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Wednesday, August 30, 2006

i m gng to start work le.must wake up early.aniway can get moi pocket money only tmr nite.freak dad.okie better than nth.then just now moi mami ask mi to teach moi bro PSLE.i dun wan.cos i nid to work.budden i guess soon they r gng to quarrel with mi cos i work alwis go out till late late then they duno i go where.for the patheic 150bucks i m getting for the month of OCT.i tolerate.for the sake of money YEA.

tmr i m nt gng bk to cckss.sians.haha.no la.cos work.aniway today went over to via hse.do lotsa things...ya i m lyk helping her...get sumtins in return.WAHA.okie aniway meeting her tmr for work.at 6.45am.MUTHER-fucker.so damn early can...shitty.for the sake of MONEY.see how powerful this tool is....its a lethal weapon.tell mi which family or ppl do not quarrel or get depressed or bothered by this PAPER thing.haha.

okie then went to find dear.its raining la.damn i m drench.luckily wif dear.he PROTECT mi...from the rain...HEE HEE XD.saw his fren again.i seriously think tt mayb via u wan2 take a look at him and think wan2 to be fren wif this guy?haha.then eat dinner at dear hse...then went home alone.pathetic.ALONE again.

tt guy is so tired from his camp.FOREVER tired.luckily he pass moi generation le.or i think...i duno i think he will just slack.unlike army...he have NO choice.waha.okie here i go FELICIA WORK DAMN HARD for the SAKE OF MONEY.well...honestly i m eating air tmr.i cant dig the damn coins outta the freaking cow.DUHX~.damn-.-".

cia penned♥ Wednesday, August 30, 2006.
Tuesday, August 29, 2006

today i went to the interview.think its kinda successful ba.if i get a phone call days ltr?.duno when will receive her call.

aniway went to westmall then to bpp then drank mr bean bandung soyamilk pearl...LOL.its a freebie.okie.WAHA.olivia pay.LOL.kinda sians.aniway then we went to the level one there gt sell some stuffs for sale then olivia bought something for his cuz...then we queue up...accordingly...who noes some BIMBO also queue up behind us then kana chase by the sales person...then one of them sae,"duno which crows(in chinese)queue there"...FUCKING HELL la so obvious is us cos we r in fornt of them.FREAKS.then the cashier even more wad la.OMG.sae we cut the BIMBOS queue...awful ppl.duno wad the fuck they own cibais for scold by same gender ppls...LOL.no $$.duno how to open moi mouth for more money too...HAISH.then hmmm went to via hse.watch tv...then plan for some EXCITING things.we r kinda lame.okie.its practical okie.=p.okie then after tt contact moi hubbie.ask him after his army come find mi together take bus bk...

then meet him at bpp there...then saw his fren Yi Han.okie a FUNNY chap...cos his facial features make mi wan2 luff.small kiddo 18yrs old whereas moi hubbie is 20 yrs old.old kiddo thou.WAHA...then we took bus180 then we ran lyk siao ppl.cos we saw the bus while we walking to the bustop.all thanks to some itchy butt ppl.then after tt we went to take bus240...its lyk we stood there then the bus came.the whole grp of kiasu ppl swam towards us....

then after tt moi dear alr stand by to board the bus de pattern who noes...the bus drove forward...then end up we are behind the whole grp of ppl...then board the bus...kana hit by some auntie cos she ACCIDENTLY wan...luckily gt sae sorry to me.tt's better.go dear hse.then rest awhile go buy stuffs at ntuc and also dinner then went bk eat.then spend time together...

then i went home alone.moi hubbie is so tired.poor poor him.muacks.i love u.

cia penned♥ Tuesday, August 29, 2006.
Monday, August 28, 2006

well today went for job hunting.manage to get a factory type of job.hmmm gng interview tmr.duno can get the job or not.budden hope it will not start so soon la.hmmm.tell u all tmr whether i get the job or not.
i feel bad cos i cant pei dear much if i get this job.i m so sorie dear.i hope u wil not be angry with mi.and i kinda duno how to open moi mouth for moi pocket money from moi daddy.haish.duno y too.mouth mute.haish.cos i wan2 get moi perfume(addidas wan) and also to trim moi eyebrow duno shuld go the bangkit wan or nt.cos lyk change ppl lyk nt so good.so i go bk ang mo kio.tt is so damn far lei.so considering.mayb go bugis street there better still 5.90bucks only.haha.
okie.bk to the topic.haish i work then i will neglect moi floorball for two months.which is lyk...beri long.wad excuse should i cook up.hmmmm....welll aniway today went to look for job.help moi daddy get the phone directory book ar...so heavy.put inside moi baggie.then went to sit sit.then go home she went to meet her NEW fren.this is a secret shuld nt be disclose by mi.haha.ani details ask via yaself.WAHA.
okie then well wish mi luck in tmr interview.wondering wad to wear.haish.argh.i miss moi dear meeting him tmr...yuppies.yay!.i must get moi pocket money or i eat air.i left with pathetic 70cents k.damn.

"dear i love u
pls do not be angry with mi wor
muacks muacks."

cia penned♥ Monday, August 28, 2006.

27 august.

today moi dad bdae.budden i went to find moi hubbie.haha.went there early in the morning wanted to surprise him budden he lock his door.damn.then i knock beri long....then i knock alot of times.beri long then he come open the door.and scare mi...

LOL.wad scare mi sial.and he is alwis smiling away.humph.then i went to oror....then he dun wan to acc mi then i throw little temper.HEE HEE XD.then i WON.aniway i m pissed by moi hp...its spoil.2 years le...gt feelings liao.i deleted all the photos.dun ask mi WHY?cos i dun wan ppl to intrude moi piravcy when i trade or wad nor...aniway.moi fate with the my hp ended.

hee hee XD i want a motorola V3i (D&G) version.hee hee can make moi dear jealous.well i didn't mean to make u envy mi dear.the resturant i went b4 is becos moi parents used to be able to afford to bring mi there.budden now we are broke so equal.everyone want to be rich.so dun so vexed abt it.

well i spend a quailty time with him today.so happie hee...i slept alot.cos i feel real damn tired.after our happie hours.then slept till 4pm went to lakeside there to buy his concession.YAY!we both have the concession.he can send mi home le YUPPIES.waha.aniway we went to his market and we ate mixed veggie rice.then we went to airport....to pick his mami.then we went to took mrt to commonwealth then his aunt pick us up...then we went to airport...we hab fun gng there.

then we went to view the damn plane...so small the area haish only can c one damn plane.DAMMIT.then went to the arrival hall.tok to vai thru moi SPOIL hp...haha pathetic...then after tt went bk to moi hubbie hse then eat noodles as dinner.quite full now.then went home then gt moi hp 3310 guess wad...no batt.no charger dammit.then use moi last time de 6100 first.LALALA.i think tmr gng to moi grandma hse again to collect the charger and other colours de cover.WAHA.fro moi daddy cos he using a DA GE DA hp.-.-".

