Monday, June 05, 2006
3 june.
sorie i m way bk in moi entries.cos i hab no time and no mood on sat.haha.well.sat is moi 11th month wif moi dear.i nearly lose him, hwo happie can this day be?its not happie at all.altht we went out hab lunch at jp then some misunderstanding happens.b4 tt he went to withdraw money then after tt went to buy squid to eat...then he eat half liao we went to kfc la...then b4 all this we waiting for bus 240 tt time we beri happie de wor....bk to topic then went in get seated i told him i wan the 2pcs meal then he go and buy.meanwhile i ate the remaining squid cos i sort of beri hungry then who noes the kfc auntie sae mi in malay duno wad budden i noe she dun wan mi to eat the squid at kfc so i no eat liao.then dear bk from buying the lunch then i told him wad happen he is quite pissed.then after tt i squeezed the chilli sauce ma...then i forget to left some for him then i threw the chilli de wrapper on his zinger box...his zinger burger is still there.he is not happie.heh.i oso duno why i threw there perhaps cos i thot empty box ma...then sort of pai seh la...not purposely de.then after tt i finish moi drumstick de bone.shit i forget and i threw in his box again.this time he reali pissed sae mi inconsiderate la,selfish.lol.then i apologise nor.bo bian i keep forgetting ma....then he pour all the rubbish out la then continue to eat nor...then after tt we went to sports shop he wanted to buy some sort lyk towel de wristband i duno how to sae...lyk can wipe sweat de nor...then dun hab wor somemore quite expensive...then he sae a nike shirt quite nice budden he no $$.then i feel bad cos he alwis pay for the outings...then i went to toilet beri long queue...then took quite some time...after tt i went to charles and keith c shoes and baggie...then after tt we went to basement to buy sweets.he bought his while i bought strepsills for moi bro then he went out no wait fo rmi lei...sort of pissed then after tt saw him lyk sians sians lyk tt duno y so no pissed instead i ask him y...he tell mi nth....then we went to take mrt to somerset nor...we board the mrt and we slept along the journey...after tt we alight at raffles then went to change mrt to our destination.finally we r there once we r out of the mrt stn there's this charity stuff cos moi dear so kind-hearted alwis go donate then i waited for him,then he accidently elbow a ger on her arms...the ger moan in pain.i wonder jus a little bit y she moaned so long then dear sae when he swing he exerted a certain force then i noe y she moaned so long liao.haa.then we went to cineleisure there to buy our tix...then we went up to queue nor then bought the tix at 4.10pm,then moi dear beri cute la...sae he wan2 check himself when the ger can attend to our needs...then after tt pay liao no take tix we so blur la...then we shift blames.hah.then after tt we went up to c where is theatre6 la...then he stay up there look at some poster i duno wor...then i went down le then went down again then i ask him y not followin g mi he sae i no wait for him.dots...then nvm...i saw moi cuz-ah cheng korkor at cineleisure budden i no call him la....then we went to buy drinks at cheers nor...then i pay ma then after tt i went to look for dear budden cant find him so i called him then i went out to find him again he sitting on the floor duno for wad i called him faster stand up then we drank our drinks then i ask him wad exactly happened la...then he sae he depress tt's y...becos financial stuffs...then i sort of lyk tok to him la...then suddenly he link to moi footwear...he ask mi wear shoe...then i diunox...wads with the shoe thing then i sae u pick on mi ar...then he jitao sianshalf and sad...and dun wan to tok...we drank our drinks in silence then we stay silence for a long time then he sae we go HMV to tok then i okie nor...then we went there in silence too...i can sense no good thing la...then i try to control moi anger...then when we reach there...we tok tok tok...then out of a sudden here come the show thing then i dunno y he keep emphasising it so i sae u treat mi a dog ar...i sae he so demanding in his way of toking then he completely lost his temper and scold mi.i cant tahan la...i so big,mi mami no scold mi in public i feel so paiseh.so hurt.so sad.then i cried...then he sat there in silence...i sat there crying silently...then after tt we still went for our movie.in moi mind the harsh words of him asking mi to find other guys who can tahan moi temper...flash thru vivdly uncontrollably...moi tears jus roll...then i was emotionless.i m hurt,sad,embarrassed by moi love...then he held moi hand i did nt hab the strength to hold his hand tight animore...cos i feel tt he lyk dun wan mi lyk tt ask mi find other guy...i m trying to control moi anger burning in mi too...i walk bk to cineleisure with a mixture of feelings...then we went to watch Da Vinci...in there i stop crying cos he sae i cry summore he walk out i dun wan tt...so we watch the movie together i held on to his hand tight fear of losing moi another part of mi...then after tt we went to HMV again...we both went our separate ways as we went to loo...his at ground floor mine at second floor ma...then i went there to touch up on moi make-up then went to pee...then i m faster than him cos he stomache ma...then after tt we went to take neocard...then the photo does nt look nice at all...our sad face...he hug mi...however i feel shaky cos i scare, i fear of losing him...then i went to laminate...he gib mi a old spore $5 notes...i so happie he still remember i love to collect old spore $notes.haa.then we went bk to his hse...then we went to take bus la...bus 174...he held moi hand i feel the securtiy again...
