29 june

Today, i never visit my dad. i am at home the whole day mugging my SLM project.

olivia: thank you for your concern. just a reminder to you, dun go out with people you dun like. give them wrong signals only. somemore you are a girl be careful of ya safety!

dear: i never reply your msgs cos i am still angry with you regarding the issue yesterday. if you persist it is my fault. i think the cold war can go on. i apologise to you if i offend you in any way.

laine: sorie, did not tok to you much on the msn. thanks for your concern.

I still have not done my IBS yet. shit. i gotta rush it out tomorrow. haish.

i found out from my mother that if my dad's blood level continue to keep dropping which meants his red blood cells are not able to fight the virus that is in his body. he may get leukemia which is blood cancer. i pray hard that the virus BETTER FUCK OFF. u CB virus.GET AWAY FUCK VIRUS. and i want my dad's blood level to maintain and come home soon. i miss him. although he always nag at us. its better to have him with us. FUCK THE FUCKING VIRUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i noe i seldom say to my dad. I LOVE YOU. i do. i hope nth happens.

wtf is happening. so many things surging at me at one go. i need positive things to keep me going. fuck it. i dunno wad is happening. too fast to absorb everything. thanks via and laine for the greatest concern you both have shown me. i love you all.

29 june

i hope i dun scare anyone with my last entry. i m just using blogger to throw away all my unwanted emotions. isn't that how it is supposed to be?

well. i need to thanks olivia, elaine and dear for your great GREAT concern. i LOVE you all lahs.

olivia: i know you are concerned about me. thanks eh. thanks for the smses. take care too okies :)

elaine: no worries, you can use a telescope to see wad is JD doing in the camp. keke. i love you la. thanks for the taggies! haha. take care too

dear: thanks for being the most understanding person. i know i did not keep good promises to you. for e.g. today i need to go visit my dad till 8pm. i really did not expect that la. budden i hope u understand that i really want to come find you. i need to thank you for being so nice to me cos we will postpone our 3rd year anniversary to 8th of july. i noe its kinda late. however, i promise that on 3rd of july i will reach ya house after my projects. love you.

aniways, tmr is a busy day. cos todae is a slacking day. i woke up at 2pm. i jus sleep and sleep till 2pm without myself knowing. m i still emo. NO. i will work hard on getting my negative things to work well. i will.

went to acc moi dad. my grandmother, aunt, uncle, lil bro, mummy and me. we all spend time with dad. hope he knows we LOVE him! and i pray hard he is safe and sound. i dun wan anything to happen to him cos he is moi DADDY! haish, our financial status is going to fall again. cos of so many stuffs need financing. i will try my best to spend less so that wont burden mummy. she still gave me $10 to top up my mrt fare todae. i love my mummy too.

spend a short and sweet time with dear. muacks. miss u.

27 june

basically. i m stress. i m happy with my SLM results. it matches the effort i have put in.

these are the issues, i m really stressed about, i dunno y?

1. SLM project
2. IBS solution selling call
3. WISP project

i am like cramping all these in 1 week? shit.

plus, i think my family got many people unhealthy

• my grandfather is not really feeling good. he is fine thou. i alwis kinda worried abt him when he is at home alone
• my dad is admitted to hospital. probably becos of his "ghout" i dunno how to spell. and oso cos his blood level beri low. haish dunno wad happen to him; the doctor is still checking.
  

my anniversary is nearing yet i cant celebrate cos i m not in the mood. as in, i have alot on my mind. that keep mi thinking and thinking. beri exhausted. haish

stress AR. plus, i m really fat. everytime, i met my dad and his side of family. they kinda have some comments on my size. i felt despise of myself. cos i m ugly and fat. whenever, slim or skinny girls look at me. in my mind, i alwis think they must be laughing at my fatness. cant help it. i feel so insecure. i really wish to stay at home. dun wan to go to school. cos everyone is giving me the U-LOOK-FAT looks. i noe i m. I KNOW!

shit. i gng nuts soon. i really need a nice break from all these. but i cant. i must endure to 8th july. i knew i will be free then to think properly. b4 tt dun nid to date me out or wad. cos i dun wan dun feel lyk. i have too many things on hand.

i may need to postpone my anniversary. sorie dear. i dun wan to. but i m not in the mood to celebrate. i jus feel super stressed right now.

recalling: my father's elder sis= my aunt. she told me she gng to perth this coming october. i m thinking wads does it gotta do with me. then she told me my cuz, tilden is having his graduation day over there with the "square hat" then he gt a badge cos he scored the best in that particular module in the WHOLE school. i jus sae "orh, okie". wad can i say. i have not even get a diploma. wad to sae a degree?