"i LOVE u dear.
i LOVE being in ya arms.
i FEEL the XIN FU.hee."

cia penned♥ Monday, August 28, 2006.
Saturday, August 26, 2006

26 august.

today woke up.reluctant to be woken up.reluctant to get outta moi bed.so i lay there till hmmm....i think 12pm plus...then i play wif moi hp.think notti.then miss moi dear lotsa lotsa.hmmm.then mani ppl smsing mi abt the thurs dinner.

i m nt gng cos gt floorball.not gng to miss floorball.cos i alwis pon.waha.okie.then hmmm....thinking of jobs too.then woke up went to brush teeth watch tape then hmmm eat cha-soba.then went to play with moi baby cuz.bertram.he is so damn cute.via u and him no fate.WAHA.okie.then took a few pictures of him.

then went to lot1 after i bathe.i bathe long long to smell nice.then went to lot1.saw lotsa familiar faces.well...hmmm...i ignore them cos they no impact in moi life.went to top-up moi concession fare then went to the ntuc to buy 2bottles of coke.how LAME.then took bus bk tt time.on bus....day-dream.budden i wan2 sae i saw lotsa guys and there this malay guy BERI handsum.i sae this cos i wan2 make VIA JEALOUS.waha.other is average-looking chinese guys.hmmm.nt bad.well lyk guys day lyk tt so many guys in the bus.no pretty ger.=(.

then went home then eat dinner play with bertram then eat cake.dad's bdae.is actuali tmr la.i gng to mit dear tmr.miss him too much.then wash moi face.cos i think moi face sux with pimples.then hmm...help moi mami refill water and stuff...help them with mini hse chores.then use net.

hmmm wad a boring dae.never a funday w/o moi dear and moi pals.ha.oh...coming thursday gng bk to cckss.reluctant.cos i dun miss the school at all.it sucks to the core.thou the memories.are unspeakable.sweet.

i need to apologise for moi EMO entries.i wan2 sae sorrie dear.cos hmmm i felt tt moi entry yesterday must hab sort of HURT u in some ways.its make mi feel sad to noe u r SAD too.haish.aniway must eat k.cos dun let mi feel worry.i noe u feeling unwell.tmr i come and take carie of u le.muacks.miss u loads.i wish to hear ya comforting voice soon.

cia penned♥ Saturday, August 26, 2006.

25 august.

stupid blogger some problem took me quite a long time b4 i could log on.

tok on phone with moi hubbie b4 i blog.well saw his EMO entry.make him so CONFUSE.i really wish to kick his sir's balls.make moi dear so unsure of moi LOVE for him.omg.i feel so helpless.wads this man?.wads with me.?

HELLO i noe how to love a person okie.HELLO i m nt fickle-minded in loving u k.cos i really want to go for better choices in future why should i choose u in the first place.?y should i make moiself go thru all the u noe wad we done stuffs.i mean.its lyk mi and u are link u noe.in a way.i m lyk ya's and u r mine.WADS is U AINT SURE OF MY LOVE FOR U.its an insult for mi.its lyk u telling mi tt i may betray u.WTF.never in moi back of moi mind in moi heart wadeva fuck is it tt i wan2 to cheat on u.

i love u so much in my heart.HELLO i dun wan UNCERTAINITY.cos there's aint in moi heart.i trust u.i really do.my heart will nt changed.unless u betray mi.unless u dun wan mi.IS THERE THINGS FOR MI TO CHANGE.TELL ME.i dun lyk guessing games.i dun wan u to tell mi u r nt sure of the love and leave mi and go and never come bk.or find mi too wad and leave mi for other women.TT'S MY FEAR.i noe u will nt.if u cant confirm my love it gib u 1001 reason to do things to hurt mi cos u aint certain of moi love for u.

in my heart i m alwis yearning for u to be with mi to acc mi every minute every second.i noe u r tired.from ya army the night training.even smsing talking is rare.budden i believe tt our love is strong.w/o communication u can sense moi love,mi missing u.so wad if moi BLOG is short.i dun really bother abt this blog.wad bother mi much is u.U!!.i just want to spend a quality time with u.u and only u.the whole day.i wan u to tell mi everything.i rather hear it now then after u dun wan mi then u start stating everything out.

so i jsut want u to noe i love u.my motivation to live happily now and start working hard is for OUR future.HELLO is OUR future.UNDERSTAND.DONT DOUBT MY LOVE.i dun lyk it.i dun care WAD THE FUCK others say.this r/s is u and me,just U AND ME.ANYBODY CAN DOUBT MY LOVE FOR U.BUT NOT U.cos in this world i feel tt u should understand me.noe my LOVE for u liao.

i m just sad and angry.y angry?cos no tell mi u r confuse earlier.wait till days ltr then tell mi.i will be scared u noe.y sad?cos my love is there yet u cant c it.m i so lousy?i feel so u noe.is if my hubbie cant even see moi love for him.haish.i m so useless aint i cant sense anitin wrong.only when u tell mi then i noe.wad can i do.i think to just tear to let moi frustrations out.Y M I SO STUPID AND USELESS.gib mi an ans GOD.fuck.

no matter wad i will cling on to u.U R MINE.dun ever think of leaving me.FUCK THE ADMIRER.I FUCKING HELL WARN EVERYONE DUN THINK OF SNATCHING MY MAN AWAY.I WILL GIB U COLOURS SEE.DAMMIT.

well todae.nth much went to pei olivia go trim eyebrow b4 tt eat maggie.then went down wif her then today she nt triming her eyebrow.siao.i no $$ to trim.then went to buy french fries.cos via return mi the $4.then went to bpp look for job.leave hp no.wif the POLAR shop.the one sell cake wan.then went to look for others.budden nth much.then walk walk.then went to her hse there tok tok then walk home.

then moi dad and mami went to bpp again to eat dinner go together nor.then went to ntuc.b4 tt went to c hp.wanted the D&G motorola V3i.yea.duno can hab one.then went home watch video tape.then tok to dear after tt...smsing awhile with him b4 tt...then tok on phone.then now using com.ya to blog.all this.tt's all.

i love u dear.really really do.more than words can describe.it cannot seen by naked eyes perhaps.i hope u can feel it.i really do.i meant it.='(.in my life there's alwis u in it.i want u to be in it with me.to share every special or sad or any moments with me.alwis.forever.


