Saturday, September 23, 2006
22 september.
i didn't blog yesterday cos i m charging moi hp.then so late then blog.cos i woke up late.
well yesterday i SKIP work.cos i m tired to go or rather tired of the boring thing i m doing everyday i go there.its laziness.yup.then via,meiqi and me went to causeway.we crap we shop we crazy...all this.then moi block nose or rather flu i guess nt getting better.
then after tt went to bpp...to buy sushi and some deserts to eat...then after tt go void deck.then after tt go dear hse.i m shagged.duno y too.anyone wan2 explain moi sleeping disorder?or its just me laziness?.then sleep all the way on the bus180 b4 tt i waiting for moi dear sms.then after tt reach his hse sleep till 7pm.in the middle of moi sleep i guess i offended moi dear.then when he came bk he looked pissed.i cried and hug him afraid he is angry.
then at nite we spend time together.eat.then play game.watch tv.then after tt he acc mi down.i m touched by him cos he did stop his game b4 i went bk to acc mi for awhile.all this while moi mouth goes dry every now and then and moi lips is cracking soon.moi flu is bad.damn.
then as we approaching the bustop...we start toking abt the F maple again.i duno y.then moi dear sae i gave a lame excuse of dun wan2 play the maple game.i m lyk thinking.y must i gib a lame excuse nt to play.game is for leisure hence i play it as and when i lyk it wad.i admit its mi who flame up.getting angry.so i own him 2 things.aniway this whole thing let mi noe tt moi attitude towards things is lyk i do it half-heartedly and if i dun lyk it i dun even try its becos of moi laziness...wadeva so.okie.i admit it.
and its alwis one sentence"i think becos of this there might be some distance between us and we might nt be together."it make mi think alot cos i alwis think"no matter wad we are alwis together."hence i think somethings nid to be re-think in moi brain.it cant stay lyk tt alwis.cos i duno when i might nt be together wif him.so i think i better prepared moiself in some way to get the full impact of hurt.moi heart get cold each time i hear this.it hurts me.FUCK.budden i think tt realilty.
so i guess everyone must learn to hold bk tears.cos i will try NOT to cry so often as it SUX to the core.and i will adopt bk moi old ways.ani crying i m weak.i m nt gng to be tt WEAK.CRY CRY CRY.all i noe is to CRY.FUCK THE WORLD.ya no more tears.a few drip is unable to prevent.i admit.fuck it.fuck it all.
i didn't blog yesterday cos i m charging moi hp.then so late then blog.cos i woke up late.
well yesterday i SKIP work.cos i m tired to go or rather tired of the boring thing i m doing everyday i go there.its laziness.yup.then via,meiqi and me went to causeway.we crap we shop we crazy...all this.then moi block nose or rather flu i guess nt getting better.
then after tt went to bpp...to buy sushi and some deserts to eat...then after tt go void deck.then after tt go dear hse.i m shagged.duno y too.anyone wan2 explain moi sleeping disorder?or its just me laziness?.then sleep all the way on the bus180 b4 tt i waiting for moi dear sms.then after tt reach his hse sleep till 7pm.in the middle of moi sleep i guess i offended moi dear.then when he came bk he looked pissed.i cried and hug him afraid he is angry.
then at nite we spend time together.eat.then play game.watch tv.then after tt he acc mi down.i m touched by him cos he did stop his game b4 i went bk to acc mi for awhile.all this while moi mouth goes dry every now and then and moi lips is cracking soon.moi flu is bad.damn.
then as we approaching the bustop...we start toking abt the F maple again.i duno y.then moi dear sae i gave a lame excuse of dun wan2 play the maple game.i m lyk thinking.y must i gib a lame excuse nt to play.game is for leisure hence i play it as and when i lyk it wad.i admit its mi who flame up.getting angry.so i own him 2 things.aniway this whole thing let mi noe tt moi attitude towards things is lyk i do it half-heartedly and if i dun lyk it i dun even try its becos of moi laziness...wadeva so.okie.i admit it.
and its alwis one sentence"i think becos of this there might be some distance between us and we might nt be together."it make mi think alot cos i alwis think"no matter wad we are alwis together."hence i think somethings nid to be re-think in moi brain.it cant stay lyk tt alwis.cos i duno when i might nt be together wif him.so i think i better prepared moiself in some way to get the full impact of hurt.moi heart get cold each time i hear this.it hurts me.FUCK.budden i think tt realilty.
so i guess everyone must learn to hold bk tears.cos i will try NOT to cry so often as it SUX to the core.and i will adopt bk moi old ways.ani crying i m weak.i m nt gng to be tt WEAK.CRY CRY CRY.all i noe is to CRY.FUCK THE WORLD.ya no more tears.a few drip is unable to prevent.i admit.fuck it.fuck it all.
cia penned♥ Saturday, September 23, 2006.
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