Monday, April 13, 2009
13 april
i m lost. utterly lost. lost in the direction leading me onto the future. am lost lost lost.
i chose SIM. i want to go in. i want replies. i dont care how freaking tough it is. i swear to work my ass off. if i still cant get into a local uni that is reputable that can had me employable next time. bye singapore. BYE. eurgh.
i know i m only good at talking or saying, but some things in life i want to achieve it. personal aim personal goal. i dont need anyone to know what i m mumbling about. it's my life.
LOST. freaking LOST.
NOW, i love watching telly. doing nth. being aimless. sleeping in the day. being an owl at night. my dark circles had deepen. i dont give a heck. i m freaking stressed out by the fact that i cant get into a uni. no one to blame but MYSELF, for nt being hardworking. that's right.
i m still fighting on. i want my degree goddammit. and i cant freaking sleep. why must my family keep asking me to go Australia when i dont even know whether i can make it to overseas uni. am i so detestable. or is it i m so weak in my academic that i might not be employable in future. fcuk it k. i know what are my priorities in my life.
i m not like some ppl you can read by looking at my bloody ugly face. wadeva. anyway jus venting some residue anger spilling inside me. so no offence to anyone or wadeva.
random pictures. i want to upload. my ugly recent face.
a random statement: i love sleeping over at my dear's hse. :)) it make me forget the earth spin for awhile. keke. no stress but rest. i want that.
i feeling it building in me. when my mum ask me for replies from uni. i m like. hey mum, i m goddamn stupid in poly k, dont bother me will ya? and dad i hell noe my cuz does well in aust uni, but goddammit i m not acc student. i might not get employ immediately after my studies.
i m lost. utterly lost. lost in the direction leading me onto the future. am lost lost lost.
i chose SIM. i want to go in. i want replies. i dont care how freaking tough it is. i swear to work my ass off. if i still cant get into a local uni that is reputable that can had me employable next time. bye singapore. BYE. eurgh.
i know i m only good at talking or saying, but some things in life i want to achieve it. personal aim personal goal. i dont need anyone to know what i m mumbling about. it's my life.
LOST. freaking LOST.
NOW, i love watching telly. doing nth. being aimless. sleeping in the day. being an owl at night. my dark circles had deepen. i dont give a heck. i m freaking stressed out by the fact that i cant get into a uni. no one to blame but MYSELF, for nt being hardworking. that's right.
i m still fighting on. i want my degree goddammit. and i cant freaking sleep. why must my family keep asking me to go Australia when i dont even know whether i can make it to overseas uni. am i so detestable. or is it i m so weak in my academic that i might not be employable in future. fcuk it k. i know what are my priorities in my life.
i m not like some ppl you can read by looking at my bloody ugly face. wadeva. anyway jus venting some residue anger spilling inside me. so no offence to anyone or wadeva.
random pictures. i want to upload. my ugly recent face.
a random statement: i love sleeping over at my dear's hse. :)) it make me forget the earth spin for awhile. keke. no stress but rest. i want that.
i feeling it building in me. when my mum ask me for replies from uni. i m like. hey mum, i m goddamn stupid in poly k, dont bother me will ya? and dad i hell noe my cuz does well in aust uni, but goddammit i m not acc student. i might not get employ immediately after my studies.
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cia penned♥ Monday, April 13, 2009.
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