"i never believe in love u let mi see it for moiself.
the power of love.
the happiness in it.
i believe in OUR love and the word FOREVER."

cia penned♥ Saturday, August 26, 2006.
Friday, August 25, 2006

24 august.

a tired day.woke up at 4am then went bk to slp then woke up at 6 am plus.then no go bk to sleep le.then watch kim sam soon till finish.go wash-up and bathe.then went to mit via.teach her infa.

she stay at cy hse till 6pm then she went.then i stay at moi dear hse till...hmmm...10.30pm then went home.spend happie times together.i noe he under lotsa stress budden cant help.haish.siansation then he cant mit mi on friday,saturday,monday.

i cant mit him on sat and sun.cos moi daddy's bdae.sians.tt's abt it la.

cia penned♥ Friday, August 25, 2006.
Thursday, August 24, 2006

23 august.

three entries today.today want i at nite then blog.i tell u all wad happen yesterday.

woke up at 6.30am revise moi POA cos last nite too sleepy oror ZZZzzzz liao.then after tt bathe then went to school.take exam.freak the merchandising can kill mi sial.LOL.then after tt meet up with moi classmates go chalet.we went to pasir ris there by bus.we took 52 then turn 88 then reach pasir ris...after a long time.....then we went to eat lunch i ate claypot SHEN noodles.

then went to ntuc together buy somemore things lyk tibits,10 bottles of drinks,then sweet corn,sweet potatoes.then went off with a bottle of 48% absolute vodka.cool huh.cos gt our meiyi jie 20 yrs old le.and raymond uncle and audris aunite 18 yrs old le.oh ya and LYNN jie.WAHA.i think wei qi oso.forget le la.alot of year of 88 wan.waha.

then meet up wif lizhen then went to take bus 354 i think to downtown east there.went to chalet there then stamp then went in.then we put things then went to the coasta sands there.shu hui and audris rent roller blades.omg.luff lyk hell man.so funnis.then lizhen,kaixin,chloe,chio woon,raymond and yaozhong.all rent bicycle.budden the guys rent over nite.cos they SIAO.then they went cycling.i went taking photographs everywhere.then we went to the beach then bk to the downtown east there walk walk.then went bk to the room there slack.waha.time passes fast la..

then we GERS went to take BBQ stuffs cos the guys claim tt they took the drinks just now.i took the 9kg charcoal.haha STRONG.then went bk.start fire...so funni.then start to bbq all this...so fun.first the guys eat then we bbq for them...keep complaining.then after tt they cook we eat...then after tt we cook.then they all EAT only.i ate alot la.chicken wings,hotdogs,sausage,otak,satay.....drinks...abit only...then soon 10 bottles of drinks disappear.then the guys buwee hong yi and send him go cheers buy more drinks.

then we all went into the room for class pic.then took alot of shoots la.b4 tt i went around snapping at all the guys and babes.then audris auntie keep bbq-ing poor her.waha.funni.then we drank absolute vodka cos i leaving.die die must drink if nt moi $$ go down the drain sial.i pay 7bucks k...-.-".i drank abit oni.w/o mixing.FUN.

then i went to moi dear hse to stay overnite.cos moi mami let mi stay overnite.then i go find dear.sorie to moi classmates.they wanted mi to stay so badly.LOL.WAHA.then went bk with justina,lynn and hongyi.sit the train for 1hr.then reach lakeside dear come pick mi.then once i reach his hse only i bathe.

then ZzzzzZzzz.

cia penned♥ Thursday, August 24, 2006.

22 august.

hmmmm well i forget le.oh okie.i went over to dear hse at afternoon.then morning iron clothes.damn burn moi hand.suckers.then went over eat maggie.then eat moi biscuits.then watch kim sam soon then after tt revise till i think 3plus pm then watch kim sam soon.then after tt revise again.

then at nite eat rice.then revise.then hab some private time with dear then watch kim sam soon again.hello via i gng to finish the kim sam soon K.ASS.oh ya dear off so can spend time with mi whole day budden at nite i gtg home.HEE XD.

cia penned♥ Thursday, August 24, 2006.
Monday, August 21, 2006

today.at home hang clothes.fold clothes.then ate maggie.then study.then went over olivia hse.then study again.then went to school with her take test.then went bk to bpp togehter wif ajah.then met up wif abi.then tok.

i found out dirty secrets of moi classmates.WAHA.okie.not funni.LALALA.then went to tok tok wif via.cos we saw a resemble the WHO de WHO.duno isit the WHO.well i tink its the WHO la.getting complicated here.then dun bother to read this part.haha.then went over to meet moi hubbie.then at his hse eat noodles.then pei him.actuali wan2 to watch kim sam soon.HELLO olivia i m at chapter 12...LALALA.not yet started thou.hmmm.

then oror wif hubbie till 10pm.SUCKS.he woke mi up and sleep.WAD THE.moi cute hubbie HUH.then he went to ZZZZzzZZzz...then i went to sofa.he thot i below him...DIUNOX~LOLs.can kick kick summore.i think i will die if he kill mi.imagine moi face under his feet.i think u all can c mi go BERSEK.okie.luckily i m on the sofa dozing off...

then his mami came home.then i kinda face black.cos tired plus dear woke mi up.bu shuang.LALALA.then ate a banana and a bowl of claypot rice.then dear's mami tok to mi.i reply her.then went home.LOL.found out dear's fren gng to stay at his hse.shakehead*gays nite.well duno.they r SO DI SIAOSIAO.make mi jealous cos i cant do tt.WAD THE.then went home at bpp tt bustop saw 3couples.WAD THE FUCK making mi jealous OR?!!!