then i recalled tilden asking me,"your third year ar?" i sae"yes" he say so you choose ya university. dumbfounded.cos i dun think uni wan my poor results. then he commented that the interns at his office are damn bored. well i think its bored to do internship that true. then at the lift, he asked, " so u are studying in "business" rite?". i sae "ya, business studies".

so business in general sound useless ba. i think banking or finance or accounting sound impressive is it? or mass communication or nursing. business studies too general? being an intern of business mayb not competent in anything? shit. i dunno wad he is driving at. however, it does not sound friendly to me.

i m wondering is this like trying to show off to me or wad?... m i so inferior in studies and everything. people keep telling me how great they are.

then my dad commented to my aunt in hakka. he sae i put on weight. then, he sae one of my cuz she slim alot. she did la. cos she last time young was beri chubby then her mami control her diet nor. she is now only 10 yrs old. i m quite upset. y m i alwis been compared?

i noe i fat. i noe i not top in studies. i m jus normal. i m a normal person with normal feelings. wads with all the comparing. it putting me in a state of killing myself. or torture myself. cos i jus feel sucks. i hate myself. y cant i be normal as in "slim" like other ppl. i never got the chance. blame it on myself cos i m jus fat and ugly. i noe i lazy in studies. wadeva. i m not superstar or movie star. y m i alwis being criticise both by my family and strangers i dun even noe.

then my dad even bought tagged size M clothes for me. i never wear M before. all along is L and XL happy?! i m fat wad. no chance to wear S/M. i m a PIG. jus a PIG. i m a 70 kg PIG happy? criticise la. say la. wadeva la. even my uncle called me pig whenever he see me. i noe he joking. budden i kinda hurt. then bertram's mum keep asking me y my face is rounder and rounder. i duno how to ans. i love to eat. I LOVE being FAT. dun i. i think so. no matter how i force myself to think positively it never work out. "you dun wan to exercise wad. who to blame" fucking fat pig. go and die la.

Y?WHY? why they always ask me to go slim cos i beri fat. or like have u found ya university yet? or wadeva shit. thanks eh thanks eh. i really dun need all these comments. i have enough.

I JUST WANT MY PUMA BOTTLE NOW. I DUN WANT TO THINK OF ANYTHING ELSE.

26 june

a simple day. WISP lesson sucks.

ans question get re-butt, must stand up. i dunno y my voice auto turn to beri low volume when teachers ask me question. however, if i were to talk to my peers i will like tok damn loud. i dunno y. dun ask me y too....???

then i think that participation marks can gib to that bitch la. i dun mind la. since she need it so much. BOOHOO.

aniway, thanks MR T. becos he revise the quiz with us b4 taking it. i m beri grateful of his actions, it really save me lots of marks. esp when he sae he will gib me marks for audiotary which is a wrong spelling. it is supposed to be auditory. omg. i panicked till my spelling goes wrong. THE...

after lessons join olivia for lunch then we head down to OUR SPACE for proj research. its so tedious. lalala. i hate researching. not my field NEVER is. then we start to get crazy nearing the time of 3pm. olivia started all these.


everyone started to take pics of me with the frame design. i m too lazy to cover my face anymore.

See how serious i m. the rest are slacking keke. from left to right: Chloe, Peixian, Lynn and ME!

this is a much normal pic of boredness. cos my monkey is CUTE! ( ALL are taken by via)

****chloe, you are lucky cos ya "frames" photos i never publish haha!!!

well, halfway through our project kaishin came to find us. then we start to round up everything. cos everyone is tired and restless. both lynn and me went to take bus 157. we doze off on the bus. i completely indulge with my zzz-ing. haha. then went to jp to top up concession then went to find dear.

we play wawa again. our usual hangout. LOLs. enjoy the day with him :)

didn't i mention my dad arrived in Singapore today? he did. and he bought lots of gifts for me. so sweet rite. thanks dad. i knew you stayed up to wait for my return to home. :)


Can you guess what are these; two gifts here? HUMPH i m too fat. i NEED to SLIM to fit better thou. T.T

Another gift, I LOVE it wooo~

MY ultimate FAVOURITE. i finally have GUCCI ENVY ME and ESCADA SENTIMENT :) envy me!!!

however, i m kinda guilty cos my dad bought NONE for my lil bro; my poor bro haish. a GUESS black bag for my mum cos her bdae which means i can use too WAHAHAHA. well i m sure lucky. i reached home at 12.30am. HOHOHO....--||.

25 june

went to jp with via. get her cuz's bdae prezzie. then she do her stupig $5 manicure. i think i can do it too. maybe not so nice. budden FOC. wahahaha. i acc dear go c his GOOGLES. hahaha. then after via finish her manicure, we send her to bus terminal. then dear and me went to pasar malam to buy his pants then oso go bk jp to get his SPEEDO GOOGLES.

i m thinking whether to get a new water bottle? then in the end i drop the idea la. cos no money. then walk around. went to kopitiam for dinner. eat jap food again. cos lunch oso.

