his hp. poor them. i understand the miss bf feeling. LOL when the guy in camp. the ger tends to be quite sians for the first few days. nevertheless, laine you got US! we love you la. so no worries. suggestion to get over the lonely days: find a part-time job. got $$$ earn plus can get rid of boredom when working :))
plus no worries JD, we will LOOK AFTER LAINE :))

then when gng home saw peggy's sis. not i saw her is via and laine. i think their eyes are superb. i did not even realise until via told me --". then went home. bathe. waiting for dear to come online. as for me surf net. check mails. d/l notes. so boring.

i can meet you tomorrow laine.! :)

2008-07-09T01:25:00.003+08:00

8 july

A HAPPY DAY.

however,

i know olivia has lost her favourite hair clip and her crystal flower ring. no worries ger, your things will re-surface de. budden got abit eerie la suddenly disappear that kind. i can get you the bear clip if you wan. :) so cheer up yea! hugs. i hope no one is bullying you if so just tell me. :)

to "its-jannah"- you not happy can come find me here to tok. you don't try to bully my bestie. If you are so afraid that ya "wadeva wonka" will run. tied him up or lock him up in a cage. that's the best isn't it? so that you do not need to worry at all. IF a guy loves you no matter wadeva happen he will still stay with you okie. so dun come here to push blames or comment on unnecessary stuffs. besides that is just a stupig fucking quiz or wadeva shit.

to laine: i understand that its sucky that bf at times forget anniversary. i know u miss him lots la cos he gng to camp. all this frustration make ppl angry or boil. so dun so angry. JD dun meant to make you angry, cos he alwis see you so everyday is a anniversary day together with you. :)) hugs. dun so angry k.

BK TO TODAY:

we went to yuki yaki for lunch. each person 12 bucks cos promotion, usual i think student is like less than $20 . altogther is 25.70 bucks. cheap cheap. we have steamboat, teppanyaki (i think this is fun) like bbq like that and oso making ice cream is cool. except that out of the flavours we picked. green tea is the best. so we can lunch at yuki yaki if you all wan :)))

ice-cream fun!!!

then we watch "WANTED". its a cool movie i must say. however, the ending is kinda weird. that male leading actor not beri handsome. the female is defintely hot and pretty. budden unexpected outcome is that she died before the movie ends. T.T. violence i must say alot. budden the rest are okie. storyline is cool, a twist. so 3/5 cos i think some stuffs quite unrealistic.

a nice day spent with dear. i love you. thanks for the wonderful day. :))

PROJECT!!!!!!!!!

i think the projects are daunting. as it keeps coming bk to me. i dunno y. shito. projects horror sydrome. T.T

2008-07-08T03:12:00.002+08:00

7 july.

i am back to my blog.

SIS_SQM proj.

a woman named D was so agitated by our surveys' result she pour out all her unhappiness. want to cry liao BOOHOO. then oso talk damn rude. understandable. when you are guilty you might do all these stuffs. keke. aniway she minor dun wish to tok abt it. i think she does not respect students in a way.

the BIG thing is i think our TB23 presenters are FANTASTIC. i meant it. they are so COOL. haha. cute yeow koon. LOLs. COOL zipei. Clear-minded fizah. that's wad came into my mind at tat moment of time. aniway many claps for them .WOOOOOHOOOO. finally this comes to an end.

NEXT BIG THING. i m gng to celebrate OUR 3rd anniversary tmr. ooohhh. oooohhh. i love it. woo hoo yea yea.

i recalled peixian asking me. "you not sians meh, facing your bf for like almost everyday and like for 3 years?"

i replied," no." its like so natural out of a sudden. i dunno i wont feel boredom. instead, i feel bored about the quarrels ONLY. then i suddenly thought of if having a bf for 3 years is bored then having my besties for like 4-6 years is bored meh? i dun think so. as long as the friendship and relationship are maintain, have colours in it. no matter how old we are. we are still HAPPY GO LUCKY. i jus love my dear and besties (LAINE AND VIA)!!!!

no forgetting my lizhen!!!!!!! i miss her to bits la. so long no see her T.T. this coming friday i will c her. cos return her Os stuffs. my bf so bad keep so long. WAHAHAHA.

and.... i wanted to say that yesterday dear and i have a dispute and he refuses to let me go to sleep altht its abt 4am in the morning and i have classes at 9am. so outcome: i have pimples outbreak. DARK DARK eyecircle. eyebag. i think those are alwis there. then oso bad temper. so to see me smiling all day is to give me enuff sleep. MUAHAHAHA.

2008-07-04T23:24:00.002+08:00

4th july

today, i felt that the heavy stone in my heart really drop and release. keke.

so poetic. LOLs. anyway happy things must announce first.

my SLM project is over
my dad is back from hospital
i m celebrating my 3rd anniversary on 8th july. so pls dun call/ msg me. HAHA.

the sad thing is

i still gt WISP presentation 2 and self reflection
MQE presentation, quiz 2 and self reflection
core module CRM_SQM project
core module CRM test
EXAMs (SIS,SQM,SLM) all the 'S'ssssssss

well finally everything is over! phew. now is bdae thingys.

jia min and jia hui bdae
chloe bdae
my bro bdae

haha. :)))))

2008-07-04T01:32:00.002+08:00

3rd july

LALALA~ today is boring WISP and LAME MQE. Moreover, got a stupig WISP project to do which strain me. cos i slept at 3am plus last night due to the stupig SLM. c how the chains of projects worsen my sleeping hours. zzz. i feel damn drained. wads more is that i woke up early at 6.30am then i m late for WISP cos the bus 184 alwis no brain dun have more during peak hours.

so i went over to dear's hse as soon as i finish my project. not finish. yet to finish. --". then went to his hse. i got my card. hee hee dear's D.I.Y card for me lei. keke. beri nice. i like it la. except for the drawing abit weird i dunno y oso. then after tt i carried on with my SLM project checking. i think i can die from checking and checking like nobody's business sial. finally i m done with it.

we went to ntuc to buy ingredient for our home-made dinner tonite. i m cooking. then dear did a beri nice surprise for me. when i went into the room after washing and clearing all the stuffs used for cooking, it was pitch black. budden got the candles arrange in the "i ("v") u" pattern shinning there. haha. so nice sial. :)))) so i took pics of it... cos i like it. of cos i snap the dinner i prepare. simple wan la. however, most of the pics with dear. the card i shall not disclose it over here. P&C. kekeke.

nice nice........T.T

then after tt went home, i found out from my mummy that my dad is discharging from hospital tmr. WOOO HOOOOOO. so happy day. cos finish the irritating SLM project. and my dad is discharge. so me and mami will go there to pick daddy from hospital bk home. YEAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! so dear i think i can meet u on sat only. cos sun nid to do hse chores. WOOOHOOOOOOOOOOO.

i m very happy :)))

2008-07-03T01:11:00.002+08:00

2 july

today i feel better whole lot better. cos IBS is off my back. then gt via to cheer me up. her look is stupig so it cheer me up. WAHAHAHA. jus joking. haha. anyway i m kinda worry when via told me that story she heard it from radio. so i m gng to see my dad on friday. where i can really can take a breath.

oh ya, olivia bought e same puma bottle as me except its green. however, i think the red wan is out of stock or sumtin. wanted to get 1 for dear. --".copycat via. bleahx.

FRIDAY pls come. so i can hand up the SLM project. and go WEEEEEE. but i know i must do another project la. budden its okie. at least the stressful want go first. today in SQM class we are like stoners. --". the tutor oso stone i dunno y. budden weiqi's ORANGE jacket is shinning at me. its striking and my fav. colour. well. lame. i noe. nvm. bk to topic.

then i think my dad is fine la. my mummy never report anything unusual to me. then oso grandfather is fine. altht he alwis want to pee when i m bathing. i dunno y oso... then i helped dear with his resume. i think his friend is kind of weird. i know he is trying to help dear budden he abit like ki-siao. dunno y oso. mayb he is born that way. then i nearly get a scare in my life. cos dear's mummy so anxious that she kinda scream at me. i dunno y too.

i quite clueless la. i think she dun mean anything la. budden i feel uneasy nor. then i oso feel abit scare watching the GHOST HUNTER. its real de nor. so scary. then oso meiyi send me a email abt GHOSTS then i see liao gt one pic damn scary. i deleted it FAST.