so wad their bf can send them home.moi hubbie oso can just tt i dun wan HUMPH.okie.then went home went straight to the room and on modem.chat online wif via awhile.went to c her friendster.NICE PIC.then moi dad knock on moi room's door.then told mi sumtin abt the ice-cream.in a nice tone.IS HE TRYING TO TEST WHETHER I M ANGRY WITH HIM OR NOT.? well honestly i m.cos i m nt forgiving when it comes to shouting and yelling at mi.DEATH PENALTY>.<.BLACK LISTED.so how many times did moi hubbie committed tt.i think i nid to start counting.hmmmm.okie.

then moi hp just rang.duno izit olivia.calling her.and i m gonna wake moi hubbie up.WAHA.evil evil.budden tt's moi hobby being evil.i m not a goodie ger to mess with.i m a devilish ger.TRY me.MUAHAHHAA.not funny kkies.ha.

cia penned♥ Monday, August 21, 2006.

20 august.

i went over to cy hse early in the morning.then i watch kim sam soon.then we went to eat then came bk.eat liao.i study.then watch pirates of the carribean.then i went to watch kim sam soon again.then at nite i study one more chapter.then went home.

went home tok to dear awhile i oror le.cos beri tired.hee XD.sorie ar via too tired to tok.lalala.tt's abt it.they r having cold war with me.HOOHOO.and OH moi pocket money can forget it liao?LALALA.wtf.

cia penned♥ Monday, August 21, 2006.
Saturday, August 19, 2006

afternoon went to cy hse.then went watch kim sam soon.then play monkeyball wif his cuz.then went to eat.then watch kim sam soon.then went home.

i hate my fucking cibai family.cos my dad claim tt they TREAT me beri good.budden i only show them temper and FUCK them oh ya....so GREAT huh.....all MY FUCKING fault right.GREAT huh!!!!!!!!!U R MY FUCKING GOOD DAD MAN.i LOVE U TO THE CIBAI CORE MAN.let mi tell u.i hate to repeat but.U ALL DUN MAKE MI SMILE,COS U ALL DUNO HOW TO APPRECIATE ME.NEITHER DO I WANT TO LEARN TO APPRECIATE ALL OF U.COS ALL OF U SUCKS.

and last of all dun come and sae u love mi when u r hurting mi.cos i will hate u.i hate u i hate u i hate u.in my life.family is no longer impt.i hate them.u make mi hate u.do u noe wad i hate.PPL YELLING AT ME.U NOE?u NOE?u duno.u PRETEND u NOE mi.U BLOODY HELL DUN UNDERSTAND ME.SO BLOODY HELL THINK U NOE MI WHEN U DUNO ME.UNDERSTAND.dun act.

fuck myself.i hate myself too.i hope i can die.

cia penned♥ Saturday, August 19, 2006.
Friday, August 18, 2006

today went for moi MAEC test.well gone case.gone with the wind.dammit.okie i m lazy.i will work hard for moi nxt 2 tests altht i hate the 2 modules.

then went to olivia's hse watch the kim sam soon.so funni sial.then went over to cy hse.continue to watch so damn funni.then go down buy dinner then eat le i sleep liao.getting FAT.cos i super headache.then sleep till so shuang.

then at 10.30pm moi dear come wake mi up.quite reluctant.then his turn to oror.cos he beri tired.then i went down moiself walk to bustop and take bus and went home all alone.steady ar.haha.i super tired sleeping all the way.till i reach home.now quite energetic.

i think moi batt can last mi till midnight plus only.wtf.i hab low batt for nightlife.LOL.i wish i can sleep at cy's hse tonite de.HEE XD.tt's wishful thinking.LOL.i still remember tt time we both sleep till 3am.-.-".damn.tt's so funni.so kuku la.

cia penned♥ Friday, August 18, 2006.
Thursday, August 17, 2006

today is a okie day.lotsa things happening.i think i really lyk alwis a tmr lyk tt.i think i m dying.dying from moi laziness.haha.i wish via good luck.i wish tt everything is lyk a nightmare and goes well to her when she woke up.

the world is different.so are the humans.sickening.budden tt's life.however i hab moi hubbie so i shall nt nag so muchie.he is the sweetest guy in moi life at the moment and 4eva.thankie for being there for mi.i noe u today sureli beri tired.i just wish i hab a little time with u.i hope the time freeze whenever we meet so tt u can have time to rest too.

i love u.take carie.to everyone take carie.take life easy.ya i noe tok easy do difficult.budden how u r gng to do abt life if u alwis so trouble everyday.give yaself a break.a long want.muacks.

cia penned♥ Thursday, August 17, 2006.
Wednesday, August 16, 2006

today study wif via again at cy's hse.then study till gt thingys pop out.rush down there....we found out everything.think hard.i think real hard super hard.FUCKING hard.budden no FUCKING solution.nvm.i hate it.i cant help IN ANY WAYS.

we went bk study.we ended up sleeping.then study alittle.eat chips eat maggie.drink green tea.watch tv.play monkey ball.suddenly gt ppl press the bell.mi and via kana scare haha.then she guard behind.then i call cy.then the ppl leave...LALALA...

then 6pm send her down then to take bus home then i went bk wait for dear.came bk shortly then we tok tok then oror together then after tt went down to buy dinner then after tt we spend quality time.then after tt he acc mi down.i m so touched and happie.haish budden heartache...cos he in pain...aniway just reach home safely.toking to moi dear on the fone.

cia penned♥ Wednesday, August 16, 2006.
Tuesday, August 15, 2006

well today went to meet olivia to study at causeway there de library.as usual i m a slacker.waha.well its wrong i noe budden i cant help it.i hate exams.then went to my dear hse after tt...hee...i eat alot as usual...then crap alot with via.

then after tt happie moments wif dear.today he acc mi down to the bustop so happie.hee XD.then walking bk home tt time beri sccaaaaaaarrryyyyy cos no ppl beri quiet then call dear budden in the end walk bk with my mami.cos she behind mi.haha.then dear and mi tok abt exercise.

then i plan le.once after moi exams,i will use moi home exercise thingys for 15mins then 15mins for skipping.then if possible sit-ups....well i noe i lazy budden i m determined cos gt moi dear support mi to shed moi fatty tires...ARGH...moi pounds of fats....HAISH.sians.