RE-CALL: At canteen 1, while i waiting for via. there's 2 korean girls came to chit-chat with me. cos they trying to improve their english by conversing with singaporeans more often. i think its so. --||. anyway i did chit-chat with them cos i m bored. zzz. well luckily they left soon. cos they dunno any more ang moh to sae to me ba. then my butt nearly rot and melt to the chair waiting for via. her teacher is like digging gold tt kinda. slow and steady teaching sial. damn LONGGGGG.....

bk to topic: after dinner, went bk dear hse. play wawa. well slacking. then after tt i receive laine's txt msg. she says she LOVES me and MISSES me. I DO too. haha. lame woman. i thot she wanted to send to JD la. haha.

then i oso receive a early 3rd year anniversary prezzie from dear. the jigsaw puzzle. i nearly wanted to kill people. i hate jigsaw puzzle cos i hab no patience. budden cos i want to see the msg and the pic on it. i quickly finished it within 2 hours. that's slow. budden i DID it.


it's a frame with jigsaw puzzle inside. i did it myself with a little of dear's help. keke

i read ya blog, via. its mushy btw. --||.

24 june

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!

i love you, mummy.

i don't take much pics with my mummy thou. :|

todae, is a rather hectic day. i kinda running late for everything.take care of my ah gong is one thing.

i m rather sad, cos i worried for him quite alot. i mean my mummy, lil bro oso. its like take medicine, eat. then jus nw i went to bathe, he too urgent then accidentally pee on the floor, thou he took a plastic bag. i felt guilty.cos i using the toilet to bathe. then he oso dun dare to tell me his pants and underwear wet. then he wanted to come out and find new underwear and pants for himself. budden i gib him moi bro's de la. cos he dun hab le. then oso gib him new pants to wear. i kinda sad to see this la. its like. haish.

then i dunno izit i too stress like come "menses". sians zzz.

aniway, its not a good day either, i need to go to popular to get stuffs then go home to put again. then went over to find dear. wad is worse that i need to do SIS_SQM presentation by tonight. luckily, lynn helped me do le. i dunno wad to say but to appreciate her help and as a friend. THANKS LYNN :)

thanks laine. jia you for ya test. PASS WITH FLYING COLOURS wor.hugs. :)

poor olivia, menses cramp like siao, so we postpone the jp thing to tmr. hope she is fine :)

23 june

i m supposing going to SIS tutorial. but i overslept. i woke up at 8.40am.

BLUR and HORRIFIED. then i smsed chloe. ask her whether she got go lecture then i oso go la. if not quite bo liao to go ma. then she oso replied me, she overslept. i m lyk --||. for a moment. so i pon all tutorial and lectures.
*claps* i want to slap myself liao --".

then i went to print the notes for the week, as my mother never work today. then after tt we went to hospital to pick my grandfather bk to my hse.

my grandfather is going to stay at my hse for quite awhile to recuperate his health.
Luckily, and thank god, my grandfather is safe and sound for NOW. the doc say my grandfather sugar level or cholestrol is high. so it kinda affected his eyes. budden he need to go to do his brain scanning to see whether his eye nerve izit kena affected by other nerve or wad la. dun really understand. i jus noe my grandfather blood pressure is on the high side. so dun play play when u have high blood pressure. its nth to joke abt. luckily luckily, he is fine.

however, he still beri weak. walk abit gng to faint. haish. so i quite worried. cos he at my hse, all of us go school and work. only him alone at home. HOW?haish.

tmr is quite a hectic day. i need to get down to popular, meet olivia to get the accessories and meet dear.

to dear: thanks for being so understanding towards me. however i have to say i may not be able to meet as often as before. so sorie. muacks.

to laine: dun get so pissed off with jd and sians abt life la.just relax. if not beri easily get old. haha. hugs. anitin jus msg me yea. thanks for ya concern. :)

one last thing: BERNARD HENG is arriving in SINGAPORE on 26 JUNE. i m happy. however, i kinda hesitate. i dunno y too. :|

21st june

its a dumb PPP lesson to attend. it teaches you how to write ya CV and resume. WTF. is so......! i think there isn't a need to attend this. however, the kevin chap provided us with lots of general knowledge. i dun really like the way he criticises HR department maybe he has something going on with his own HR department. he dun seems to like HR at all.

aniway, after the lesson i chiong home and went to puggol to visit my aunt cos his husband bdae ma. then i brought along my lappie budden in the end. its useless cos i never use it. and one more thing.

my grandfather's eye gt problem. its kinda go another direction. its like he is going to experience another stroke. i dun understand y he dun wan to STOP SMOKING. i fucking hate it when he smokes, its lyk i noe he is old and he cant change it budden STOP SMOKING can save his life la. i mean like if he really kena another stroke. my grandmother oso old liao, plus she cfm dun wan to take care of my grandfather. how? HOW? HOW? mutherfucker. cb. y must it be my grandfather, you KNNBCCB. stupig illness. dammit shit it. fuck!

went home bathe. knock out. totally never touch SLM project.