Tomorrow is dear and me de 3rd year anniversary. i must say i dunno i must be happy or sad. i m happy that its our 3rd year and we have endure alot together. its true that no couple can stay together without indifferences. i must say we are both stubborn and not giving in to each other. however, in the end, we still like understand that if we persist on that. we might be walking our path separately. hee. so dear must give in to me k. i oso will la. depends on my mood. LOLs. i m jus jk.

then i m sad cos my dad still in hospital. budden i noe he is my strong PAPA. he will go through all these bravely. i mentally alwis there for him. and my dad jokes are getting lamer and lamer. and colder brrrr....i still loves him la.

so its an irony and clash in emotions. so i decided to celebrate my anniversary on next tuesday 8th of July. so tmr, i still will meet dear la jus that its stay-at-home celebration. i love you dear. muacks. thanks for being understanding that i simply not in the mood to celebrate yet.

to laine- JIA YOUs for your tests!!!!

2008-07-02T02:15:00.003+08:00

1st july

Hey people sorie to let you all so worried about me. esp moi besties : olivia and laine. last but not least dear.

thanks dear for the picture you have put up in the blog. HAHA. budden y SEXY? cant it be LOVING. LOLs. AND... the PUMA BOTTLE!!!!

i m fine. becos i alr passed the stress period for my projects. esp the SLM and IBS. its really so stressful i can CRY. but i did not of cos.

i think my dad is doing well. as my mum have not inform me any BAD new yet. and i dun wan any. my grandfather is doing fine at my hse except that he is a little notti.

as for my upcoming projects

WISP presentation 2 (17 July)***
WISP self reflection (24 July)**
MQE self relfection (21st July)**
CRM_SQM (1st August)*
IBS net working and dinning, social etiquette (21 July)**
MQE group project experiment + presentation ( 21/28 July)**
CRM test (29 july)*

I must say busy july. so i better start writing my reflections NOW cos i really have no time. haish. sians.zzz.

well i noe that i can pull through JULY. then come AUGUST final exam. busy busy buzz buzz. LOLs.

ARGHHHHHHHHH

2008-06-29T23:44:00.002+08:00

29 june

Today, i never visit my dad. i am at home the whole day mugging my SLM project.

olivia: thank you for your concern. just a reminder to you, dun go out with people you dun like. give them wrong signals only. somemore you are a girl be careful of ya safety!

dear: i never reply your msgs cos i am still angry with you regarding the issue yesterday. if you persist it is my fault. i think the cold war can go on. i apologise to you if i offend you in any way.

laine: sorie, did not tok to you much on the msn. thanks for your concern.

I still have not done my IBS yet. shit. i gotta rush it out tomorrow. haish.

i found out from my mother that if my dad's blood level continue to keep dropping which meants his red blood cells are not able to fight the virus that is in his body. he may get leukemia which is blood cancer. i pray hard that the virus BETTER FUCK OFF. u CB virus.GET AWAY FUCK VIRUS. and i want my dad's blood level to maintain and come home soon. i miss him. although he always nag at us. its better to have him with us. FUCK THE FUCKING VIRUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i noe i seldom say to my dad. I LOVE YOU. i do. i hope nth happens.

wtf is happening. so many things surging at me at one go. i need positive things to keep me going. fuck it. i dunno wad is happening. too fast to absorb everything. thanks via and laine for the greatest concern you both have shown me. i love you all.

2008-06-29T01:41:00.002+08:00

29 june

i hope i dun scare anyone with my last entry. i m just using blogger to throw away all my unwanted emotions. isn't that how it is supposed to be?

well. i need to thanks olivia, elaine and dear for your great GREAT concern. i LOVE you all lahs.

olivia: i know you are concerned about me. thanks eh. thanks for the smses. take care too okies :)

elaine: no worries, you can use a telescope to see wad is JD doing in the camp. keke. i love you la. thanks for the taggies! haha. take care too

dear: thanks for being the most understanding person. i know i did not keep good promises to you. for e.g. today i need to go visit my dad till 8pm. i really did not expect that la. budden i hope u understand that i really want to come find you. i need to thank you for being so nice to me cos we will postpone our 3rd year anniversary to 8th of july. i noe its kinda late. however, i promise that on 3rd of july i will reach ya house after my projects. love you.

aniways, tmr is a busy day. cos todae is a slacking day. i woke up at 2pm. i jus sleep and sleep till 2pm without myself knowing. m i still emo. NO. i will work hard on getting my negative things to work well. i will.

went to acc moi dad. my grandmother, aunt, uncle, lil bro, mummy and me. we all spend time with dad. hope he knows we LOVE him! and i pray hard he is safe and sound. i dun wan anything to happen to him cos he is moi DADDY! haish, our financial status is going to fall again. cos of so many stuffs need financing. i will try my best to spend less so that wont burden mummy. she still gave me $10 to top up my mrt fare todae. i love my mummy too.

spend a short and sweet time with dear. muacks. miss u.

2008-06-28T02:07:00.002+08:00

27 june

basically. i m stress. i m happy with my SLM results. it matches the effort i have put in.

these are the issues, i m really stressed about, i dunno y?

SLM project
IBS solution selling call
WISP project

i am like cramping all these in 1 week? shit.

plus, i think my family got many people unhealthy

my grandfather is not really feeling good. he is fine thou. i alwis kinda worried abt him when he is at home alone
my dad is admitted to hospital. probably becos of his "ghout" i dunno how to spell. and oso cos his blood level beri low. haish dunno wad happen to him; the doctor is still checking.

my anniversary is nearing yet i cant celebrate cos i m not in the mood. as in, i have alot on my mind. that keep mi thinking and thinking. beri exhausted. haish

stress AR. plus, i m really fat. everytime, i met my dad and his side of family. they kinda have some comments on my size. i felt despise of myself. cos i m ugly and fat. whenever, slim or skinny girls look at me. in my mind, i alwis think they must be laughing at my fatness. cant help it. i feel so insecure. i really wish to stay at home. dun wan to go to school. cos everyone is giving me the U-LOOK-FAT looks. i noe i m. I KNOW!

shit. i gng nuts soon. i really need a nice break from all these. but i cant. i must endure to 8th july. i knew i will be free then to think properly. b4 tt dun nid to date me out or wad. cos i dun wan dun feel lyk. i have too many things on hand.

i may need to postpone my anniversary. sorie dear. i dun wan to. but i m not in the mood to celebrate. i jus feel super stressed right now.

recalling: my father's elder sis= my aunt. she told me she gng to perth this coming october. i m thinking wads does it gotta do with me. then she told me my cuz, tilden is having his graduation day over there with the "square hat" then he gt a badge cos he scored the best in that particular module in the WHOLE school. i jus sae "orh, okie". wad can i say. i have not even get a diploma. wad to sae a degree?

then i recalled tilden asking me,"your third year ar?" i sae"yes" he say so you choose ya university. dumbfounded.cos i dun think uni wan my poor results. then he commented that the interns at his office are damn bored. well i think its bored to do internship that true. then at the lift, he asked, " so u are studying in "business" rite?". i sae "ya, business studies".

so business in general sound useless ba. i think banking or finance or accounting sound impressive is it? or mass communication or nursing. business studies too general? being an intern of business mayb not competent in anything? shit. i dunno wad he is driving at. however, it does not sound friendly to me.

i m wondering is this like trying to show off to me or wad?... m i so inferior in studies and everything. people keep telling me how great they are.

then my dad commented to my aunt in hakka. he sae i put on weight. then, he sae one of my cuz she slim alot. she did la. cos she last time young was beri chubby then her mami control her diet nor. she is now only 10 yrs old. i m quite upset. y m i alwis been compared?

i noe i fat. i noe i not top in studies. i m jus normal. i m a normal person with normal feelings. wads with all the comparing. it putting me in a state of killing myself. or torture myself. cos i jus feel sucks. i hate myself. y cant i be normal as in "slim" like other ppl. i never got the chance. blame it on myself cos i m jus fat and ugly. i noe i lazy in studies. wadeva. i m not superstar or movie star. y m i alwis being criticise both by my family and strangers i dun even noe.

then my dad even bought tagged size M clothes for me. i never wear M before. all along is L and XL happy?! i m fat wad. no chance to wear S/M. i m a PIG. jus a PIG. i m a 70 kg PIG happy? criticise la. say la. wadeva la. even my uncle called me pig whenever he see me. i noe he joking. budden i kinda hurt. then bertram's mum keep asking me y my face is rounder and rounder. i duno how to ans. i love to eat. I LOVE being FAT. dun i. i think so. no matter how i force myself to think positively it never work out. "you dun wan to exercise wad. who to blame" fucking fat pig. go and die la.

