Friday, May 05, 2006
4 may.
wad a day..MAEC all the way...well i prefer the tutorial the tutor is clear...and he make mi understand MAEC better now...well nt sae the lecturer nt good.he is good i wont deny.however he cant seem to drive the main point to mi at all...confused whenever in his lessons which make mi wanted to doze off....well he does liven up the lecture wif his lame joke...HAhaHA...okie.
aniway after everything,i went straight to moi grandma hse to meet moi aunt cheng.we r gng to bugis together....when we reach there we shop shop la...got one shop forget the name...all the pumps are beri nice haha...budden X so i did nt want moi aunt cheng to get it for mi altht she sae she dun mind buying mi one.lol.then we shop for abt half an hour...moi another aunt called joanne.she sae she jus off work...LOL...mus wait for her...aniway we continue the shopping till she reach la...in between we eat alot...i ate the tako balls.then prawn tibits then fries...then i m FAT...then after tt when joanne arrive we went to the NORTH BRIDGE SHOPPING CENTRE...some wulu place...then went to c her wedding stuff....then after tt went to chinatown there to see her wedding stuff again...then she still nt satisfied...aniway all 3 of us meet up wif moi mami at chinatown then we finally went to those ancient traditional wedding stuff shop....and FINALLY she is satisfy cos she bought wad she aim to buy le...then at last we went for dinner....we ate dumplings and xiao long bao and i ate dessert while the rest of them drank sugarcane...oh ya and fishballs...moi mami ate a bowl of porridge...then we all decided to go home.they wan2 take taxi...and somehow i feel tt chinatown short of taxi sial so mani ppl vying for the taxi can u imagine the scenario..it lyk wa liao....the taxi is make of gold everyone wanted a piece of it...lol.then after tt joanne called moi uncle-peter to drive us bk...he's ataxi driver...so he drove everyone of us home...then he gt sae wan2 gib mi $$ to buy bags...i think i spend it on shoe and clothes...bags are secondary stuffs...HEEHEEEEEEEEEEE..
aniway during this trip i got alot of shocking news...well actuali i plan to meet cy on sat for the whole day...its a belated 10th month ma...who noes...haish..i heard frm aunt cheng sae tt mus go eat dinner on sat at 6pm...then moi mami setting off at 5.15pm...tt's means i mus be bk at 5-5.15pm...which means lesser time to spend wif moi cy.i m beri sad...i m indeed sad.beri beri.haish....plus today i having the freaking LMS or IAC wadeva it is till 5pm then go trim moi ass brows...then can go mit cy...cy is lyk so sad and disappointed tt he even dun wan2 meet mi on sat at first...which make mi on the verge of crying in front of moi aunts and mami.moi aunts keep claiming tt i hab a bf i refuse to ans tt qn...its nt i dun wan to expose...budden i try it once i dun wan to die of hearbroken tis time...i m really sad altht cy sae he meet mi early on sat lol wad to do...i noe i noe he is beri beri sad and disappointed...cos he sae at first he looks forward to booking out however it turn out tt now he cant even be bothered whether to book out or nt...all those words sting moi heart....i really wan2 c him de...i really wan2 spend time wif him de...i duno y gt so mani programmes pop out at the same time....whenever i recall those things he sae i cry...i sad la.so bad and guilty sial...i nt doing it on purpose...i hate to break promise too....i noe i alwis did tt budden its unintentionally de...i really dun wan2 c him sians la...i m useless i admit..i cant even reject any things...its lyk i m sooo i duno la...freaking hell fucking hell useless...call mi anitin....i noe i m a loser.i can afford to lose him...i duno...those things he sae...make mi feel tt i m lyk jus a thing...cant even be bothered whether or nt he book out...the fury burn in moi heart however the sadness and hurt conquer it...which make mi go all weak....i cant tahan but to cry...