22 june.

today woke up at 12pm. chiong my project till about 6pm, when to have my all-in-one "dinner" then went on to work on my project.

in the midst of brushing my teeth, i heard my mother voice. i ran out asked her what happened cos she was intending to stay at my grandmother's house for dinner de. suddenly, she came back. she told me that one of my grandfather eyes cannot see liao.

shit. i was kinda blank. my mum is kinda sobbing. i kinda. i dunno. i m so worried. budden i cant go hospital to A&E with my mum cos i gt SLM project. FUCK SLM, CCB. KNNB CCB. i really so sad. i dunno wad to say. i dunno whether my grandfather will go blind or nt. its like yesterday when i see him, i start to feel so sad. he is like, he no longer is the grandfather like i used to know. like majiam small kid. ask lots of annoying questions, do some kid stuff. aiya. its heart-breaking when i live with him for more than 10years. he used to bring me to school and back from school take care of me. WTF. i dunno la. f la.

aniway i went on with my project. but now,i kinda cry la cos i duno how can i help my grandfather. he claim that he is a "good boy" cos he never smoke for a week le. how come sort of NOW then he realise how deadly the cigarettes are. FUCK the inventor for CIGS!!!!!!CCB.

wadeva shit. i jus want to finish all my WORK!

1. SIS_SQM presentation
2. MQE quiz
3. IBS solution call
4. SLM project
5. WISP
   

20 june

i seriously have no idea how to do the SLM project. sians zzz. i need to compile the project somemore. die la. should not be so "kpo" go volunteer to compile. never again. well, i have lots of projects coming up

1. CRM project due on 23rd JUNE! (finished liao)
2. SLM project due on 4th JULY!
3. IBS solution call!!!!!!!!!! (1st of JULY) i dunno wad to do yet. si liao...
4. WISP project on Iraq. wad the fuck. i dun even noe wad it is toking abt. have yet to research. fucking hell.
5. SIS presentation. HELL noes when it is due.
6. CRM_SQM due on 1st AUGUST
7. MQE projects!!!!!!!!!argh.

my final exams are on 18,20,21 of august. SQM,SIS,SLM. sians zzz. wadeva shit. WHAT is WORSE is that, i still must re-prepared the MQE quiz!!!!!! which is on 26 june! wtf. i m TOTALLY stress out la. i think i can die liao. one come after another. i think i need to settle my project on SLM, then do my IBS fast. then need to study the MQE over the weekends.

fucking hell, i still have PPP. i have no time to do wadeva shit exercise la. M*****F**ker. wadeva shit.

OMG!!!!!!ARGH!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE SLM PROJECT.!!!!!!!! I HATE WISP THE MOST!!!!!!!!!!

my core modules already 6 projects. the IS modules so "di siao" add another 5 projects. F**K!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okie, i vent out alot here.

bk to topic.

today, i went to arab street however, the crowns are not available so i drop the idea of doing my crown necklace. then help dear buy his necklace which cost less than 10bucks. then went to walk walk at arab street. then after that went to SHAW TOWER.

we ate roma deli. i think its a delicious meal. except my spag NOT SPICY enuff. slurps. we finished the meals. i think the SOUP is ULTRA delicious. its mushroom homecooked soup according to via.

our super duper yummy meal.


can you see VIA?

then we went to town. i walk around in search of my perfect bag. however, it is nowhere to be seen. so via FINALLY bought her dress. then we went off. i went to jp alone to take a look at those dresses. it sucks. bags at pasar malam again, it sucks hell time. so i bought ramly and went to dear hse. share the burger with him. help him do the necklace. then after tt watch anime.

i like vampireknight. i think the story is rather mysterious. in a way, u need to guess. hmm. then brought rayray down for a walk however, rayray is buwee by me. HAHAHAH. i like it!!!!!! then after tt went to ntuc. we bought our dinner. I cook most of the stuffs. just normal dinner. then wash all the dishes. --". tiring to cook yaself. i rather packed. i finally WATCHED kungfu panda. its damn funny. i dun tink its worth while to watch at movie. cos, its short, the storyline is so fairytale. then its so CHINA. cos there's panda, martial arts, china's olden times' setting. DUHX~

aniway. a rather nice night. i gt angry with dear for awhile but we get over it. then his mama ask me to make her a pair of earrings cos she want to gib ppl as gift. then i agreed. however, dear keep demanding $$ from his mama. cos he think that his mama like take advantage of me. i think okie la, since i got spare crystal and stuffs. so well, might as well help her.

feel kinda tired. zzz.