Y?WHY? why they always ask me to go slim cos i beri fat. or like have u found ya university yet? or wadeva shit. thanks eh thanks eh. i really dun need all these comments. i have enough.

I JUST WANT MY PUMA BOTTLE NOW. I DUN WANT TO THINK OF ANYTHING ELSE.

2008-06-27T01:53:00.006+08:00

26 june

a simple day. WISP lesson sucks.

ans question get re-butt, must stand up. i dunno y my voice auto turn to beri low volume when teachers ask me question. however, if i were to talk to my peers i will like tok damn loud. i dunno y. dun ask me y too....???

then i think that participation marks can gib to that bitch la. i dun mind la. since she need it so much. BOOHOO.

aniway, thanks MR T. becos he revise the quiz with us b4 taking it. i m beri grateful of his actions, it really save me lots of marks. esp when he sae he will gib me marks for audiotary which is a wrong spelling. it is supposed to be auditory. omg. i panicked till my spelling goes wrong. THE...

after lessons join olivia for lunch then we head down to OUR SPACE for proj research. its so tedious. lalala. i hate researching. not my field NEVER is. then we start to get crazy nearing the time of 3pm. olivia started all these.

everyone started to take pics of me with the frame design. i m too lazy to cover my face anymore.

See how serious i m. the rest are slacking keke. from left to right: Chloe, Peixian, Lynn and ME!

this is a much normal pic of boredness. cos my monkey is CUTE! ( ALL are taken by via)

****chloe, you are lucky cos ya "frames" photos i never publish haha!!!

well, halfway through our project kaishin came to find us. then we start to round up everything. cos everyone is tired and restless. both lynn and me went to take bus 157. we doze off on the bus. i completely indulge with my zzz-ing. haha. then went to jp to top up concession then went to find dear.

we play wawa again. our usual hangout. LOLs. enjoy the day with him :)

didn't i mention my dad arrived in Singapore today? he did. and he bought lots of gifts for me. so sweet rite. thanks dad. i knew you stayed up to wait for my return to home. :)

Can you guess what are these; two gifts here? HUMPH i m too fat. i NEED to SLIM to fit better thou. T.T

Another gift, I LOVE it wooo~

MY ultimate FAVOURITE. i finally have GUCCI ENVY ME and ESCADA SENTIMENT :) envy me!!!

however, i m kinda guilty cos my dad bought NONE for my lil bro; my poor bro haish. a GUESS black bag for my mum cos her bdae which means i can use too WAHAHAHA. well i m sure lucky. i reached home at 12.30am. HOHOHO....--||.

2008-06-26T21:03:00.003+08:00

25 june

went to jp with via. get her cuz's bdae prezzie. then she do her stupig $5 manicure. i think i can do it too. maybe not so nice. budden FOC. wahahaha. i acc dear go c his GOOGLES. hahaha. then after via finish her manicure, we send her to bus terminal. then dear and me went to pasar malam to buy his pants then oso go bk jp to get his SPEEDO GOOGLES.

i m thinking whether to get a new water bottle? then in the end i drop the idea la. cos no money. then walk around. went to kopitiam for dinner. eat jap food again. cos lunch oso.

RE-CALL: At canteen 1, while i waiting for via. there's 2 korean girls came to chit-chat with me. cos they trying to improve their english by conversing with singaporeans more often. i think its so. --||. anyway i did chit-chat with them cos i m bored. zzz. well luckily they left soon. cos they dunno any more ang moh to sae to me ba. then my butt nearly rot and melt to the chair waiting for via. her teacher is like digging gold tt kinda. slow and steady teaching sial. damn LONGGGGG.....

bk to topic: after dinner, went bk dear hse. play wawa. well slacking. then after tt i receive laine's txt msg. she says she LOVES me and MISSES me. I DO too. haha. lame woman. i thot she wanted to send to JD la. haha.

then i oso receive a early 3rd year anniversary prezzie from dear. the jigsaw puzzle. i nearly wanted to kill people. i hate jigsaw puzzle cos i hab no patience. budden cos i want to see the msg and the pic on it. i quickly finished it within 2 hours. that's slow. budden i DID it.

it's a frame with jigsaw puzzle inside. i did it myself with a little of dear's help. keke

i read ya blog, via. its mushy btw. --||.

2008-06-25T01:42:00.002+08:00

24 june

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!

i love you, mummy.

i don't take much pics with my mummy thou. :|

todae, is a rather hectic day. i kinda running late for everything.take care of my ah gong is one thing.

i m rather sad, cos i worried for him quite alot. i mean my mummy, lil bro oso. its like take medicine, eat. then jus nw i went to bathe, he too urgent then accidentally pee on the floor, thou he took a plastic bag. i felt guilty.cos i using the toilet to bathe. then he oso dun dare to tell me his pants and underwear wet. then he wanted to come out and find new underwear and pants for himself. budden i gib him moi bro's de la. cos he dun hab le. then oso gib him new pants to wear. i kinda sad to see this la. its like. haish.

then i dunno izit i too stress like come "menses". sians zzz.

aniway, its not a good day either, i need to go to popular to get stuffs then go home to put again. then went over to find dear. wad is worse that i need to do SIS_SQM presentation by tonight. luckily, lynn helped me do le. i dunno wad to say but to appreciate her help and as a friend. THANKS LYNN :)

thanks laine. jia you for ya test. PASS WITH FLYING COLOURS wor.hugs. :)

poor olivia, menses cramp like siao, so we postpone the jp thing to tmr. hope she is fine :)

2008-06-23T23:11:00.002+08:00

23 june

i m supposing going to SIS tutorial. but i overslept. i woke up at 8.40am.

BLUR and HORRIFIED. then i smsed chloe. ask her whether she got go lecture then i oso go la. if not quite bo liao to go ma. then she oso replied me, she overslept. i m lyk --||. for a moment. so i pon all tutorial and lectures.
*claps* i want to slap myself liao --".

then i went to print the notes for the week, as my mother never work today. then after tt we went to hospital to pick my grandfather bk to my hse.

my grandfather is going to stay at my hse for quite awhile to recuperate his health.
Luckily, and thank god, my grandfather is safe and sound for NOW. the doc say my grandfather sugar level or cholestrol is high. so it kinda affected his eyes. budden he need to go to do his brain scanning to see whether his eye nerve izit kena affected by other nerve or wad la. dun really understand. i jus noe my grandfather blood pressure is on the high side. so dun play play when u have high blood pressure. its nth to joke abt. luckily luckily, he is fine.

however, he still beri weak. walk abit gng to faint. haish. so i quite worried. cos he at my hse, all of us go school and work. only him alone at home. HOW?haish.

tmr is quite a hectic day. i need to get down to popular, meet olivia to get the accessories and meet dear.

to dear: thanks for being so understanding towards me. however i have to say i may not be able to meet as often as before. so sorie. muacks.

to laine: dun get so pissed off with jd and sians abt life la.just relax. if not beri easily get old. haha. hugs. anitin jus msg me yea. thanks for ya concern. :)

one last thing: BERNARD HENG is arriving in SINGAPORE on 26 JUNE. i m happy. however, i kinda hesitate. i dunno y too. :|

2008-06-22T20:12:00.002+08:00

21st june

its a dumb PPP lesson to attend. it teaches you how to write ya CV and resume. WTF. is so......! i think there isn't a need to attend this. however, the kevin chap provided us with lots of general knowledge. i dun really like the way he criticises HR department maybe he has something going on with his own HR department. he dun seems to like HR at all.

aniway, after the lesson i chiong home and went to puggol to visit my aunt cos his husband bdae ma. then i brought along my lappie budden in the end. its useless cos i never use it. and one more thing.

my grandfather's eye gt problem. its kinda go another direction. its like he is going to experience another stroke. i dun understand y he dun wan to STOP SMOKING. i fucking hate it when he smokes, its lyk i noe he is old and he cant change it budden STOP SMOKING can save his life la. i mean like if he really kena another stroke. my grandmother oso old liao, plus she cfm dun wan to take care of my grandfather. how? HOW? HOW? mutherfucker. cb. y must it be my grandfather, you KNNBCCB. stupig illness. dammit shit it. fuck!

went home bathe. knock out. totally never touch SLM project.