well still gt moi studies and moi cca i mus be gt the determination...HEE XD.i will la.promise.i will study tmr.YES MUST STUDY!!.budden abit sians mi dear alwis so tired we seldom tok animore.haish.during the day he is busy with driving.i cant disturb him.haish all we do meet tt few hours.i really wan2 cry at times.cos its so little.i abit beri bad i noe i asking for the impossible.haish.wish moi dear can spend a little more time with mi?during moi holidays.haish.

duno should i work during the holidays....well if so i noe the chance of meeting him is less.budden i hardly have enuff to support moiself thru the month.i m spending alot ya...wadeva.haish.duno la.sians.

cia penned♥ Tuesday, August 15, 2006.
Monday, August 14, 2006

today went to study at fajar mac.then went to popo hse to play wif bertram wif olivia.hee XD.we only study one chapter.HAHA.LOL.hmmm...then i went to hab dinner at bpp.then went to olivia hse tok tok then i went to take bus 180 to cy hse.then wait for him downstairs.

so happie to noe tt he pass his driving test.then wait for him.then went to cck to eat.wad the.i forget to bring moi baggie along.haish.went home late.sians.tt's abt it.i m happie to be able to meet dear today.its a joyful dae.

moi dear beri notti today.cos he took moi ring dun wan2 return mi and then he play wif the doggie...and then i cant play.cos i malu okie.then the doggie lyk dun lyk mi.silly doggie.haish.i feel abit sad cos i went home moiself.and i chase the bus moiself.i feel all alone out of a sudden and feel down how i wish i can have dear by moi side at tt moment.i noe i alwis wishful thinking.hee...haish.love u dear.

tmr must STUDY!

cia penned♥ Monday, August 14, 2006.

13 august.

a day spend with dear.i notice a little change in dear when i m angry.he do not use to be lyk tt.budden i found out.and i will nt let it happen again.cos i value this r/s.i do.do not doubt or i punch u in ya ass.hee XD.

a little hip-cup with dear cos he playing game then lyk ignore mi ma.then i angry.then we....the details shall be cut.HEE XD.aniway we make-it up.moving up to a higher level of understanding.then i stay till 8pm at his hse.cos moi grandma no cook hotpot.luckily.haha.then at his hse we watch jin tian yi.play monkey ball.i slept quite alot co super tired then we eat dinner and lunch together.heeXD.so happie.then i pei him go causeway point there to take his bus169 to his camp.i went over to moi grandma there in the end.

i lai ang.haha SO HAPPIE.then went over moi grandma hse.play with bertram awhile then went to play moi bro's gameboy then i oror ZZzzzZZzz.till they finish the mahjong session.then went home then again ZzzZzzz...till morning.go toilet.oh i shit yesterday at dear hse.so malu.WAHA.

dear sorie that i m angry over this small little things.i hope u understand tt the effort u=in u trying to make mi happie i can see and i can feel.i appreciate it.i noe u sing to make mi happie.i noe it.budden it just happen tt perhaps i want the hug more than anything.i noe i sae aiya when u try to grab hold of moi hand went entering the mrt.budden i jsut want the hug more than anitin.i dun care who's there or nt there.its our world when i m with u.and i just wondering y u did nt come towards mi to hug mi when i threw the heart away.i dun wan the heart aniway.its bad memories.i make u one,this wan is the one tt stores all our happiness. =).i love u.i dun wish to see u leave mi or tell mi tt u r tired of mi.cos i will feel terribly sad.sad tt u no longer wan2 build this wonderful dream wif mi.our future.

nevetheless,i will never give it up even when u r tired or i m tired myself.cos in mi i noe i must fight for moi happiness.i will take u along with mi.even u r tired i will gib u energy.XD.okie aniway i want u to pass ya driving test.cos i wan2 c u.

cia penned♥ Monday, August 14, 2006.
Sunday, August 13, 2006

12 august

well today is overall a great day.i spend it with dear and moi bestie.okie the story starts....first i went to meet via to pass her the lens case.poor her.sad story behind not to mention =x.waha.then went to jp have a lonely lunch.wait for dear to go toa payoh...

okie then mit him at abt 2.50plus pm then went to take mrt...then actuali is braddell la...the damn damn person buwee moi dear humph!!.then went out le oso no come pick moi poor dear humph.then feel so angry...BUWEE moi dear and mi....we walk to the wrong block.moi fault cos i thot is 204..actuali is 240...then went up into his hse...testing the PS2.then dear ask mi test.i duno how...wierd wierd.then the seller is a MALAY lei...hee hee i guess corrite cos dear sae he indian.=p.tt's nt the point.cos i feel happie tt dear can finally get wad he likes...then we walk to shell station get drinks.then i fold heart for him...

in between gt unhappie events.i forget le.budden i apologize for moi bad.then we went to bugis...then we went to toilet at hotel.hee XD then went to take neocard.budden i look abit silly in it.=x.then went to meet via after tt we went to bugis icon...nth much accept for a few shops...then went to bugis street...then finally to raffles city.we went to have dinner first at suntec city...then we went to cold storage to buy drinks then went to arcade.its fun la...hee XD.i enjoy it.then went to c fireworks tt time beri crowded.i beri pek la.cos warm..then i angry pek...wif moi dear.i m sorie.moi bad.then we went to the esplanade there nor...then went to the hawer there de tt alley.to c the beautiful fireworks.its fantastic.i love it.

i m happie to c it with dear.so happie so lucky to c it wif the one i love i have the feel of xin fu.i really feel so.really alot.how i wish he hug mi around moi waist to watch it.cos he busy taking video and i toot toot forget to help him take his PS2...then we just watch it standing closely together.tt's more than enuff...another thing is when we went off its so crowded then i nearly faint.cos giddy then breathing difficulty...then i feel so lucky gt dear with mi to protect mi to shield mi from danger.his caring hand make mi feel so much comfort knowing there's someone there for mi.

budden i get angry wif him again cos walk to the mrt there oso beri crowded and stuff i scare i again giddy...haish.i feel bad cos i ignore him on the mrt.i m lousy rite.i walk to him i wan2 hug him i wan to.budden he sit down cos his leg pain.i heartache too.he look so sad so sad.i can die.cos i feel the hurt.the look he has make mi wan to hit moiself real hit.i really m sad. :( then went home wif via cos dear ask mi go home if nt get scolded ny moi mami.budden i m so worried for him.thank god tt he's fine.