well the war start again on the bus...we went on with our quarrel we left b4 the movie...this time more fierce...then more sad...i cried again...he went to sit in another corner...sae he nid to cool down.i noe i cant jus sit in moi place do nth.tt's a mistake,i went to sit with him held his hand in moi...budden he is numb.he is emotionless...the look.so cold.it freeze moi heart.i cried.i noe i commit a mistake.i make our r/s become duno lyk wad..i cried and cried...i hate moiself...stupidilty...i m stupig...then after tt we alight then he ask mi wad i m wan to eat la..then i sae duno...then he sae gib mi 30seconds to think...then i still duno so he sae he buy for mi i jus eat then i went to withdrew money first....he's broke ma...i noe i mus share cost oso...since he pay for everything i pay for dinner nor...then we went to buy our dinner...went bk his hse...we did nt eat...he slept on his bed after unpacking his army stuffs...then i went to lie nxt to him budden he did nt hug mi,kiss mi,he lie there emotionlessly.his cold glare can break mi up...i duno y i find it so dashing budden i noe this is serious matter...we nid to solve it...then we went on again...then i cried...then he sae i oni noe how to cry then i cried even more...then he sae wan 3days leave.i m shocked images flew thru moi mind...i refuse.i refussssse.i held on to him no.he ask mi to prove to him my love...but he was untouched.he is numb.is heart is broken.becos of moi harsh words.he did nt cry.his cold glare kill mi.i cried.he did nt wipe moi tears nor hug mi or even do anitin.then this went on for a long time then after tt...we eat...then i cant eat.moi stomach reject the food i chewing...then we quarrel again...we flew into a fierce arguements...i hurt moiself he did so...then after tt he sae to break-up if i continue i stop.i cried lyk nobody's business i m hurt...VERY hurt...i remember the soft him...the one who stroke mi the one who never shout at mi...the one who NEVER sae breaking-up.i m breaking down so is he...we were so sad...then after the dinner...he send mi home immediately...i wanted to stay to clear things up...he insist mi of gng home cos i m abt to be late home.moi curfew is 12am..its alr 11pm.
then we went bk...he is lyk giddy or wad i ask him he refused to sae...he walk unsteadily...then moi eyes are swollen...i slept on the bus i having disorder...i look lyk a ghost.then i m so lifeless in mi...i want the OLD him bk...i wan the HIM bk...i noe i m alwis the selfish wan who never contribute budden oni he contribute....haish...then i reach home.i m dead beat.then i switch on lappie...then i c who's on msn...meanwhile replying moi dear....i tok to WK...then i told him i dying.haa.he called tell mi relax.then i hung up his call soon cos i wan2 to listen to moi DEAR'S voice oni...he tok to mi..we cried again...i slept then...i never bathe nor do anitin...jus slept till morning...then i realise i m supposed to be toking on fone with him...however i promise to be at his hse early becos he wan to cleear things up wif mi...