22 june.

today woke up at 12pm. chiong my project till about 6pm, when to have my all-in-one "dinner" then went on to work on my project.

in the midst of brushing my teeth, i heard my mother voice. i ran out asked her what happened cos she was intending to stay at my grandmother's house for dinner de. suddenly, she came back. she told me that one of my grandfather eyes cannot see liao.

shit. i was kinda blank. my mum is kinda sobbing. i kinda. i dunno. i m so worried. budden i cant go hospital to A&E with my mum cos i gt SLM project. FUCK SLM, CCB. KNNB CCB. i really so sad. i dunno wad to say. i dunno whether my grandfather will go blind or nt. its like yesterday when i see him, i start to feel so sad. he is like, he no longer is the grandfather like i used to know. like majiam small kid. ask lots of annoying questions, do some kid stuff. aiya. its heart-breaking when i live with him for more than 10years. he used to bring me to school and back from school take care of me. WTF. i dunno la. f la.

aniway i went on with my project. but now,i kinda cry la cos i duno how can i help my grandfather. he claim that he is a "good boy" cos he never smoke for a week le. how come sort of NOW then he realise how deadly the cigarettes are. FUCK the inventor for CIGS!!!!!!CCB.

wadeva shit. i jus want to finish all my WORK!

SIS_SQM presentation
MQE quiz
IBS solution call
SLM project
WISP

2008-06-20T02:02:00.003+08:00

20 june

i seriously have no idea how to do the SLM project. sians zzz. i need to compile the project somemore. die la. should not be so "kpo" go volunteer to compile. never again. well, i have lots of projects coming up

CRM project due on 23rd JUNE! (finished liao)
SLM project due on 4th JULY!
IBS solution call!!!!!!!!!! (1st of JULY) i dunno wad to do yet. si liao...
WISP project on Iraq. wad the fuck. i dun even noe wad it is toking abt. have yet to research. fucking hell.
SIS presentation. HELL noes when it is due.
CRM_SQM due on 1st AUGUST
MQE projects!!!!!!!!!argh.

my final exams are on 18,20,21 of august. SQM,SIS,SLM. sians zzz. wadeva shit. WHAT is WORSE is that, i still must re-prepared the MQE quiz!!!!!! which is on 26 june! wtf. i m TOTALLY stress out la. i think i can die liao. one come after another. i think i need to settle my project on SLM, then do my IBS fast. then need to study the MQE over the weekends.

fucking hell, i still have PPP. i have no time to do wadeva shit exercise la. M*****F**ker. wadeva shit.

OMG!!!!!!ARGH!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE SLM PROJECT.!!!!!!!! I HATE WISP THE MOST!!!!!!!!!!

my core modules already 6 projects. the IS modules so "di siao" add another 5 projects. F**K!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okie, i vent out alot here.

bk to topic.

today, i went to arab street however, the crowns are not available so i drop the idea of doing my crown necklace. then help dear buy his necklace which cost less than 10bucks. then went to walk walk at arab street. then after that went to SHAW TOWER.

we ate roma deli. i think its a delicious meal. except my spag NOT SPICY enuff. slurps. we finished the meals. i think the SOUP is ULTRA delicious. its mushroom homecooked soup according to via.

our super duper yummy meal.

can you see VIA?

then we went to town. i walk around in search of my perfect bag. however, it is nowhere to be seen. so via FINALLY bought her dress. then we went off. i went to jp alone to take a look at those dresses. it sucks. bags at pasar malam again, it sucks hell time. so i bought ramly and went to dear hse. share the burger with him. help him do the necklace. then after tt watch anime.

i like vampireknight. i think the story is rather mysterious. in a way, u need to guess. hmm. then brought rayray down for a walk however, rayray is buwee by me. HAHAHAH. i like it!!!!!! then after tt went to ntuc. we bought our dinner. I cook most of the stuffs. just normal dinner. then wash all the dishes. --". tiring to cook yaself. i rather packed. i finally WATCHED kungfu panda. its damn funny. i dun tink its worth while to watch at movie. cos, its short, the storyline is so fairytale. then its so CHINA. cos there's panda, martial arts, china's olden times' setting. DUHX~

aniway. a rather nice night. i gt angry with dear for awhile but we get over it. then his mama ask me to make her a pair of earrings cos she want to gib ppl as gift. then i agreed. however, dear keep demanding $$ from his mama. cos he think that his mama like take advantage of me. i think okie la, since i got spare crystal and stuffs. so well, might as well help her.

feel kinda tired. zzz.

2008-06-19T01:05:00.003+08:00

17 june

I went town-ing with olivia again. LOOK at the spread on the table. GOSH. we went to HANS first for proper dinner. I'm already full, yet we have a SPREAD of TCC's delicacies on the table while slacking there. taking pics like crazy. AND we are seated near the counter, which make mi kinda uneasy.

Items: Choco mint, Hazelnut Frappe, Classic Cheese Cake, Chocolate??... Cake

That's not all, wedges with melted cheese. I seriously though its a great deal. However, its turned out that these wedges i can actually do it myself with instant wan. the melted cheese, i can get it from kfc. wtf. NOT WORTH THE PRICE. it costs $7.90. --"

The bill is hefty. budden it only accept cash. luckily i brought cash out, HANS too, accept only cash. haha.

This is the syndrome of eating too much. my camera fone not good enuff 2 megapixels. so bear with this. HAHAHA.!! olivia i did not show ya ugly pics.!

This is one of the pics we took together. i like this PIG style. i know i look lyk one. HAHA.

well its a great night out, we went home with andrea. we went shopping around from parkmall to robinson to heeren to wisma atria back to takashimaya then to wisma atria then to takashimaya. U think funny eh olivia, we nearly puke. cos our stomachSsss are BLOATED.

due to someone's fickle mind, i will be gng to town on THURSDAY again.

18 june.

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY to JUSTINA CHEW!!!!!!!

So, since i m gng to town tmr. i decided to make a trip to arab street again. First, its because i want to have a crown plain sliver necklace. I saw it on the magazine that a model from CASIO she wore that accessories and it attracted me. So, i decided to make a trip down after gng to town. Secondly, i can get my batik skirt? or maybe a basket-type of bag. hmmm i shall take a look. tight cashflow problem yet again. --".

dear asked me to get him a necklace, i m still thinking of the pendant which look manly and stylish enuff. hmmm bdae prezzies.... justina, chloe, my brother??... wow. a long list to go. SAVE SAVE SAVE $$$$ next month so i can get prezzies. This month is spending like nobody's business. omg. BROKE BROKE BROKE. well i shall D.I.Y presents then, i hope chloe and justina will like it. LOLs. chloe bdae is still long, its like the same as my brother 28th july. hmmmm.

LALALA~ well hope that the D.I.Y accessories wont go up to $50!!!!!!!! becos i still want to get a bag and a skirt if possible. :(((

2008-06-16T15:03:00.002+08:00

16 june

i m oh-so-lazy to go online. cos i rmb i have my CRM to finish which i dread. cos its bloody nth to write abt. OMG. okie the deadline is next monday okies.so i must BUCK up at least a B for my PROJECTS. woo hoo!~

tmr is tuesday. tmr meeting olivia out to go shopping. we wanted to eat HANS, apple strudel. not really "we". its "her". haha. aniways. i hope the outing will turn out well as i hate rainy days. i m still thinking wad to wear tmr cos i m fickle-minded. who i m too fat to fit into anything tmr. hmmm. todae i met her too, she came to my hse to slack. LOLs. my hse is slack station. relaxed~.

however, right now i m not relaxed at all. i m worried for the projects. SLM CRM. mutherf**ker projects. nvm. still got one more to go for projects SQM_CRM. ><. they are like repeated projects CAN!!!!!!!! wtf.

later, i m gng to iron my clothes.so random. i dun care la. cos nth much to blog. jus feel lyk blogging.

aniway, my ugly face is sort of recovering. and i love eyebrow threading now. its nice. woo woo~ i cant forget via's brows being draw on that day. its so funny eh. LALALAs~

cant wait for the semster to be FINISHED~!!!!!

my dear is off to a BBQ outing with his NS friends. so i still MUG at home. so i can spend the rest of the week NOT so tense. i still got SLM. arghhhh!

coming SAT, i gng puggol. moi aunt say she celebrating bdae for her hubby and she bought the cake, we will like. LIKE so no link. nvm i shall go. i got PPP this coming sat. wad the... boring stuffs.

2008-06-12T01:18:00.002+08:00

REPLY TAG TO BELOVED NEO!!!!!!