alot of things form on moi mind when he sae all those...i m wondering wad if he angry dun wan mi....wad if he dun wan to book out at all...wad if he dun even wan2 c mi...wad if...alot alot of wad if...aint i sensative...i m so shitty la...i dun dare to push away the project meeting i dun dare to reject the dinner thing...aint i a coward...y m i so loser...i duno.perhaps...i m jus a lousy gf...i wan2 be a good gf...however a simple thing lyk accompanying moi dear oso cant do.wad sort of gf m i...i m nth budden a pile of shit.
dear i jus wan u to noe...i really am disappointed and sad jus lyk u...i noe i noe u miss mi.i miss u too...i noe the feelings tt all our plans are being ruin...i noe.i noe how it feels...i really really do love u.first i cant afford to sacrifice my studies secondly i cant break moi promise on the eyebrow trimming and i wan2 go out wif u looking pretty(so tt i wont embarrass u) thirdly i cant risk our r/s,if i dun go they will sae i m wasting their money and tt i m lyk oni concern abt gng out go 4 a dinner oso reluctant...i sort of stuck in the middle everywhere...i feel lyk squatting down and scream and cry and bite moiself and cut moiself.cos i think i might nt take it one day...i nid u to support mi...pls can?can?...i dun wan to lose moi dear nor moi family...neither do i wan2 lose moi studies.yes i m greedy.sorie.i can oni offer moi apology to u...cos i noe saying sorie may nt even help budden i cant help it i hab nth to sae...i m in the fault...its all becos of mi...everything is lyk tt....i m jus so.sucky.
i m really waiting for nxt few hours so i can see u touch u hold u hug u kiss u.i dun wan to hear oni the recording...hug and kiss moi soft toys...i wan u.u noe u r impt to mi.i noe u sae studies and moi family is more impt...however i feel tt these three things weight equally in mi tt's y its so heavy...till sometimes...i mayb unable to taske a breathe...not forgetting moi frens...they r the ones who help mi thru lonely days w/o u...so they are equally impt to mi too...m i selfish to sae it tis way..i nt trying to blame anione or wad...i jus wan2 voice out...i jus wan U to noe...to understand...i dun quarrels anitin...i wan2 to be u happily ever after.sorie dear.
MISS u.LOVE u.SORRY....
wad a day..MAEC all the way...well i prefer the tutorial the tutor is clear...and he make mi understand MAEC better now...well nt sae the lecturer nt good.he is good i wont deny.however he cant seem to drive the main point to mi at all...confused whenever in his lessons which make mi wanted to doze off....well he does liven up the lecture wif his lame joke...HAhaHA...okie.
aniway after everything,i went straight to moi grandma hse to meet moi aunt cheng.we r gng to bugis together....when we reach there we shop shop la...got one shop forget the name...all the pumps are beri nice haha...budden X so i did nt want moi aunt cheng to get it for mi altht she sae she dun mind buying mi one.lol.then we shop for abt half an hour...moi another aunt called joanne.she sae she jus off work...LOL...mus wait for her...aniway we continue the shopping till she reach la...in between we eat alot...i ate the tako balls.then prawn tibits then fries...then i m FAT...then after tt when joanne arrive we went to the NORTH BRIDGE SHOPPING CENTRE...some wulu place...then went to c her wedding stuff....then after tt went to chinatown there to see her wedding stuff again...then she still nt satisfied...aniway all 3 of us meet up wif moi mami at chinatown then we finally went to those ancient traditional wedding stuff shop....and FINALLY she is satisfy cos she bought wad she aim to buy le...then at last we went for dinner....we ate dumplings and xiao long bao and i ate dessert while the rest of them drank sugarcane...oh ya and fishballs...moi mami ate a bowl of porridge...then we all decided to go home.they wan2 take taxi...and somehow i feel tt chinatown short of taxi sial so mani ppl vying for the taxi can u imagine the scenario..it lyk wa liao....the taxi is make of gold everyone wanted a piece of it...lol.then after tt joanne called moi uncle-peter to drive us bk...he's ataxi driver...so he drove everyone of us home...then he gt sae wan2 gib mi $$ to buy bags...i think i spend it on shoe and clothes...bags are secondary stuffs...HEEHEEEEEEEEEEE..