sorie i m way bk in moi entries.cos i hab no time and no mood on sat.haha.well.sat is moi 11th month wif moi dear.i nearly lose him, hwo happie can this day be?its not happie at all.altht we went out hab lunch at jp then some misunderstanding happens.b4 tt he went to withdraw money then after tt went to buy squid to eat...then he eat half liao we went to kfc la...then b4 all this we waiting for bus 240 tt time we beri happie de wor....bk to topic then went in get seated i told him i wan the 2pcs meal then he go and buy.meanwhile i ate the remaining squid cos i sort of beri hungry then who noes the kfc auntie sae mi in malay duno wad budden i noe she dun wan mi to eat the squid at kfc so i no eat liao.then dear bk from buying the lunch then i told him wad happen he is quite pissed.then after tt i squeezed the chilli sauce ma...then i forget to left some for him then i threw the chilli de wrapper on his zinger box...his zinger burger is still there.he is not happie.heh.i oso duno why i threw there perhaps cos i thot empty box ma...then sort of pai seh la...not purposely de.then after tt i finish moi drumstick de bone.shit i forget and i threw in his box again.this time he reali pissed sae mi inconsiderate la,selfish.lol.then i apologise nor.bo bian i keep forgetting ma....then he pour all the rubbish out la then continue to eat nor...then after tt we went to sports shop he wanted to buy some sort lyk towel de wristband i duno how to sae...lyk can wipe sweat de nor...then dun hab wor somemore quite expensive...then he sae a nike shirt quite nice budden he no $$.then i feel bad cos he alwis pay for the outings...then i went to toilet beri long queue...then took quite some time...after tt i went to charles and keith c shoes and baggie...then after tt we went to basement to buy sweets.he bought his while i bought strepsills for moi bro then he went out no wait fo rmi lei...sort of pissed then after tt saw him lyk sians sians lyk tt duno y so no pissed instead i ask him y...he tell mi nth....then we went to take mrt to somerset nor...we board the mrt and we slept along the journey...after tt we alight at raffles then went to change mrt to our destination.finally we r there once we r out of the mrt stn there's this charity stuff cos moi dear so kind-hearted alwis go donate then i waited for him,then he accidently elbow a ger on her arms...the ger moan in pain.i wonder jus a little bit y she moaned so long then dear sae when he swing he exerted a certain force then i noe y she moaned so long liao.haa.then we went to cineleisure there to buy our tix...then we went up to queue nor then bought the tix at 4.10pm,then moi dear beri cute la...sae he wan2 check himself when the ger can attend to our needs...then after tt pay liao no take tix we so blur la...then we shift blames.hah.then after tt we went up to c where is theatre6 la...then he stay up there look at some poster i duno wor...then i went down le then went down again then i ask him y not followin g mi he sae i no wait for him.dots...then nvm...i saw moi cuz-ah cheng korkor at cineleisure budden i no call him la....then we went to buy drinks at cheers nor...then i pay ma then after tt i went to look for dear budden cant find him so i called him then i went out to find him again he sitting on the floor duno for wad i called him faster stand up then we drank our drinks then i ask him wad exactly happened la...then he sae he depress tt's y...becos financial stuffs...then i sort of lyk tok to him la...then suddenly he link to moi footwear...he ask mi wear shoe...then i diunox...wads with the shoe thing then i sae u pick on mi ar...then he jitao sianshalf and sad...and dun wan to tok...we drank our drinks in silence then we stay silence for a long time then he sae we go HMV to tok then i okie nor...then we went there in silence too...i can sense no good thing la...then i try to control moi anger...then when we reach there...we tok tok tok...then out of a sudden here come the show thing then i dunno y he keep emphasising it so i sae u treat mi a dog ar...i sae he so demanding in his way of toking then he completely lost his temper and scold mi.i cant tahan la...i so big,mi mami no scold mi in public i feel so paiseh.so hurt.so sad.then i cried...then he sat there in silence...i sat there crying silently...then after tt we still went for our movie.in moi mind the harsh words of him asking mi to find other guys who can tahan moi temper...flash thru vivdly uncontrollably...moi tears jus roll...then i was emotionless.i m hurt,sad,embarrassed by moi love...then he held moi hand i did nt hab the strength to hold his hand tight animore...cos i feel tt he lyk dun wan mi lyk tt ask mi find other guy...i m trying to control moi anger burning in mi too...i walk bk to cineleisure with a mixture of feelings...then we went to watch Da Vinci...in there i stop crying cos he sae i cry summore he walk out i dun wan tt...so we watch the movie together i held on to his hand tight fear of losing moi another part of mi...then after tt we went to HMV again...we both went our separate ways as we went to loo...his at ground floor mine at second floor ma...then i went there to touch up on moi make-up then went to pee...then i m faster than him cos he stomache ma...then after tt we went to take neocard...then the photo does nt look nice at all...our sad face...he hug mi...however i feel shaky cos i scare, i fear of losing him...then i went to laminate...he gib mi a old spore $5 notes...i so happie he still remember i love to collect old spore $notes.haa.then we went bk to his hse...then we went to take bus la...bus 174...he held moi hand i feel the securtiy again...
