Saturday, April 22, 2006
21st april,moi dear went in army le.he is already a botak squid.i woke up as early as 6am jus to meet him b4 he go in.i went there.feeling sad...nth but jus this cant bear to see him go de feeling.reach his hse.i tell moiself to be happie.reach there @ abt 7am.well i went over to his hse.we slp together.i slp actuali cos i m beri tired.BERI TIRED.i slp soundly till 9.30am.then i mus woke up.then i nid to choose whether to go to pasir ris or to np.i choose np.everyone mus be feeling y dun i send moi dear to his destination.np oni cca fiesta wad oso nt impt summore attendance is nt taken.well first i dun wanna feel guilty for nt attending the np programme.cos i m sort of lying to moi mami indirectly.i dun wan the school to contact moi mami abt moi absence.i dun wan2 stir up trouble.
secondly,i really scare i might jus cry and cry and cry refuse to let moi dear to go to his army.to make him worry is even more bad la.i dun wan the scene.i noe he did nt wan2 send mi down to bustop too.cos he dun wan2 c mi leaving him.neither do i wan2 to see him leaving mi.so i decide to go to np.its fun k la...cos i really not in the mood.budden during the telematch i cheer as loud as i can to forget moi sadness....our school of BA won.so happie.i decided to join both animal lover and floorball.i hab moi dear support.and oso the idare camp...hab nt sign up for the idare camp yet.shit.then when i m in np i call moi dear to chat wif him...sms him...then after moi lunch @canteen2 the food sux.i called him.his hp closed.tt time i feel totally lost.i contact via.she console mi.budden moi stubborness refuse her console.i tell moiself i m nt tt weak.however i really feel down really down.even as i m blogging moi tears uncontrollably roll down.
after the np stuff...i no longer go opposite rush to hop on bus 154 to see moi dear.i took bus to bpp instead..i roam there lyk a lost soul.i m really lonely i felt so at tt time....i keep remembering the days i spend wif moi dear...during tt few months...i luff and i cried...on the bus as he reply moi sms i m so happie and i cried again...crying seems to be so frequent nowadays...i hab changed i admit.i no longer hold moi tears cos i cant animore...i m overwhlemed with sadness...cos i miss him.really alot.its unexplainable.i noe he's not gone forever or wad...budden i duno y i feel so different w/0 him.its nt the same at all.
i bought moiself a new clothe to cheer moiself went to library to borrow a book...but memories of him keep appearing...make mi weak,so weak tt i dun bother wad place it is animore tears jus roll as and when they lyk it.i m hoping for this 16days to pass by quickly.school is starting...its so wd la...so confusing...independant lifestyle...wadeva...and moi dear did sms mi at 10pm and called mi to chat....not the usual long chat animore jus short wan...less than 20mins.he hurt himself.so worry for him.i pray tt he will be safe and sound....take carie dear.i LOVE u.i MISS u.i wan u by moi side...
a day which is dull and no fun...cos he is nt wif mi.i nid to listen to his voice i think i can oni stare at our neocard and listen to the monkey which has his voice..moi only assuring things to keep mi going...i noe i hab great frens...they do make moi life a great one...budden he is still the one who understands mi and take care of mi.......nobody does.only HIM.
secondly,i really scare i might jus cry and cry and cry refuse to let moi dear to go to his army.to make him worry is even more bad la.i dun wan the scene.i noe he did nt wan2 send mi down to bustop too.cos he dun wan2 c mi leaving him.neither do i wan2 to see him leaving mi.so i decide to go to np.its fun k la...cos i really not in the mood.budden during the telematch i cheer as loud as i can to forget moi sadness....our school of BA won.so happie.i decided to join both animal lover and floorball.i hab moi dear support.and oso the idare camp...hab nt sign up for the idare camp yet.shit.then when i m in np i call moi dear to chat wif him...sms him...then after moi lunch @canteen2 the food sux.i called him.his hp closed.tt time i feel totally lost.i contact via.she console mi.budden moi stubborness refuse her console.i tell moiself i m nt tt weak.however i really feel down really down.even as i m blogging moi tears uncontrollably roll down.
after the np stuff...i no longer go opposite rush to hop on bus 154 to see moi dear.i took bus to bpp instead..i roam there lyk a lost soul.i m really lonely i felt so at tt time....i keep remembering the days i spend wif moi dear...during tt few months...i luff and i cried...on the bus as he reply moi sms i m so happie and i cried again...crying seems to be so frequent nowadays...i hab changed i admit.i no longer hold moi tears cos i cant animore...i m overwhlemed with sadness...cos i miss him.really alot.its unexplainable.i noe he's not gone forever or wad...budden i duno y i feel so different w/0 him.its nt the same at all.
i bought moiself a new clothe to cheer moiself went to library to borrow a book...but memories of him keep appearing...make mi weak,so weak tt i dun bother wad place it is animore tears jus roll as and when they lyk it.i m hoping for this 16days to pass by quickly.school is starting...its so wd la...so confusing...independant lifestyle...wadeva...and moi dear did sms mi at 10pm and called mi to chat....not the usual long chat animore jus short wan...less than 20mins.he hurt himself.so worry for him.i pray tt he will be safe and sound....take carie dear.i LOVE u.i MISS u.i wan u by moi side...
a day which is dull and no fun...cos he is nt wif mi.i nid to listen to his voice i think i can oni stare at our neocard and listen to the monkey which has his voice..moi only assuring things to keep mi going...i noe i hab great frens...they do make moi life a great one...budden he is still the one who understands mi and take care of mi.......nobody does.only HIM.
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