1. How long will you wait for someone you love?
- i believe my love is already here.
2. What do you want to do now?
- I dunno.
3. What will you be doing at 6pm?
- its like 1.19am NOW! 6pm, i want to shit.
4. Do you hate your friends sometimes?
- Hate my darlings NO WAY! HATE HYPOCRITES, YES I DO!!
5. Where do you wish to die?
- On my bed, where i laid beautifully, all dressed up.
6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
- No. The more you wish to see it, the more you cant...
7. What impossible things you wish to do?
- I want to SLIM DOWN RIGHT AWAY!
8. Your darkest secret?
- I like to onions and garlic so i can FART at my dear and my rayray. LOLs.
9. Are you happy with your life now?
- 50%-75%
10. What if your crush asked you out?
- I want my crush to have lots of leghair. well, i doubt anyone dared to ask me out. TRY ME!
11. Describe your other half.
- Cute
-BIG
-CLUMSY
-He LOVEs ME.
12. What feelings do you hate the most?
- nah. nth. Hate is a type of feeling. i love my feelings.
13. What will you do if you fall in love w your best guy/girl friend
- I think that guy drugged me.
14. What are you looking forward to in the coming weeks?
- LESS work MORE fun
15. The most important thing in your life.
- My family, My Dear, My darlings FRIENDS!!!!
16. Who do you hope to always be there for you?
- Laine, Olivia, Dear. they are my precious.
17. Do you find life meaningless?
- nope. cos i found soulmates.
18. Who do you love the most?
- i must say my GFs come before my BF. followed by my family.
19. The craziest thing(s) you ever did.
- i think i did wadeva you consider crazy.
20. What's your greatest wish?
- selfishly, i want to slim slim SLIM. dammit.
21. Do u love ice cream?
- not really. no cravings for it.

2008-06-12T00:23:00.004+08:00

10 june

OUTING with OLIVIA TAN FEN HUI.

well its been ages since we went to watch a movie together. so we pick the bitchest movie of the year.

well girls out there, if you have not watch the movie. CATCH it. its worth your money. its M18 anyway. there are scenes of woman's tits. sex scene (well thats y they name it SEX and the city), one scene of man's dick. well GOOD FRIENDSHIP till deathbed. and individual's LOVE stories. a nice tale told in modern city. great. if you dun mind the kissing, fondling, hugging and bitching or stuffs. go CATCH it!!!!!! its a 2 thumbs up movie for the girls....

haha. so we are wondering will we be so bimbo that we celebrate our 50th birthday. i dun really look forward to that. LOLs. i will have sagging breasts. nvm i go breast enhancement or wadeva shit. to LOOK fabulous fifty felicia. LOLs. ><.well i looking forward to see both laine and via shrink like nobody business!!!! WAHAHAHAA.

then after the movie. we walk so fast. i think i can die. cos i m wearing my new GEOX shoe.f**k. i shuld have wore SLIPPERS during shopping. which i WILL on next tuesday. LOLs. aniway we went to wisma, takashimaya. but ALAS, we are LATE. as in all shops are closed. then we went to MOS burger to munch. well. kinda feel SINFUL out of sudden. which remind me of NEO NEO NEO...LALALA~

looking forward to see you again on next tuesday. aniway olivia has recommended me to go threading eyebrows. i m ON for the WHOLE NEW SENSATION. or rather EXPERIENCE.

11 june

todae, rushing to go to science centre for SLM proj fieldvisit which is a total waste of time and energy. DAMN. im there like less than half an hour. great.! went to find dear.

cos i m quite exhausted from last nite quarrel with him. and i WANT to see HIM SOON. so he can hug me. LOLS. which kinda make us feel better.cos everything is resolve. i urge him to wash up as i m HUNGRY. then we went to ate our lunch. i m sort of hmmm too-hungry-state. so i like ate lots. which horrifies myself. then i did not eat dinner.

THE HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY: todae, dear's cuz invited him to watch THE HULK with him as his cuz's mum got free sneak preview movie tix for 2, then dear ask me want or nt. so i said okie. we travelled down to town to get the tix. cos buying it online, we cannot identified the seats G3,4. so we went to THE CATHAY which is the cinema they are gng to watch at. then to moi horror, ALL TIX SOLD OUT. practically ALL.dammit.so i went to town for fun. and i waste 10bucks on my MRT trip. i m kinda furious so i walk super duper fast which dear cant catch up with him. i slow down once i reach PS. cos that's dear's limit too. well luckily still got purpose travelling to town, cos went to exchange the tee i bought for dear for other tees. he cant fit into that. so he chose 2 tees he like in exchange for the 55bucks. which i think its cool. so i kinda calmed down liao. then i take moi sweet revenge when i STUNNED both dear and his cuz. KEKEKE. with the action city chewing gum thingys. so FUNNY. lalala~ went home alone. *sobsob* T.T.

omg. and i m having a not-so-good throat now. my body is aching as moi menses visit me without any warning of cos. and damn. damn. moi PIMPLES are getting from BAD TO WORSE. i want to hide at home. i have hideous face. for no reason, dun come look for me. i wont entertain. cos my face need recovery. F**K anything that cause moi face to rot!!!!!dammit. CB. LJ. ~!#!#@$@$!$! well. sad. i m tired, in pain, exhausted. aint human anymore.

2008-06-10T02:28:00.002+08:00

9 june

my beloved rayray!!

HAHAHA. you see my dog rayray with puma jersey. that jersey is dear give him de. i helped rayray to wear it on. he was actually biting the jersey swinging it in his mouth happily. however, i snatched it over to wear it on him. KEKEKE WAHAHAHA MUAHAHAHA. *evil grins* rayray is beri reluctantly to wear it. keke. i like it when he is wearing this jersey, it looks cute la. although he is a biggie doggie. WAHAHAHA. i love to "torture" him.!!!

LALALA~ finally finished my crm part. however, i think got more things to do. so must jia you liao. meeting olivia tmr!!!
elaine you better joined us someday!!!!!!!!!!

i accomplished my 30 minutes machine running and jogging 3/4 of a round at dear's house today. my stamina sucks. --".sians.. zzz.

shockingly, yesterday, my brother came home later than me however my mami never scold or beat him. i remember the days how she treated me. "unfair" came into my mind. however, due to my tummyache and i keep shitting yesterday i have no strength and went to zzz.

2008-06-07T02:25:00.007+08:00

5th june

updates on photos as i met laine and jd. and these are the photos of KOPI. so cute rite?!!

don't see him so small; he has a powerful barking voice. like ppl say like son like mother. the mother is a super fierce woman okie. DUN PLAY PLAY!!! lols.

6th june

todae wanted to go swimming with dear. but was cancelled as when we went bk it started raining. LOLs. so to prevent it really rain, we did not go swimming. ate moi lunch at dear's hse. then watch tv awhile on a vampire anime. not bad. then went off to bugis. did i mention my CT, i m quite satisfied with the question in a way that at least i can get a B grade for SLM. finally sumtin good is happening.HAHA.

was dozing off at bus 960. reach early;walk around. then meet lizhen then went to meet the rest. have a fun night with meiyi, weiqi, justina, kai xin and oso lizhen. its so nice to be with them. a pity big head and lynn are not able to join us. no worries. there are more to come. haha. aniway we walk around after dinner. i bought myself an ipod nano cover. its so cute. dunno dear want or nt??

Front

Back

then i found out that shu uemura eyeliner is only 30bucks i m lyk OMG. its CHEAP and GOOD. GSS, no money. so i find mami to shop with me tmr. wahahaha. first i can get my shoes, next mayb get mami a prezzie. cos her bdae coming too. so is moi 3rd year anniversary, chloe's, justina's, my brother's bdaes cuming soon. woo woo~

well, laine smsed me that she never go the make-up portfolio liao, cos the teacher's fren dun nid ppl liao. so i not meeting dear but going to town with mami instead. i think takashimaya first stop. mayb chinatown... hmmm i must get my white pumps. oh and i rmb my mami say she want the sliver wedges which cost 73bucks as her bdae prezzie. well-calculated present. --".

2008-06-06T00:23:00.002+08:00

5th june

mugging my SLM all day. kinda sians abt logistics. not my cup of tea. still tmr is the exam so i must jia you.

nevertheless list of task to do for the holiday:

WISP project (hey guys u all cant slack much)
CRM (deadline:13 june by 8pm)
PPP (21st june, saturday; 9am) have yet to get the workbook.
SLM project meet-up with sakura manager
IBS tutorial

so i have a whole lot of things during my 2 weeks break or 1 week?