i dun wan anitin to happen to moi dear.i feel so much better secure with him around.i dun wan anione to buwee him or him to be hurt or sad or wadeva.cos it does really affect mi.wadeva he does.i noe its for mi.so i appreciate it and i love him alot alot.i really do love u dear.no matter how fierce or angry i m.i still love u at moi bottom of moi heart.i do feel hurt when i c u so sad u noe.haish.

how i wish i can hug u now and sayang u.sorie dear for making ya day nt great.but i m defintely happie co su make moi day a happie wan cos u praise moi hair and u watch the fireworks wif mi despite tt ya leg beri pain.u still put in the effort.i love u.

cia penned♥ Sunday, August 13, 2006.
Friday, August 11, 2006

today i went out wif moi aunt and heeXD its so hilarious can....first we went for lunch and breakfast at chinatown...then went to the bridal gown shop for moi aunt to try on her gowns then we went to international plaza>(there gt some clothes beri nice budden i no check out the price la)... then went to the holiday inn hotel for dinner.a buffet.so full.i m fat!!!!!!!!...omg...all the good food...

okie then during the buffet i cant receive moi dear call reply him sms he no reply bk.haish.moi poor dear.i feel sad for him.cos he is so emo wan then some of his fren not gng bk there on monday cos they pass ma today.then he sad.moi poor dearie hubbie.then summore he oni take test on monday not today...haish.moi poor dearie.he gng bk stay-in...haish.feel so sad for him.i wan2 sayang him lei...boo hoo>.<.

aniway i believe on monday moi cutie hubbie will pass his driving test and then can join his grp of frens le...i shall pray hard for him and gib him all moi luck...and for moiself i gotta study hard le!!!!!!!!!!!!argh!!!~~~

aniway during the buffet moi aunt wanted to eat dessert so she use moi fork...and i b4 tt i use moi fork to mix wasabi,salt and pepper together...so when she used it...i called out to her in slow motion not to use the fork...budden she ignore mi...so she kana the wasabi...HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE HAAAAAhhh...XD.she nag all the way after tt....there gt chocolate foundtain...i enjoy it...gt white chocolate and dark chocolate...YUMMY...oh ya we tok abt ghosts when we were walking to the bridal shop then moi another aunt so scare tt she dun wan2 use the toilet cos she scare.....she tahan her shit till moi aunt finish her trying of bridal shop and then we went to a building duno called wad...she shit there.SMELLY can...toxic...killer.we ran out...the WE refering to moi mami,moi another aunt and mi...WAHA.

for more details...i think i forget le...so tt's the end for today...lastly,we walk to somerset mrt behind there take bus190 then went our separate ways home.so its HOME sweet HOME.hee XD.

i miss moi dear alot.haish haish...I M GNG TO CALL HIM NOW!!!!!!!!muacks muacks.
oh ya via so hows ya day...do tell mi!msg mi!

cia penned♥ Friday, August 11, 2006.
Thursday, August 10, 2006

today.i woke up reluctantly to go to school.okie.quite a fruitful lecture so no waste my 2hrs of time.went home wif kaixin.i went to bpp first.visit the library.thot olivia meeting mi.in the end nope.cos we are sort of slack.haha.okie went to breadtalk bought moiself some food.went to bustop to go home tt time ate it.

went home.moi bro is at home.moi dad too.he went to buy us lunch.i ate again.after tt moi dad went to attend his fren's ROM.we stay at home.moi bro and i watch johnny english a comedy film...by mr.bean...its damn funny k...i shit alot of times today....during the show i ate ice-cream...strawberry and cream...welll duno feel uncomfortable in moi stomache....

then shit alot of times.then after the show i slept till 6pm bring moi bro to pending lrt....then i went home...to sleep and shit....well...tired....then moi dear gt sms mi so did olivia.sms them then sleep...then around 7pm plus i guess dear called...i chatted wif him for awhile ask him go rest cos he gt a headache.worried for him...i want to go to toa payoh with him on sat...i dun care...and i m so happie for him becos he pass his driving test today...aniway he taking the actual want tmr...and he is nervous!!no confident...

i wish him all the best.give him all moi luck...help him pray pray...hope he will pass with satisfactory results.i love him.i love u dear.muacks.i believe u can do it so believe in yourself k.okie.really believe in yaself...dun be nervous k...check all the necessary things first k...esp ya engine la.gear la...wadeva.dun PANIC or BLANKOUT.these wont help.muacks.tk carie.i will alwis be by ya side suppoorting u.

gng out wif moi aunts tmr....YAY!!.hah.aniway tt's abt it for today.i dun feel really well and i slept alot.tt's good.i nid to catch up on moi sleep cos i really have awful dark circle under moi eyes.make mi look restless.ugly.fat.haha.heheXD.okie tk care all moi readers.

cia penned♥ Thursday, August 10, 2006.
Wednesday, August 09, 2006

mi today woke up @7am too tired then go oror then woke up at 8am then again too tired go oror then finally woke up at 9am...drag moiself up go bathe then go dear there.haha.goodie...

then went there walk to his hse there he hid there i thot he never come down i feel so disappointed at first after seeing him i feel so happie.went ntuc wif him and his mami.so funni sial.his mami brought 10bucks only then he cant buy much things.he actuali wanted to buy maggie mee,harsh browns,nuggets and chicken de...WAHA.so adorable la his face...so funni hee.XD.

then went to kopitiam bought curry zhu chang fen...he lyk it alot...-.-".then oso went to buy newspaper.then went bk to his hse...slack.watch cartoons and stuff...so funni....hee XD.enjoy beign with him all the time.he entertains mi.love mi.dote mi.everything la...then his mami gt cook.we ate lunch together...full!!.

then after tt we spend time together oso...so nice...then we ate dinner.i wash dishes then he go get prepared to go for army...then i went in c him watch cartoon then i abit sians.cos i beri miss him wor.i cant bear to see him go wor...i miss him alot.i nearly cry today when he leave.haish.miss him wor...i hope and pray tt he pass all his tests.so he can acc mi more.HEE HEE XD.

