Sunday, April 13, 2008
13 april
my attachment ends. the story ends there too.
i hab some misunderstanding with dear's mum. but it's all clear now. human is an individual or we exist to co-exist with the other human. a tough enough question.
i find myself at times being pathetic as my social circle is pathetically small that i dun hab anyone except olivia, dear and elaine to turn to. m i too pathetic? or m i so lucky to find my soulmates. of cos, i m happy to find my soulmates. however, i find myself pathetic when i can only have myself to tok to and cry with myself when i m oh-so-sad state. i wish to hab someone there for me. but i cant find tt someone when the person i m quarreling with is moi dear rite. well i guess i shuld grow up. independent learner eh. so felicia heng, pls solve ya problem yaself. dun alwis think of gng for help eh.
right now, i m thinking alot. recently, i hab been thinking alot. i want to study well. but i hab yet to d/l my first week lectures. how lazy. or how tired my life is. i hab no energy rite now. cos todae i iron clothes and i scald myself. that's so clumsy and pathetic. ppl alwis comment "felicia, its been ages since i see you and you are FAT" however, i dun hab tt motivation to slim anymore. so, felicia heng can u explain wads gng on with u?
well i dunno, budden i m kinda thinking alot now. becos i feel LONELY or becos m i alwis ALL- ALONE ?well i guess, i need to start to find my life. the one i want or the one ppl want me to lead. well i feel kinda depressed now. i guess there's alot for me to go and fix it up mentally. right now, I WANT TO BE ALONE. dun beep me. dun call me. jus alone will do it fine.
my attachment ends. the story ends there too.
i hab some misunderstanding with dear's mum. but it's all clear now. human is an individual or we exist to co-exist with the other human. a tough enough question.
i find myself at times being pathetic as my social circle is pathetically small that i dun hab anyone except olivia, dear and elaine to turn to. m i too pathetic? or m i so lucky to find my soulmates. of cos, i m happy to find my soulmates. however, i find myself pathetic when i can only have myself to tok to and cry with myself when i m oh-so-sad state. i wish to hab someone there for me. but i cant find tt someone when the person i m quarreling with is moi dear rite. well i guess i shuld grow up. independent learner eh. so felicia heng, pls solve ya problem yaself. dun alwis think of gng for help eh.
right now, i m thinking alot. recently, i hab been thinking alot. i want to study well. but i hab yet to d/l my first week lectures. how lazy. or how tired my life is. i hab no energy rite now. cos todae i iron clothes and i scald myself. that's so clumsy and pathetic. ppl alwis comment "felicia, its been ages since i see you and you are FAT" however, i dun hab tt motivation to slim anymore. so, felicia heng can u explain wads gng on with u?
well i dunno, budden i m kinda thinking alot now. becos i feel LONELY or becos m i alwis ALL- ALONE ?well i guess, i need to start to find my life. the one i want or the one ppl want me to lead. well i feel kinda depressed now. i guess there's alot for me to go and fix it up mentally. right now, I WANT TO BE ALONE. dun beep me. dun call me. jus alone will do it fine.
Labels: i hate myself.
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