Not, forgetting my outing

6th june, TB26 clique dinner outing
7th june, accompany laine to her make-up portfolio (so cool!)
10th june, shopping with olivia and laine??

yuppies. sians. zzz. i think of school work i m like wtf!!!!!??? okie i shuld consider myself lucky to be able to survive to this point. i gonna make it!! woo!

and i read up abt "apple diet" its like you eat apples only for 2-3 days per week; and you can lost 3-4kg.? likewise if you rush or get the diet wrong, you will gain more!! omg. where is my motivation for weight loss?

2008-06-04T13:39:00.003+08:00

2 june

The day i go accompany dear to meet his grandma. b4 that went to study with olivia, we ended up slacking. LOLs. well my shoe is spoil! i seriously need shoes!

List for GSS

black pumps
white pumps
gold/brown sandal/ wedges
Bags (basket-like);black
gold accessories

well that's a hefty list omg. i still gt lotsa things gng on moi mind. dammit. leggings??

otw to holland (i have another 2 pics tat is identical to this. i m wondering wad dear is looking at??)

bk to topic, visiting his grandma is fun. we bought honey glazed chicken and ate it at his grandma hse. we bought a can of peach for his grandma too. his grandma beri nice woman brew green tea for us. haha. she alwis smiling de lei, so nice of her. chit-chat play chess play mastermind. wow a fun day. then we left at 7pm. well i noe his grandma "she bu de" us like tt. then we left and went bk to dear there.

here come the malu thing okie. i was like gng down the stairs of the bus 198; those double deck bus. then i slipped, i nearly fell. wads worse is the little malay girl was scared by me that she screamed! omg. she thot i gng to fell on her. OMG. i think i nearly scared and fell again. damn. so pai seh.

then after tt we went to eat western food "botak jones" 2 thumbs up for them. they are great. they give good food and service!

3 june

HAPPY 35th month anniversary to DEAR!!!

today, i went to study with olivia again. i manage to study 2 topics. yea! then we went to meet laine. she has some problems with jd. however, i noe she can overcome it.

to laine: i m glad u make the right choice as in patching with him. HAPPY for you girl. both via and me will support u till the end. pei u thru the "lonely" days you may experience. we are BESTIES!!!!!!!!! we love u!!!!!!hugs.

then went to meet dear. hee he is understanding that i need to pei my friend. we ate at home. then we spend some time together then i oror liao. when i was abt to go home his mami thot wad happen to me. cos i jus woke up and i look blur! lols. went home zzz.

to dear: its 35th month another month to our 3 years anniversary i m LOOKING forward to it. meanwhile jus to recall we are gng to eat at yuki yaki! yea. lets have neoprint. and i m still thinking of getting things to give you!!! muacks i love u!

2008-06-02T01:18:00.002+08:00

1st june

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WEE KWAN!! hoho. sorie i forget your bdae then so wish ya BELATED bdae la!! enjoy ya prime years. i mean u are getting OLDER. LOLs.

well i dunno he get to see or not better than not wishing rite?!

First, let me back track to friday which is 30th may. both me and via did stupig things at the student service office i think. its at blk4 and it has a beri nice in-built sofa. so i was counting moi coins where moi 15cents actually roll into the sofa. so at first i shuld have $2.85 but i lost 15 cents that make me left with $2.70. so i dun believe fate and i started to dig and dig. then olivia see me so bo liao and xin ku, she helped me dig out 10cents okie. stupig girl so good with digging. then moi 5cents still stuck inside. in the end, i did not manage to dig it out. however, i took a pic to leave a memory of moi 5cents. LOL. Then we went to have lunch at lot1 travelled around finally we settled at bpp library. b4 that we went to body shop to have shopping spree. i bought a lip balm to support the aids ppl when i think the lip balm is nice. and also i bought a perfume. woo hoo~ chocolate smell so nice. cause, i m waiting for dad to get me gucci and escada so for now, i must tahan. keke.

saw the shiny gold thing? that's moi 5cents

31st may i did not go and find dear cos its pouring and moi auntie they all coming to moi hse. so i want to pei them. moi mami beri mean to scold me sae me "big breasts no brain". wa liao, i m hurt so i m angry and i slam moi door and cried. then moi aunt and uncle console me. i have a lovely maternal family. i love them lots!keke.

back to todae, i m beri hurt by dear's action.

todae, he asked me along to a movie with his mum, his cuz. so i relunctantly agreed cos yesterday i never pei him was thinking to pei him whole day todae. however, first there's a miscommunication that the movie start at 1pm. so i woke up at 11.41am panick. i called dear, he lied he is not sleeping. fine. then he reach late. i missed called him 9 times. the tenth time he pick up his call, i flare up.then his mami like help him then i lan lan nor.

then after tt went to heeren, dear insisted to take neo print. i mean moi brow sucks la. everyone noe i LOVE moi brows, how can i face the fact that moi brow sucks even when i draw it. its SUCKS to the core fuck. aniway, dear threw tantrum and ignore me treat me transparent. then i leave orchard alone. i feel pathetic. i cried at taka. those who look at me crying, i hope u have diahorrea. moi tears are not meant for ppl to c.wahahaha. aniway luckily, i have olivia by my side and oso elaine's msgs. that keep me cheerful after awhile.

after tt i still keep quarreling with dear, we settle our indifferences after i telephone via. its quite a relief, i get to him the point of me getting angry. well, perhaps i mistaken his mami or wad, his mami did tell him off for treating me bad. thanks auntie maureen!

well the point is: i learn that i need to control my temper abit also. and try to slap dear bk to reality if his ego is acting again. be better to his family. torture dear when he get to meet moi family. (keke, jus joking sial)

well its all ends well here. i must really thanks moi babes via and laine. without them i think i may collapse at taka. LOL.
to via: i think no matter what people say to you, it does not matter. so what the person maybe a friend to you. even it is me, what i say does not really matter. what matter is what ya heart wants and how you feel. no one can make decisions for you, but yourself. so make the right choice.HAHA.

tmr i will pei dear go visit his ah ma!!! looking forward to see his ah ma, cos whenever dear see his ah ma, he like small boy beri guai wan. then i buwee him and complaint abt him! wahahahah.

2008-05-30T08:02:00.004+08:00

30 may

finally i CAN blog. i think macdonald internet is corrupted. LOLs.

first, i need to tag weiqi back for her qns. haha.
Specially dedicated to WQ!

1. What disappoints you the most?
When my close friend betray me
2. Where will you go if someone sponsors your tour ticket?
GOLD COAST; Any part of the world that intrigue me.!!
3. What comes to your mind the first thing you look at a ribbon?
To tie my hair
4. Do you think money can buy happiness?
PARTIALLY.hmmm. more branded goods for myself; more stuffs for myself! wooohoo!
5. If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?
To turn slim
6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
NAH! who can! i shall greet him/her as "shifu"
7. What’s the most regretful thing that you’ve done before?
Knowing PEGGY
Snap my hair off ARGH (cos my hair grow so long)
8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
20% to charity for kids
10% for my family
10% for my maternal family
5% for my paternal family
10% for shopping together with my 2 friends (olivia;elaine)
5% for slimming
5% for wedding
20% for saving accounts
5% to buy a condo;furniture
10% FOR ME AND MY DEAR
9. What is the most embarrassing thing that happened to you recently?
i was carrying heavy NTUC plastic with canned food and walking towards a seat when moi canned food knocked into a man's knee. i guess he is swearing at me ba.LOLs.
10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
Faithful
Trustworthy
Mature in Thinking
11. What makes you happy?
My Dear
My Friends
My Family
My Dog
12. What type of person do you hate the most?
Backstabber/Betrayer (I met 2 in my life FIONA and PEGGY) thanks eh, you let me noe the world.
13. Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?
Hopefully, Pregnant?! 29years old pregnant hopefully with twins cos i dun wan to experience pregnancy twice.
14. If you could have a superpower, what would it be?
Make me and my dear slim slim
15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Dear, Friends, Family, money
16. What do you do when you’re alone?
Listen to mp3
Go crazy
Window shopping
Read up latest magazines @ library (cos budget)
Reading
PSP-ing
17. How do you intend to earn a living after education?
Tourism & Hospitality (i dunno how to spell this!)
Service
Civil Servant
18. One word to describe yourself.
FUN
19. What is the most recent joke you’ve heard?
Hmmmmm.... i usually receive cold jokes, i dun remember them cos i m frozen at that moment.
20. What do I want now?
To be SLIM. i have dreaming this for YEARS!