well the war start again on the bus...we went on with our quarrel we left b4 the movie...this time more fierce...then more sad...i cried again...he went to sit in another corner...sae he nid to cool down.i noe i cant jus sit in moi place do nth.tt's a mistake,i went to sit with him held his hand in moi...budden he is numb.he is emotionless...the look.so cold.it freeze moi heart.i cried.i noe i commit a mistake.i make our r/s become duno lyk wad..i cried and cried...i hate moiself...stupidilty...i m stupig...then after tt we alight then he ask mi wad i m wan to eat la..then i sae duno...then he sae gib mi 30seconds to think...then i still duno so he sae he buy for mi i jus eat then i went to withdrew money first....he's broke ma...i noe i mus share cost oso...since he pay for everything i pay for dinner nor...then we went to buy our dinner...went bk his hse...we did nt eat...he slept on his bed after unpacking his army stuffs...then i went to lie nxt to him budden he did nt hug mi,kiss mi,he lie there emotionlessly.his cold glare can break mi up...i duno y i find it so dashing budden i noe this is serious matter...we nid to solve it...then we went on again...then i cried...then he sae i oni noe how to cry then i cried even more...then he sae wan 3days leave.i m shocked images flew thru moi mind...i refuse.i refussssse.i held on to him no.he ask mi to prove to him my love...but he was untouched.he is numb.is heart is broken.becos of moi harsh words.he did nt cry.his cold glare kill mi.i cried.he did nt wipe moi tears nor hug mi or even do anitin.then this went on for a long time then after tt...we eat...then i cant eat.moi stomach reject the food i chewing...then we quarrel again...we flew into a fierce arguements...i hurt moiself he did so...then after tt he sae to break-up if i continue i stop.i cried lyk nobody's business i m hurt...VERY hurt...i remember the soft him...the one who stroke mi the one who never shout at mi...the one who NEVER sae breaking-up.i m breaking down so is he...we were so sad...then after the dinner...he send mi home immediately...i wanted to stay to clear things up...he insist mi of gng home cos i m abt to be late home.moi curfew is 12am..its alr 11pm.
then we went bk...he is lyk giddy or wad i ask him he refused to sae...he walk unsteadily...then moi eyes are swollen...i slept on the bus i having disorder...i look lyk a ghost.then i m so lifeless in mi...i want the OLD him bk...i wan the HIM bk...i noe i m alwis the selfish wan who never contribute budden oni he contribute....haish...then i reach home.i m dead beat.then i switch on lappie...then i c who's on msn...meanwhile replying moi dear....i tok to WK...then i told him i dying.haa.he called tell mi relax.then i hung up his call soon cos i wan2 to listen to moi DEAR'S voice oni...he tok to mi..we cried again...i slept then...i never bathe nor do anitin...jus slept till morning...then i realise i m supposed to be toking on fone with him...however i promise to be at his hse early becos he wan to cleear things up wif mi...
cia penned♥ Monday, June 05, 2006.
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