17 june

I went town-ing with olivia again. LOOK at the spread on the table. GOSH. we went to HANS first for proper dinner. I'm already full, yet we have a SPREAD of TCC's delicacies on the table while slacking there. taking pics like crazy. AND we are seated near the counter, which make mi kinda uneasy.


Items: Choco mint, Hazelnut Frappe, Classic Cheese Cake, Chocolate??... Cake

That's not all, wedges with melted cheese. I seriously though its a great deal. However, its turned out that these wedges i can actually do it myself with instant wan. the melted cheese, i can get it from kfc. wtf. NOT WORTH THE PRICE. it costs $7.90. --"

The bill is hefty. budden it only accept cash. luckily i brought cash out, HANS too, accept only cash. haha.


This is the syndrome of eating too much. my camera fone not good enuff 2 megapixels. so bear with this. HAHAHA.!! olivia i did not show ya ugly pics.!


This is one of the pics we took together. i like this PIG style. i know i look lyk one. HAHA.

well its a great night out, we went home with andrea. we went shopping around from parkmall to robinson to heeren to wisma atria back to takashimaya then to wisma atria then to takashimaya. U think funny eh olivia, we nearly puke. cos our stomachSsss are BLOATED.

due to someone's fickle mind, i will be gng to town on THURSDAY again.

18 june.

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY to JUSTINA CHEW!!!!!!!

So, since i m gng to town tmr. i decided to make a trip to arab street again. First, its because i want to have a crown plain sliver necklace. I saw it on the magazine that a model from CASIO she wore that accessories and it attracted me. So, i decided to make a trip down after gng to town. Secondly, i can get my batik skirt? or maybe a basket-type of bag. hmmm i shall take a look. tight cashflow problem yet again. --".

dear asked me to get him a necklace, i m still thinking of the pendant which look manly and stylish enuff. hmmm bdae prezzies.... justina, chloe, my brother??... wow. a long list to go. SAVE SAVE SAVE $$$$ next month so i can get prezzies. This month is spending like nobody's business. omg. BROKE BROKE BROKE. well i shall D.I.Y presents then, i hope chloe and justina will like it. LOLs. chloe bdae is still long, its like the same as my brother 28th july. hmmmm.

LALALA~ well hope that the D.I.Y accessories wont go up to $50!!!!!!!! becos i still want to get a bag and a skirt if possible. :(((

16 june

i m oh-so-lazy to go online. cos i rmb i have my CRM to finish which i dread. cos its bloody nth to write abt. OMG. okie the deadline is next monday okies.so i must BUCK up at least a B for my PROJECTS. woo hoo!~

tmr is tuesday. tmr meeting olivia out to go shopping. we wanted to eat HANS, apple strudel. not really "we". its "her". haha. aniways. i hope the outing will turn out well as i hate rainy days. i m still thinking wad to wear tmr cos i m fickle-minded. who i m too fat to fit into anything tmr. hmmm. todae i met her too, she came to my hse to slack. LOLs. my hse is slack station. relaxed~.

however, right now i m not relaxed at all. i m worried for the projects. SLM CRM. mutherf**ker projects. nvm. still got one more to go for projects SQM_CRM. ><. they are like repeated projects CAN!!!!!!!! wtf.

later, i m gng to iron my clothes.so random. i dun care la. cos nth much to blog. jus feel lyk blogging.

aniway, my ugly face is sort of recovering. and i love eyebrow threading now. its nice. woo woo~ i cant forget via's brows being draw on that day. its so funny eh. LALALAs~

cant wait for the semster to be FINISHED~!!!!!

my dear is off to a BBQ outing with his NS friends. so i still MUG at home. so i can spend the rest of the week NOT so tense. i still got SLM. arghhhh!

coming SAT, i gng puggol. moi aunt say she celebrating bdae for her hubby and she bought the cake, we will like. LIKE so no link. nvm i shall go. i got PPP this coming sat. wad the... boring stuffs.

REPLY TAG TO BELOVED NEO!!!!!!