aniway during this trip i got alot of shocking news...well actuali i plan to meet cy on sat for the whole day...its a belated 10th month ma...who noes...haish..i heard frm aunt cheng sae tt mus go eat dinner on sat at 6pm...then moi mami setting off at 5.15pm...tt's means i mus be bk at 5-5.15pm...which means lesser time to spend wif moi cy.i m beri sad...i m indeed sad.beri beri.haish....plus today i having the freaking LMS or IAC wadeva it is till 5pm then go trim moi ass brows...then can go mit cy...cy is lyk so sad and disappointed tt he even dun wan2 meet mi on sat at first...which make mi on the verge of crying in front of moi aunts and mami.moi aunts keep claiming tt i hab a bf i refuse to ans tt qn...its nt i dun wan to expose...budden i try it once i dun wan to die of hearbroken tis time...i m really sad altht cy sae he meet mi early on sat lol wad to do...i noe i noe he is beri beri sad and disappointed...cos he sae at first he looks forward to booking out however it turn out tt now he cant even be bothered whether to book out or nt...all those words sting moi heart....i really wan2 c him de...i really wan2 spend time wif him de...i duno y gt so mani programmes pop out at the same time....whenever i recall those things he sae i cry...i sad la.so bad and guilty sial...i nt doing it on purpose...i hate to break promise too....i noe i alwis did tt budden its unintentionally de...i really dun wan2 c him sians la...i m useless i admit..i cant even reject any things...its lyk i m sooo i duno la...freaking hell fucking hell useless...call mi anitin....i noe i m a loser.i can afford to lose him...i duno...those things he sae...make mi feel tt i m lyk jus a thing...cant even be bothered whether or nt he book out...the fury burn in moi heart however the sadness and hurt conquer it...which make mi go all weak....i cant tahan but to cry...
alot of things form on moi mind when he sae all those...i m wondering wad if he angry dun wan mi....wad if he dun wan to book out at all...wad if he dun even wan2 c mi...wad if...alot alot of wad if...aint i sensative...i m so shitty la...i dun dare to push away the project meeting i dun dare to reject the dinner thing...aint i a coward...y m i so loser...i duno.perhaps...i m jus a lousy gf...i wan2 be a good gf...however a simple thing lyk accompanying moi dear oso cant do.wad sort of gf m i...i m nth budden a pile of shit.
dear i jus wan u to noe...i really am disappointed and sad jus lyk u...i noe i noe u miss mi.i miss u too...i noe the feelings tt all our plans are being ruin...i noe.i noe how it feels...i really really do love u.first i cant afford to sacrifice my studies secondly i cant break moi promise on the eyebrow trimming and i wan2 go out wif u looking pretty(so tt i wont embarrass u) thirdly i cant risk our r/s,if i dun go they will sae i m wasting their money and tt i m lyk oni concern abt gng out go 4 a dinner oso reluctant...i sort of stuck in the middle everywhere...i feel lyk squatting down and scream and cry and bite moiself and cut moiself.cos i think i might nt take it one day...i nid u to support mi...pls can?can?...i dun wan to lose moi dear nor moi family...neither do i wan2 lose moi studies.yes i m greedy.sorie.i can oni offer moi apology to u...cos i noe saying sorie may nt even help budden i cant help it i hab nth to sae...i m in the fault...its all becos of mi...everything is lyk tt....i m jus so.sucky.
i m really waiting for nxt few hours so i can see u touch u hold u hug u kiss u.i dun wan to hear oni the recording...hug and kiss moi soft toys...i wan u.u noe u r impt to mi.i noe u sae studies and moi family is more impt...however i feel tt these three things weight equally in mi tt's y its so heavy...till sometimes...i mayb unable to taske a breathe...not forgetting moi frens...they r the ones who help mi thru lonely days w/o u...so they are equally impt to mi too...m i selfish to sae it tis way..i nt trying to blame anione or wad...i jus wan2 voice out...i jus wan U to noe...to understand...i dun quarrels anitin...i wan2 to be u happily ever after.sorie dear.
MISS u.LOVE u.SORRY....
cia penned♥ Friday, May 05, 2006.
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