to via-hope u r alright ya.i noe its tough to go thru this kinda day alone.i hope u will just keep pooh and dolphin in ya sweet memories box.seal it and not to open.i noe i m saying so EASY.its is HARD to do so.budden i do hope one day u can do it i will alwis support u by ya side as ya best frens and becos we are libra gers.

to laine-heya babe.miss u :X.haha k la glad tt u r doing fine.tk carie.i hope ya life everyday is happie.the true happiness u been looking for.

to peg-hope u r doing fine at work and ya studies.rock on.stay pretty. ;)

to jun-long time no sms u or tok to u or see u.i just hope u r doing fine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

cia penned♥ Wednesday, August 09, 2006.
Tuesday, August 08, 2006

8 august.

well woke up...went to shit.HEE HEE XD.then went to eat breakkie.then watch the tape till 5pm plus...slack...then went to bathe then went to find dear nor.

wait for him at the lakeside mrt there.then when he arrived we go buy soyabean milk to drink.we went bk by bus 246.then spend some time together then we went to eat dinner...feel abit stomache pain...then ate slowly.i ate yong tau fu then dear eat the mixed veggie rice.then ltr he go buy bubble tea for mi.then i cough...then we went to ntuc...to buy some stuffs.then dear nag at mi sae i cough.-.-".haha...

then went bk his hse...stay till 10.45pm went home.then his mami's frens there then they are atonished to c mi there.-.-".so pai seh la.then went downstairs we walk to the shelter there sit awhile then walk off...then go wait for bus.then board the bus....

haha then sms dear awhile nor...then i oso receive wierd glances today i HATE it.then went home...then call dear then he acc mi tok awhile.now he confirmed oror liao.-.-".then i went into the lift wierd scenario.cos gt this guy wan2 take the lift then wait dun wan.then his younger sister is pressing the lift wan.FUCK la.waste my time oni.aniway gt moi dear tok to mi i feel so happie.muacks dear.

cia penned♥ Tuesday, August 08, 2006.
Monday, August 07, 2006

7 august.

woke up went for POA tutorial.well boring.must wait outside la.the door locked.the teachers really ar.LAZY till duno wad lyk this.i went there at 8.42am plus dunno must wait till wad time sial.so fed-up.aniway finish the POA tutorial quick.YAY!.

then we waited for the BMGT tutor.she's slow.wa liao so long then bring the BMGT project to us.then we only get 77 marks la.it is a grade B okie.well moi class mates GL wif her...LOL.aniway we mange to add 5marks la.then the RAYMOND ar thot he do alot of work ar.complain so much...the rest of us oso keep quiet la.shit him!.yao zhong okie la.poor mi and lizhen.we are quite disappointed with the marks we obtained.we aimed for an Agrade at least.haish.sad.=(

then after everything went for lunch with audris and shuhui.moi classmates.i ate ban mian.then they ate yong tau fu.canteen1 food sucks.well i noe the ban mian okie la.then i ate.then i forget to tell them nt to put the fried spring onion.then they put alot la.omg!!!!!want my life.i take out every single piece of it.so EEEEEEEKKKKKKK can.then gt a guy keep looking at mi.wtf.i think i look wierd.-.-".haish.then went to my grandma hse after tis.

met olivia at the terminal.she sae moi hair lyk red.DAMN.she is idotic.WAHA.okie went to moi grandma hse then play wif baby bertram moi cuz.then went to sleep.who noes.the OLIVIA come disturb moi beauty sleep.she come find mi at fajar.c her ke lian.HAHA.okie la.we crap alot then we tok tok tok tok....aniway she gt come moi grandma hse.play wif the baby...and she hate moi aunt's dog>BROWNIE.haha.then i acc her home...

after tt walk bk help moi grandparent pray pray.then went up...then at nite go down eat the 7th month dinner till full full...LOL>.<.so full.aniway moi parent bid things for moi bro nor.WTF>.<.i not happie.humph.>.<

cia penned♥ Monday, August 07, 2006.
Sunday, August 06, 2006

today.woke up then went to colour my hair to purple.the result is okie la.cos of moi previous colour.it kinda look lyk brown or red.up to u all to decide la.i m alrite with it.the haircut sucks.budden i nid to tahan cos i m growing moi hair.>.<.

then went to cy there.pei him till he go bk army.ate dinner at his hse.b4 tt drank chicken soup eat chicken nuggets.then b4 tt i ate lor mee,zhu chang feng and popiah.aniway i m a big eater.HAHAHA.okie tt's nt funni-.-".cos i m gaining weight.oh YAY.fats rather.aniway a rather good day.

wondering should i get myself a pair of green lens to go along moi new hair.i m waiting for my exams to come cos i dun wan2 study nid a break....

cia penned♥ Sunday, August 06, 2006.

5th august.

mi woke up at 10am plus nt sure wad time la.then i atet breakkie then watch tape...then till afternoon.cos moi mami ask mi help her do housechore again then i went out to mit dear.b4 tt went to bathe then b4 tt went to shit...YAY!!i can shit wor. haha.then olivia call mi while i shitting.then moi bro went to pick up the call.guess wad he never ask who then ask mi to call bk..

then i quickly went into the room then check moi hp gt 20 missed calls...i guess its olivia cos oni she then will call moi hse fone.then i noe its dear ask her to call mi.cos he cant contact mi through hp.then i called olivia then call dear.

then quickly went to moi dear there.i ran there.aniway i went up then dear face dark dark...lyk beri angry i scare wor....then i keep quiet...then he LOOK PISSED.i thot he angry with mi.ltr he sae olivia find mi online then me went to sms her bk cos dear using com.then he ask mi to reply online la.then sae he no angry wif mi becos of his PS2 tt y he pissed.then we hab fun...

we went to jp de library.then jp to walk walk.so fun.we walk there.then went home by bus.b4 gng bk we bought dinner.then walk bk to his hse.we watch car.to finish the day.aniway i went bk moiself was kinda hoping he will send mi home cos i m sort of scared.cos late le.budden nvm he call mi to tok.i feel better.reach home actuali wan2 watch tape.budden moi bro wan2 watch tokyo drift.then i went to ZzzzzZzzz.

cia penned♥ Sunday, August 06, 2006.