1. How long will you wait for someone you love?
- i believe my love is already here.
2. What do you want to do now?
- I dunno.
3. What will you be doing at 6pm?
- its like 1.19am NOW! 6pm, i want to shit.
4. Do you hate your friends sometimes?
- Hate my darlings NO WAY! HATE HYPOCRITES, YES I DO!!
5. Where do you wish to die?
- On my bed, where i laid beautifully, all dressed up.
6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
- No. The more you wish to see it, the more you cant...
7. What impossible things you wish to do?
- I want to SLIM DOWN RIGHT AWAY!
8. Your darkest secret?
- I like to onions and garlic so i can FART at my dear and my rayray. LOLs.
9. Are you happy with your life now?
- 50%-75%
10. What if your crush asked you out?
- I want my crush to have lots of leghair. well, i doubt anyone dared to ask me out. TRY ME!
11. Describe your other half.
- Cute
-BIG
-CLUMSY
-He LOVEs ME.
12. What feelings do you hate the most?
- nah. nth. Hate is a type of feeling. i love my feelings.
13. What will you do if you fall in love w your best guy/girl friend
- I think that guy drugged me.
14. What are you looking forward to in the coming weeks?
- LESS work MORE fun
15. The most important thing in your life.
- My family, My Dear, My darlings FRIENDS!!!!
16. Who do you hope to always be there for you?
- Laine, Olivia, Dear. they are my precious.
17. Do you find life meaningless?
- nope. cos i found soulmates.
18. Who do you love the most?
- i must say my GFs come before my BF. followed by my family.
19. The craziest thing(s) you ever did.
- i think i did wadeva you consider crazy.
20. What's your greatest wish?
- selfishly, i want to slim slim SLIM. dammit.
21. Do u love ice cream?
- not really. no cravings for it.

10 june

OUTING with OLIVIA TAN FEN HUI.

well its been ages since we went to watch a movie together. so we pick the bitchest movie of the year.



well girls out there, if you have not watch the movie. CATCH it. its worth your money. its M18 anyway. there are scenes of woman's tits. sex scene (well thats y they name it SEX and the city), one scene of man's dick. well GOOD FRIENDSHIP till deathbed. and individual's LOVE stories. a nice tale told in modern city. great. if you dun mind the kissing, fondling, hugging and bitching or stuffs. go CATCH it!!!!!! its a 2 thumbs up movie for the girls....

haha. so we are wondering will we be so bimbo that we celebrate our 50th birthday. i dun really look forward to that. LOLs. i will have sagging breasts. nvm i go breast enhancement or wadeva shit. to LOOK fabulous fifty felicia. LOLs. ><.well i looking forward to see both laine and via shrink like nobody business!!!! WAHAHAHAA.

then after the movie. we walk so fast. i think i can die. cos i m wearing my new GEOX shoe.f**k. i shuld have wore SLIPPERS during shopping. which i WILL on next tuesday. LOLs. aniway we went to wisma, takashimaya. but ALAS, we are LATE. as in all shops are closed. then we went to MOS burger to munch. well. kinda feel SINFUL out of sudden. which remind me of NEO NEO NEO...LALALA~

looking forward to see you again on next tuesday. aniway olivia has recommended me to go threading eyebrows. i m ON for the WHOLE NEW SENSATION. or rather EXPERIENCE.

11 june

todae, rushing to go to science centre for SLM proj fieldvisit which is a total waste of time and energy. DAMN. im there like less than half an hour. great.! went to find dear.

cos i m quite exhausted from last nite quarrel with him. and i WANT to see HIM SOON. so he can hug me. LOLS. which kinda make us feel better.cos everything is resolve. i urge him to wash up as i m HUNGRY. then we went to ate our lunch. i m sort of hmmm too-hungry-state. so i like ate lots. which horrifies myself. then i did not eat dinner.

THE HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY: todae, dear's cuz invited him to watch THE HULK with him as his cuz's mum got free sneak preview movie tix for 2, then dear ask me want or nt. so i said okie. we travelled down to town to get the tix. cos buying it online, we cannot identified the seats G3,4. so we went to THE CATHAY which is the cinema they are gng to watch at. then to moi horror, ALL TIX SOLD OUT. practically ALL.dammit.so i went to town for fun. and i waste 10bucks on my MRT trip. i m kinda furious so i walk super duper fast which dear cant catch up with him. i slow down once i reach PS. cos that's dear's limit too. well luckily still got purpose travelling to town, cos went to exchange the tee i bought for dear for other tees. he cant fit into that. so he chose 2 tees he like in exchange for the 55bucks. which i think its cool. so i kinda calmed down liao. then i take moi sweet revenge when i STUNNED both dear and his cuz. KEKEKE. with the action city chewing gum thingys. so FUNNY. lalala~ went home alone. *sobsob* T.T.

omg. and i m having a not-so-good throat now. my body is aching as moi menses visit me without any warning of cos. and damn. damn. moi PIMPLES are getting from BAD TO WORSE. i want to hide at home. i have hideous face. for no reason, dun come look for me. i wont entertain. cos my face need recovery. F**K anything that cause moi face to rot!!!!!dammit. CB. LJ. ~!#!#@$@$!$! well. sad. i m tired, in pain, exhausted. aint human anymore.