Yesterday, i went to study with olivia at bpp mac,then we went to pizza hut for lunch (her fling; give us 25% discount) then we went to lot1 cos olivia sae she want to see her casio watch. However, none suit her. so we went to shop inside. went to cotton-on. we bought clothes. keke. then i realised moi is super transparent. must wear tube/spag and oso leggings. --".

then we went bk to mac to study again, this time she saw moi mami. so i went off with mami to ntuc and also went to buy dinner (sushi) for ourselves. went home. we "ding" nuggets for ourselves. then i went online. clueless. okie cos i want to charge moi mp3. and i wanted to attempt moi e-learning questions. hmmmm. i never. instead i was online msn-ing to late hours then tok to dear awhile then oror liao zzz. was beaten by last night tiredness.

its like thurs, 29 may. we are supposed to hav MQE quiz. so i studied hard for it. then at 3.19am moi teacher msg me sae the quiz not ready and there is no lesson. i m lyk wtf. budden oso happy. then 5am dear mistaken i ask him morning call me. and he send me extra 2 msgs. then i m like. --". sians.zzz. i only gt pathetic 3 hours plus sleep. haish. so went to prepare for moi WISP presentation.

i seriously think the teacher is like offended that kind, cos when we sae that globalisation removed the stereotype of fat=ugly. she is like saying its wrong. well i understand i still gt stereotype on me. so i think she went a little to extreme. plus chloe was trying to prove us rite. i wanted to, budden i noe she is quite furious abt it so i let it go. wadeva. and there this bitch name d jasmine in that class keep giving F***ing faces and making comments. she thot her slides are the BEST man, i think she sux and act with the accent of speaking. plus her ppt SUCKS to the core, they never focus oso teacher side with them. we are like WADEVA.f off bitch,no life.

well then while msn-ing with dear, he draw some cute stuffs for me which make mi super happy. so i must share,

phew, anyway i think TB23 guys should pay me the printing fees none of them volunteer nor.shitos. poor kaishin and the rest stay up so late. well. i jus in charge of printing.gotta go printing so MANY to print.

oh yea i forget to mention about the mac's cheena lady and an indian guy. the cheena lady really powerful flirt. go and attract the indian guy's attn first by fanning herself. girls u can do this if u wan the guys to notice u. aniway she fan near her breast, so i dun c y the indian guy wont be seduce. okie. fine. she provoke me la.
she asked the indian guy, "can i borrow/lend to plug moi charger?"
indian guy," sure sure,no problem!" eyes beaming at her.
she sae,"thanks" with a smile.
she plugged out the whole thing and moi lappie no batt la.so it is like suddenly shut down.

explaination: at first, i m using the powerpoint, then this indian guy ask can share cos he bought his multiple plug. then moi fren so kind lend him i want to bash his face nor. so many nose hair.LOLs.

then i m like so pissed. so when moi fren ask me, "that girl pretty or nt?" she pointing outside.
i replied," prettier than the one behind you." in chinese of cos. the cheena lady looking bk behind. i m like staring bk at her. LOLs.

then after tt the indian guy leaving liao, so i shut moi lappie nor. gt the cheena want to use, i oso want to go off liao.

after tt i ask the indian guy approach the cheena la, i cant be bothered by her.

indian guy went over, " can i take off the plug?"
cheena lady," of cos"
indian guy flirt," so wad are you doing now?" bombard alot of questions la.
cheena lady," can you talk slowly, i dun understand you."
indian guy," okie, i m now studying master, how abt u.

i and moi fren is lyk WTF. so EEEEEEKKKKKKKKKK. omg. moi facial hair nearly all fall off. so i dunno whether their love blossom or nt. budden i think the cheena and the indian guy is soooo...ARGH!

last of all! Hey TB26 gers, we have a dinner outing on nxt friday 6th of june! cya!

2008-05-28T09:41:00.002+08:00

28 may

todae receive a funny msg saying dun need to go to school becos it will close, i wonder how about my IS quiz and also the presentation?! what the.!!!!!

anyway i have no idea, i m gng to check with my friends later. Today, FINALLY i can trim my eyebrow, then i also need to Sakuru to do my field visit for CRM project.anyway SIS_SQM seems goner. cos no meeting is required i wonder who is going to do ALL the things eh.

yesterday, i went out with justina, lynn, weiqi, kaishin and chloe. its a talkative day. we have hotpot culture, which i think is so-so, we chatted from 3pm to 5pm. power rite. then after tt went shopping. playing with stuffs, also chatted along the way, snapped pictures. walk till 7pm, we are tired. zzz. we went to starbucks, settled down talk till the shop closes its light. RUDE startbucks never give warning which is 10.45pm to 11pm. then we went toilet and went home. the 960 was like quite long then reach.

then reach home i took moi dress out to show my mummy ($14) bucks cos gt hole, then i ask my mummy to remove the tag, MORE holes. never mind, she sewing for me. keke. well its a simple dress. however i think the workmanship for the dress sucks. Justina and Lynn bought clothes from the same shop, however, they gt the 20% privilege i didn't have it la --".sians zzz. i should have bought it after my meals! the shop bag, clothes are not bad all below 20bucks @ marina square. i also bought 2 hair clips.keke.

then tok to dear on the fone till 3am i think. i think i talk alot alot. after i just slept. guess wad i have yet to do my e-learning and study my MQE.dammit.nvm, i will mug today.keke.

i love this kinda outing;looking forward to more.keke.

2008-05-27T01:02:00.002+08:00

26 may.

so tired zzz. not enuff sleep as i mug till 5am plus for the SIS_SQM proj. at least, i finished it. then i oso did the WISP proj. i did not imagine i went to do everything yesterday nite after the night movie show of van helsing.

i thot i might slack. i did not la. i put in effort into moi proj. hoping that at least get a B+. budden i dun really c efforts from the class perspective. then girls are mugging, the guys are like mugging budden gt 2 absent. LOL. wtf. well wadeva, aniway u guys have yet to come out on a date to complie everything or u all jus wan draft to hand in on friday? god bless.

WISP is moving smoothly. great. i like it. looking forward to thurs. so i can take the stress off WISP. hey guys, if u happen to be reading moi blog pls go refer to assignment 2 in WISP cos we need to pick a topic by this coming thurs. that's wad tabitha said. hmmmm

school project are pouring in non-stop. i read MeL and CRM_SQM assignment 2 or project 2 already posted. c how fast, on hand now still gt 4 projects yet to finish.

SIS_SQM
WISP assignment 1
SLM
CRM

Now, CRM_SQM coming in, WISP assignment 2, MQE assignment 2. i really think that IS projects are way too much. HELLO, we have CORE modules can!dammit. i can endure i knew it.cos i want the 6months attachment badly. and i want to get off NP soon!thou, i will miss moi poly mates. however, i hope to get into UNI. opps. have yet to find out more abt uni. hey, anyone gt any recommendations on private uni. cos local uni is only that few. dun even noe can get in or nt.THE...

poor via and laine.
via:mugging her cost proj, i seriously think all her teammates sucks. no responsiblilty like that. shito ppls. hope they diahorrea for 49days, i meant the bitches. WOO HOO. carry on ya fashion SENSE with ya diahorrea ba.KEKE

laine: having tummy pain. pls eat hor. plus try to drink more water in between meals so wont feel cannot stop eating. cos water make u full. girl, must take care of health k? hugs.

well well, to moi dear, i m not trying to get slack from the exercise regime. however, i m kinda burn by moi project workload, and i m trying moi best to fulfill the requirements. I M trying!!!muacks i love u.

now, i shall go and edit moi WISP slides and also go do moi e-learning assignments. SO good GIRL. LALALA~

2008-05-26T02:36:00.002+08:00

25 may

kinda stress, tired. zzz.

i dunno how to really answer the SIS_SQM project questions. dammit.
i have yet to finish my WISP.

AT least,
i pack my notes, d/l-ed my notes.

BUT,
i have WISP,SIS_SQM,MQE quiz, CRM proj to worry about
and my exercise regime, diet.

so i m kinda deep down have a mixed feelings or being lazy and hardworking. sians zzz. i shall get bk to work now. i noe its late. however i just dun feel like doing anything jus now. when i m so free. haha.

i watch van helsing. a nice show. y only dragula and werewolves were recognised in the demon world? i think vampire does exist. werewolves not so sure.

i concluded i am an OWL.