4th august.

todae mi woke up then went to help mami do housechore then went out wif olivia to town.we went window shopping at wisma there.gt one shop called forever21 de clothes beri nice.wan2 shop there for new year clothes.then i wan the face shop de nail polish.its gold enamel.beri nice,i want to go shopping then corrite liao.

cos i wan2 go into vintage if possible.fat ppl oso can k.=p.aniway its a happie dae.it sum up by gng to dinner wif moi bro and dad.i eat mui fan.then moi bro eat pork rib rice then moi dad eat mui fan too.copycat mi.>.<.haha.then went home.watch moi mami tape till 5.30am then slp.

cia penned♥ Sunday, August 06, 2006.
Thursday, August 03, 2006

today is our 13th month.sad.and happy.sad becos he is nt wif mi i m nt wif him.happie is tt he wish mi happie 13th month once i open moi eyes from moi sleep.HEE.XD.then i wish him bk after i bathe and stuffs lyk tt.well a day to start.

boring lecture.cramps at moi legs there cos walking.and from FLOORBALL>.<.then after tt went for lunch ate yong tau fu laksa.own a name call yong tau fu mei!!.LOL>.

then today gt BCA test.i m damn bored at the library.gt moiself a pair of earrings.so nice.via gib mi negative comments.>.<.dun care.WAHA.then so mani things.the heart itch.budden the pocket is burned out alr.IF ONLY I HAB MONEY.ya a dream indeed.hence i swear to be rich.cos no $ no say.ain't it.i rather stay at a bungalow...have have a swimming pool.a car.WOO~.so ppl dun look down on mi.ya...nobody is looking down on mi budden i just wan2 be rich la.i hab lofty ambitions.WAHA.

i want my dear to be with me when im rich so we can reap the things we sow....heeXD.we will be both mugging HARD.to earn lotsa.i love him.i miss him.i just wif to be notti wif him and HEE XD.hug him!!!!~~.well bk to moi test.the test is acceptable okie la.budden the chart i did wrongly.kinda sucks.LOL.went to bpp wif olivia after tt.

she went to meet angela i went to meet moi dad.have dinner then went to ntuc to shop for grocery or rather our wants.then crap alot wif him.then went home.then watch rated E.then no call moi dear.hee he is pissed.HAHA.LOL.i m sorie dear.i love to tok to u on fone.defintely.cos u sound so cute.

my dear>>simply cute and adorable and blur.wow a hot sexy man.i love him.*lick my lips*make mi want to eat him up...*yummy*.WAHA.sorie for the mushy content.its just mi simply mi!!!!!!~~


cia penned♥ Thursday, August 03, 2006.
Wednesday, August 02, 2006

todae i woke up at 5.30am to tok to dear then went bk to sleep till 11.30am cos dear sms mi.disturb mi.>.<.hee hee.XD.he lie to me tt he fail his HSP test then he sad.make mi curse tt salty veggie.actuali he passed.then went to wash-up.

cook mee eat.then went to school.then go for the dumb 2hr management.damn.then okie la.no listen as usual.then went to lot1.eat octopus balls.then went to library.i FUCK the OLD VIRGIN LA.damn her.she think she is wad PRETTY ASS?she said>>u can answer ya call outside.this is the library.i wan2 point her middle finger.cos i toking on phone with dear so nvm.then i went in front.anihow put the books heck her.librarians ain't to be treated well.they are menopause creatures!!!!!!!!!~>.<.haha.aniway call dear.hab a quarrel.i was WTF.okie.i m attitude.i dun feel like meeting him at first.cos i feel upset by him.then went to terminal take bus190 bk to moi own bustop there then take 187.on moi way.saw jia min crap with her.haha.she cheer mi up alot.oso thanks to moi bestie who called mi immediately.ha.she is just so good!!!!!!!~~

aniway went to causeway look for moi dear.then went to foodcourt eat dinner.i ate beef noodles.dry wan.yummy.then his fren came.scare him budden i no tell him =x.hee XD.then i cries alittle.cos he msg mi sumtin hurtful.hee XD.budden i feel so much better after he hug mi and muacks mi.hee.we go to a secret place.=p.then we went to do grocery.oh just buy maggie mee n a bottle rootbeer.then queue up for the $$..i mean atm.haha.then i fold a heart for him.tmr is our 1year1mth.HOHO.XD.okie aniway we went to old chang kee.saw moi floorball fren.then chat awhile.then went off.

soon dear leave me and go bk his camp.cant bear to c him go u noe.HAISH.then i went home alone.listening to moi mp3.hee.XD.it did nt die on mi.moi beloved dear.i noe u hab lotsa tests upcoming pls pls do jia you k.dun be afraid of test.conquer them.i hope u like the storybook i pick for u.love u.no matter wad u hab done to me.i still love u so muchie.MUACKS.tk carie.pls take carie of ya health.

i think i caught a flu.AWWW!~~~tmr BCA final test.i m dying can....hooooooooo~!!

cia penned♥ Wednesday, August 02, 2006.
Tuesday, August 01, 2006

well....today pon my bmgt lecture...then sleep till 12pm lyk tt then woke up.reply sms to my dear.cos i morning abt 10am lyk tt went to toilet le sms him.oh...btw he call mi at 5.30am ain't he cute?hee hee.XD.i love hearing his SEXY voice.woo~

then i woke up le went to bathe then b4 tt quickly take my clothes in cos its raining.wtf.my dad did nt noe its raining >.<.-.-".then went to bathe after tt cook noodles to eat le.eat le watch channel newsasia.then went to use lappie so tt batt can flat haha.check my student MeL,mail and NpaL.

then check check....then chat with lizhen online.and my cuz.then went to school nor.FOR FLOORBALL>.<.its so fun.its been so fun.well thursday cant go again.cos gt BCA.wad the fuck.k la.usually thurs i oso beri lazy go want.haish.mus mug again liao.gng to have BCA final test liao.i sort of forget how to use V-lookup.omg!!!oh noooo....k la.

i enjoy toking to dear.oh after floorball we gt tok awhile then he went for parade.then took bus home then walk bk.so hungry.ate rice and ICE-CREAM heeXD.envy rite.=x.i simply love my dear he is forever my baby k.muacks!!.u must pass ya test tmr with flying colours wor!

cia penned♥ Tuesday, August 01, 2006.

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