9 june


my beloved rayray!!

HAHAHA. you see my dog rayray with puma jersey. that jersey is dear give him de. i helped rayray to wear it on. he was actually biting the jersey swinging it in his mouth happily. however, i snatched it over to wear it on him. KEKEKE WAHAHAHA MUAHAHAHA. *evil grins* rayray is beri reluctantly to wear it. keke. i like it when he is wearing this jersey, it looks cute la. although he is a biggie doggie. WAHAHAHA. i love to "torture" him.!!!

LALALA~ finally finished my crm part. however, i think got more things to do. so must jia you liao. meeting olivia tmr!!!
elaine you better joined us someday!!!!!!!!!!

i accomplished my 30 minutes machine running and jogging 3/4 of a round at dear's house today. my stamina sucks. --".sians.. zzz.

shockingly, yesterday, my brother came home later than me however my mami never scold or beat him. i remember the days how she treated me. "unfair" came into my mind. however, due to my tummyache and i keep shitting yesterday i have no strength and went to zzz.

5th june

updates on photos as i met laine and jd. and these are the photos of KOPI. so cute rite?!!






don't see him so small; he has a powerful barking voice. like ppl say like son like mother. the mother is a super fierce woman okie. DUN PLAY PLAY!!! lols.

6th june

todae wanted to go swimming with dear. but was cancelled as when we went bk it started raining. LOLs. so to prevent it really rain, we did not go swimming. ate moi lunch at dear's hse. then watch tv awhile on a vampire anime. not bad. then went off to bugis. did i mention my CT, i m quite satisfied with the question in a way that at least i can get a B grade for SLM. finally sumtin good is happening.HAHA.

was dozing off at bus 960. reach early;walk around. then meet lizhen then went to meet the rest. have a fun night with meiyi, weiqi, justina, kai xin and oso lizhen. its so nice to be with them. a pity big head and lynn are not able to join us. no worries. there are more to come. haha. aniway we walk around after dinner. i bought myself an ipod nano cover. its so cute. dunno dear want or nt??

Front

Back

then i found out that shu uemura eyeliner is only 30bucks i m lyk OMG. its CHEAP and GOOD. GSS, no money. so i find mami to shop with me tmr. wahahaha. first i can get my shoes, next mayb get mami a prezzie. cos her bdae coming too. so is moi 3rd year anniversary, chloe's, justina's, my brother's bdaes cuming soon. woo woo~

well, laine smsed me that she never go the make-up portfolio liao, cos the teacher's fren dun nid ppl liao. so i not meeting dear but going to town with mami instead. i think takashimaya first stop. mayb chinatown... hmmm i must get my white pumps. oh and i rmb my mami say she want the sliver wedges which cost 73bucks as her bdae prezzie. well-calculated present. --".

5th june

mugging my SLM all day. kinda sians abt logistics. not my cup of tea. still tmr is the exam so i must jia you.

nevertheless list of task to do for the holiday:

1. WISP project (hey guys u all cant slack much)
2. CRM (deadline:13 june by 8pm)
3. PPP (21st june, saturday; 9am) have yet to get the workbook.
4. SLM project meet-up with sakura manager
5. IBS tutorial
   

so i have a whole lot of things during my 2 weeks break or 1 week?

Not, forgetting my outing

1. 6th june, TB26 clique dinner outing
2. 7th june, accompany laine to her make-up portfolio (so cool!)
3. 10th june, shopping with olivia and laine??

yuppies. sians. zzz. i think of school work i m like wtf!!!!!??? okie i shuld consider myself lucky to be able to survive to this point. i gonna make it!! woo!

and i read up abt "apple diet" its like you eat apples only for 2-3 days per week; and you can lost 3-4kg.? likewise if you rush or get the diet wrong, you will gain more!! omg. where is my motivation for weight loss?

2 june



The day i go accompany dear to meet his grandma. b4 that went to study with olivia, we ended up slacking. LOLs. well my shoe is spoil! i seriously need shoes!

List for GSS

1. black pumps
2. white pumps
3. gold/brown sandal/ wedges
4. Bags (basket-like);black
5. gold accessories
   

well that's a hefty list omg. i still gt lotsa things gng on moi mind. dammit. leggings??

otw to holland (i have another 2 pics tat is identical to this. i m wondering wad dear is looking at??)

bk to topic, visiting his grandma is fun. we bought honey glazed chicken and ate it at his grandma hse. we bought a can of peach for his grandma too. his grandma beri nice woman brew green tea for us. haha. she alwis smiling de lei, so nice of her. chit-chat play chess play mastermind. wow a fun day. then we left at 7pm. well i noe his grandma "she bu de" us like tt. then we left and went bk to dear there.

here come the malu thing okie. i was like gng down the stairs of the bus 198; those double deck bus. then i slipped, i nearly fell. wads worse is the little malay girl was scared by me that she screamed! omg. she thot i gng to fell on her. OMG. i think i nearly scared and fell again. damn. so pai seh.

then after tt we went to eat western food "botak jones" 2 thumbs up for them. they are great. they give good food and service!