2008-05-24T01:24:00.002+08:00

24 may

well i m having a terrible headache right now! i dunno y!

was busy sending friends email for the SIS_SQM project. like so busy now i m rushing 2 projects. LOL. omg.

and i seriously think that i have some problems with myself.

tired.zzz.

2008-05-21T02:05:00.002+08:00

20 may

out of a sudden i want to draw thick eyeliner to school. i want to try that out with a pair of glass. nerdy vintage look?!!oh-moi-god. get to study ba. i m lyk so OFF moi studies.

i m completely in love with "it started with a kiss 2". it's a oh-so nice idol drama series can!!! and i found that i m gng to marry to dear soon. so soon i will call him "lao gong". well, alot of ppl ask me when i m gng to get marry.well i think the soonest will be after uni ba. cos i want to complete all moi stress first then i can commit into family. haha. i mean 2 ppl family as i need to carve out moi career b4 a 3rd person can come into our family rite dear?

hmmm i guess we all grow up to soon. i use to rmb i want to be as old as possible in order to club,drink, smoke. rite now, all these does not matter. cos i got moi 2 dearest friends, moi PRETTY poly friends. last but not least moi dear and family. i love u all to bits.

hmmm school is bored, however we are bombarded with lotsa proj. i m gng proj-ing bonkers!!!!

2008-05-19T09:28:00.002+08:00

19 may

currently, i am busy with SLM and CRM projects, SIS intergrated with SQM proj, IBS solution call?!!. I swear i m gng to get an A for my dressing :x

Now, i am in love with

1. It started with a kiss 1&2 idol drama series
2. Dou Niu (starting soon)
3. I want my sushi buffet (dear u better get ya leg well soon)
4. walking the stairs(am putting efforts into my exercise regime) have yet to start my running

well i m working hard on my diet. Alas, yesterday went to chinese food buffet, it sucks. i ate some stuffs. LOLs. my mami bought marble cheese cake from secret receipe. =x. well well.

i never meet NEO for a long time. i have not met LAINE yet. miss u girls.

2008-05-14T11:40:00.002+08:00

14 may

swimming failed it will be resumed on saturday. HMMM. haha. well cos today rain so HEAVILY.well i hope this week pass fast so i can welcome nxt week. aniway am looking for covered black heels or pumps. any ideas for broad feet gers...LOL.

to via: hey if gt go shop shop wif chloe want to join.hehe.sorie la the bugis wan i forget to ask u. budden luckily never ask u go. we walk alot. i think u can go mad.LOLs.

hmmm rite now i must fabricate some stuffs. kekeke. tata.

2008-05-13T01:25:00.002+08:00

13 may

busy busy. zzz. today skip 2 hours of novena square2 how great. get to eat my fav. yami yoghurt blueberry de. keke. then went to find dear to pei him cos i dun hab time to pei him after todae. its oh-so-busy. gng out with chloe tmr to bugis and chinatown. i dunno olivia want to join or nt. i m bringing lotsa stuffs. --".cos gt the IBS presentation. then wednesday, i gng swimming with dear. budden i need to do the ppt slides for WISP. i nearly forget. oh ya tmr, i need to collate for the SLM half summary. dammit.

i emailed cold storage dunno they will reply or nt. LALALA. then oso i need to do project on thurs cos need to finish the assignment 1 of WISP. see how busy i m now. moi schedule is packed fully.i m only available on friday.

i realise sumtin horrible todae. moi brows sucks. moi figure sucks.(it alwis does). well.

to elaine: hey ger cheer up a little yea. i noe u hate the responsibility part, i do too. jus do ya job scoop anitin further than that jus ignore. be happy :) hugs.

life is busy and i m enjoying every moment of it. cos i cant bear the thot of me having wrinkles soon.

2008-05-12T02:12:00.001+08:00

12 may

i just went to do my CRM thingys software installation. well i hope i get to use it in the tutorial
or else i dunno wad to sae. hmmm one thing at a time. the time pace is really fast i have yet to do anything for moi IBS. sort of panic budden i dunno y i cant have the motivation to do anything. i m feeling real tired. then i slept till 2.30pm without myself realising y? and how i get into such a deep trance. i m not sleeping yet cos i need to accomplish alot of things.

i have to d/l notes. pack my notes for nxt week. file moi notes. i m just so busy. i m gng to do moi IBS and iron clothes tmr. i m OH-SO-BUSY. i miss dear budden i dun have time to find him due to the stupig fieldwork. i hate school. cos its damn sians.zzz. alwis need to do sai kang. i have lots of things to do.AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH.

aniway, i can only escape all these thru indulging moiself into watching tv, and playing game. being with friends and dear. make me forget momentarily. i m out of the stressful world.

i m not happy.

2008-05-07T01:56:00.002+08:00

6 may

todae is a rather nice day. except for some unpleasant things to happen. never mind about that.

i went to meet dear after my school. then i went to polyclinic to meet him, he did another X-ray and he oso need to hear his doc advise nor. is to rest more and ice his leg whenever needed. the medication are abt the same. the price differs from the AH a&e by more than half. OMG. then we went to JP after tt, went to catch IRONMAN. oooohhh my dream come true get to watch it. its so cool. i love IRON MAN moustache oh so SEXY can. keke.

well too bad moi dear ain't suitable for moustache, however, moustache itch when u kisses. soo.... hmmm for the coolness YEA. and i saw FABIAN again. not moi bro peeps. its moi TB 25 classmate. then oso went for lunch cum dinner at JP. ate fish and chip and realise the grilled dory fish rox. cos dear was having it. then went to shop around at jp then leave and went bk to dear hse.

brought rayray down to pee and shit, and i kinda saw sumtin which i recalls and its still kinda eerie to me. i kinda saw this old man in his 70s or 80s, white haired. then its like when i turn to make rayray settle down and i turn bk. he kinda vanish into thin air. it is not possible for him to walk towards me cos i never see him and its kinda impossible for him to take other routes cos i will still see him. so i m SO scare.

i went bk to dear hse. waited outside the bathroom so i gt ppl to company me. i m so SCARE. its so shitty. damn.aniway i still went home late. but i feel uneasy. uncomfortable. i dunno its is so FUCK. please dun pester me as i dun provoke you and you dun provoke me. thanks.

i miss my dear, my dad( he send me a email stating his worries for me, but i dunno y he did that however, i m kinda touched) you noe dad dun speak to daughters directly cos they are kinda shy at times. the topic dun really match, miss my friends out of a sudden. esp laine. and stupig via, we have yet to finish the whole of MEET THE PARENTS. keke.

2008-05-06T00:21:00.002+08:00

5 may

it is a tiring day for both me and kai shin. we are like so shag after the 4 hours of observations at the evergreen. we are better off than weiqi and justina as they cant sit there and must stand. so poor thing. well, i m kinda pissed with the long bus distance. its inhuman to take hours of bus ride. AAAAAAHHHHHHH. aniway i really dun understand how come my teacher is so lucky to pick serangoon and novena eh. out of all the bus which i have bus accessible to. he/she pick those i need to change bus at certain interval plus the bus trip are long. thank you teachers we need to waste time on travelling to and fro.

well i m still considering as to go for CRM lecture. i have yet to attend any lectures to be exact. and... todae olivia brought her dad's bdae cake for me. so nice of her. OLIVIA's DAD HAPPY BDAE cos i ate ya cake. hmmm. we watch MEET THE PARENTS in the library. its freaking funny. u must watch it. i think its damn funny. OMG.

and i have a long list of projects going on.let me list those
1. SIS integrated with SQM due on 30 MAY
2. CRM group assignment 1 due on EARLY JUNE
3. SLM standalone project FIRST SUMMARY due on 14 MAY
4. MQE individual assignment + group cum individual project
5. WISP project due on 29 MAY.

i think the teachers have some problems with me or the teachers think i m smart. i think they have problems with me. well as to say. i want to do some stuffs before i get into brain wreak due to projects.
1. Dear, can your leg heal faster so that u can bring me on to a proper date.
2. Iron Man is waiting for me
3. Forbidden Kingdom is long gone
4. Dou Niu is waiting patiently for me
5. i dunno wads the title name idol drama series is oso waiting for me.
6. HK and Korean drama series are chasing me
7. i have yet finished "MEET THE PARENT"

can u see how busy i am. date me when i finish these. meanwhile i shall go pack my notes and check whether moi bf is asleep le ma. zzz.