3 june

HAPPY 35th month anniversary to DEAR!!!

today, i went to study with olivia again. i manage to study 2 topics. yea! then we went to meet laine. she has some problems with jd. however, i noe she can overcome it.

to laine: i m glad u make the right choice as in patching with him. HAPPY for you girl. both via and me will support u till the end. pei u thru the "lonely" days you may experience. we are BESTIES!!!!!!!!! we love u!!!!!!hugs.

then went to meet dear. hee he is understanding that i need to pei my friend. we ate at home. then we spend some time together then i oror liao. when i was abt to go home his mami thot wad happen to me. cos i jus woke up and i look blur! lols. went home zzz.

to dear: its 35th month another month to our 3 years anniversary i m LOOKING forward to it. meanwhile jus to recall we are gng to eat at yuki yaki! yea. lets have neoprint. and i m still thinking of getting things to give you!!! muacks i love u!

1st june

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WEE KWAN!! hoho. sorie i forget your bdae then so wish ya BELATED bdae la!! enjoy ya prime years. i mean u are getting OLDER. LOLs.

well i dunno he get to see or not better than not wishing rite?!

First, let me back track to friday which is 30th may. both me and via did stupig things at the student service office i think. its at blk4 and it has a beri nice in-built sofa. so i was counting moi coins where moi 15cents actually roll into the sofa. so at first i shuld have $2.85 but i lost 15 cents that make me left with $2.70. so i dun believe fate and i started to dig and dig. then olivia see me so bo liao and xin ku, she helped me dig out 10cents okie. stupig girl so good with digging. then moi 5cents still stuck inside. in the end, i did not manage to dig it out. however, i took a pic to leave a memory of moi 5cents. LOL. Then we went to have lunch at lot1 travelled around finally we settled at bpp library. b4 that we went to body shop to have shopping spree. i bought a lip balm to support the aids ppl when i think the lip balm is nice. and also i bought a perfume. woo hoo~ chocolate smell so nice. cause, i m waiting for dad to get me gucci and escada so for now, i must tahan. keke.

saw the shiny gold thing? that's moi 5cents

31st may i did not go and find dear cos its pouring and moi auntie they all coming to moi hse. so i want to pei them. moi mami beri mean to scold me sae me "big breasts no brain". wa liao, i m hurt so i m angry and i slam moi door and cried. then moi aunt and uncle console me. i have a lovely maternal family. i love them lots!keke.

back to todae, i m beri hurt by dear's action.

todae, he asked me along to a movie with his mum, his cuz. so i relunctantly agreed cos yesterday i never pei him was thinking to pei him whole day todae. however, first there's a miscommunication that the movie start at 1pm. so i woke up at 11.41am panick. i called dear, he lied he is not sleeping. fine. then he reach late. i missed called him 9 times. the tenth time he pick up his call, i flare up.then his mami like help him then i lan lan nor.

then after tt went to heeren, dear insisted to take neo print. i mean moi brow sucks la. everyone noe i LOVE moi brows, how can i face the fact that moi brow sucks even when i draw it. its SUCKS to the core fuck. aniway, dear threw tantrum and ignore me treat me transparent. then i leave orchard alone. i feel pathetic. i cried at taka. those who look at me crying, i hope u have diahorrea. moi tears are not meant for ppl to c.wahahaha. aniway luckily, i have olivia by my side and oso elaine's msgs. that keep me cheerful after awhile.

after tt i still keep quarreling with dear, we settle our indifferences after i telephone via. its quite a relief, i get to him the point of me getting angry. well, perhaps i mistaken his mami or wad, his mami did tell him off for treating me bad. thanks auntie maureen!

well the point is: i learn that i need to control my temper abit also. and try to slap dear bk to reality if his ego is acting again. be better to his family. torture dear when he get to meet moi family. (keke, jus joking sial)

well its all ends well here. i must really thanks moi babes via and laine. without them i think i may collapse at taka. LOL.
to via: i think no matter what people say to you, it does not matter. so what the person maybe a friend to you. even it is me, what i say does not really matter. what matter is what ya heart wants and how you feel. no one can make decisions for you, but yourself. so make the right choice.HAHA.

tmr i will pei dear go visit his ah ma!!! looking forward to see his ah ma, cos whenever dear see his ah ma, he like small boy beri guai wan. then i buwee him and complaint abt him! wahahahah.

ME♥; The LADY

Felicia
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